In for a kill

Put all your angels on the edge
Keep all the roses, I’m not dead

Missed me much? :D I’ve caught a cold so I didn’t have to go to school today. And you know what that means, right? Spending the whole day on the computer! …Ahem, I obviously meant to write ‘resting and trying to get better’. x3

I should really do something to improve the quality of this blog… It’s really starting to bother me that my most used tags are random and fail. >.<’’ I’ve been thinking about sorting my blogs out. This one would be for my life in general, Alteregoizm would remain the vampire blog, my lj would be for fandoms, I’d have an angst blog and a writing blog and lastly, I’ve been thinking of starting some kind of a fashion blog. That’s six blogs in total. I wouldn’t be able to update any of them, would I? But I really need a fashion blog for my studies… Would it get very confusing if I just started adding some fashion illustrations here? o.O

Anyway, my blog improvement started with a new header. I was tired of the old one, but now I’m not sure if the new header quite fits the current layout. I really wouldn’t want to change this blog’s appearance too much… The light violet text on the darker background probably isn’t the most eye-catching, but I really like this colour scheme. Life’s hard.

~♥~

On to the happy events of these past two weeks! Tarja’s new album What Lies Beneath was released on the 1st of September but I only got my hands on it on the 2nd.

(Distracting Mizus of my school folder in the background) I obviously had to buy the Deluxe Version of the album, with three extra songs and a video of Tarja talking about WLB. :3 I’m loving this CD so much! Musically, it still isn’t at the same level as Nightwish, but Tarja’s voice is so beautiful! I’m loving the lyrics in most songs, too. I really felt the hype for this album when Tarja released the videos of Falling Awake, I Feel Immortal and Until My Last Breath. Luckily, the rest of the songs didn’t disappoint either. I think this album is more mature than My Winter Storm, but the musicians still need to put more passion to their playing to really bring out Tarja’s voice as best as they can. I’ve listened this from the top for about 13 times and by now I’m loving about every song, even the slower ones that didn’t quite catch my attention on MWS. Tarja’s first solo album had a couple of songs that felt more personal, My Little Phoenix for me and I Walk Alone for Tarja herself, the Alice Cooper cover Poison that still sounds great, and Lost Northern Star and Boy and the Ghost that I still keep listening, but WLB is an album I can keep listening without skipping one song. Unlike I Walk Alone, I still haven’t grown bored with Falling Awake. Major improvement there! And I can’t do a mini-review of this album without mentioning the extra song that got me drooling; Still of the Night, a Whitesnake cover that rocks my socks! The lyrics, the power, the love! *-*

~♥~

Next up: what I did last weekend!

I went to see my grandparents in Lahti. There was some kind of an art day, so the town was full of events from free tickets to various museums to a 50’s fashion show. It was fun, but the freezing weather (about 12 Celsius degrees and a terrible wind) made it slightly unpleasant to go from one place to another.

Me and my granny went to an art gallery where the first 50 visitors got a surprise gift. Thus, I am now two Neopikos richer than last week!

I really couldn’t remember which two colours I had already, so I just took a turquoise marker that looked nice. My granny picked a pink one, which she gave to me afterwards. *-* I also bought a Japanese brush-like pen, since they had a 20% discount on every product they had. I really don’t know what that pen should be called, but it has a brush tip and black ink inside. Taitti had bought one of those before and she liked it, so I thought I could get one as well. :3

Other than that, my weekend was very tasty. Dad’s mom took me to a Spanish beef restaurant for lunch on Saturday and in the evening we had some apple pie she had made with ice-cream and other tasty things afterwards. On Sunday I ate porridge for breakfast, with some delicious blueberries and nonna, my mother’s mom, took me to Santa Fé to eat some more beef for lunch (pear ice-cream with caramel sauce for dessert, as usual ♥).

When I got back home, it didn’t take long before my dad came back from Tour de Helsinki, a big bicycle race, with his collar bone broken. He had fallen over at around 3 p.m. and was heading to hospital, just stopping by the house to pick some clean clothes with him. We’ve been having a bit depressing mood at home this week, since he hasn’t even been able to have a surgery yet. Get well soon, daddy! ;__;♥

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On to shopping! Actually, I was shopping on last Thursday, so these should have been higher up the post, before my trip to Lahti. Anyway, I finally bought myself a pair of leggings!

(Sorry for the face lag, took the photo today, with no make-up on and feeling ill.) I remember swearing I’d never get a pair of leggings. Well, as they say, one should never say never. :D Takarazuka freaking fandom, would you stop messing with my mind already? …The leggings are actually a bit thin-fake leather-like and look more shiny in real life. :'D With those boots… (Hey, I’m also showing you my lovely new feet-killers here!) Internet is for porn? :____D I really don’t know if I’ll ever have the guts to wear those anywhere public. x3 My wardrobe isn’t exactly full of clothes that could be worn stylishly with leggings…

Ahem, anyway, I also bought a you know what… Nail polish! FAIL! xD

OPI DS Coronation. (No I didn’t spend 19,95 € on a nail polish when I’m saving for all that Zuka stuff and dreaming of new clothes… >.>'')

In a toilet artificial light…

…And natural light.

As always, the application is perfect. *-* You just can’t go wrong with an OPI DS polish. This would actually have been a three-coater, but the sparkliness allowed me to go with just two coats. (I did my nails at around midnight and was supposed to wake up at six in the morning. x.x)

Now I’m tempted to wear DS Extravagance next, but I’m also getting a feeling that I haven’t had red nails for too long… D: The problem of owning too many nail polishes, it’s always a pain to decide which one to wear next!

…I also bought two zippers to sew on the legs of a pair of black pants to make them more up-to-date. :3 Just have to get around to actually doing it…

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Lastly, I would like to share something related to style with you! :3

A photo from Stockmann’s Premier magazine. If I had the money, I would definitely go and buy some of those clothes! *-*Especially the ones in right… And about all the shoes… Damn, why are Stockmann’s clothes so expensive? T-T

~♥~

That’s about it. See you next time~

Bliss or depression – that is the question

As the title indicates – welcome back the rollercoaster of moodswings! –.-'' I don’t really know what to blame this on anymore, so I’ll just say it’s because of the heat. The weather has been positivelly hot for the past week and I’ve obviously enjoyed all the sunshine, but I guess my head’s not taking it as well as I had hoped it would. I konw that this time I’m not going mad for being alone too much, because I’ve seen Taitti every day this week except for Thursday. ^^

Anyways, let me fill you in on what’s been going on in my life recently.

My driving lessons are going on fine, except for the fact that I’ll have to sit on about three theory lessons in September. >___>'' I’m going to a cruise next Wednesday with my family and am thus going to miss two lessons just before the driving school’s office is closed for a summer break. Well, as my mom likes to say, I wouldn’t have this problem if I had started the driving school earlier.

Last weekend was the Midsummer party here in Finland called ‘Juhannus’. We had our traditional party, with a group of family friendds coming over and I had fun, even though the guests were mostly adults of the same age as my parents. I just love those people. That doesn’t mean that I didn’t feel slightly remorseful when Taitti informed me that she wouldn’t be around for the weekend.

The biggest thing this week was… *dum de dum*

The Versailles gig at Tavastia, Helsinki! Kamijo~ Hizaki~ *___* I was in a coma half of the time and the other half I drooled over the gorgeous men on the stage, felt the awesome music and tried to figure out what to do with my hands. The gig didn’t leave me as delirious as I had expected, though. I wonder if that was because I wish it would have lasted longer or if I started to feel jealous of Taitti, who managed to get a plectrum.

I went to the gig with Taitti and Zara, who didn’t really feel the need to line up with everybody else. I wish I would have had more time to hang around with sargonnas and some other people, but I guess I’ll have to do that some other time and with more time to actually talk etc. I wasn’t too anxious about the line myself, until the moment I remembered that i wanted to buy an S-sized tour t-shirt. After that I just couldn’t stay still and wait. :'3 Much to my surprise, I managed to get about the last S-sized shirt they had. Ah, bliss. I haven’t got a photo of it yet, as I haven’t really been on my most photographable mode these past few days. I haven’t got a photo of my gig outfit, either, but I wore the same black halter-neck top I had on D’espairsRay’s gig last year and a black tulle skirt. I had my graduation photos taken earlier that day (Tuesday, as I haven’t mentioned that before), so I had my hair on curls with a white rose pin in them.

I also bought a rose for our Street Team gig activity, which was to hold the roses up in the air during Serenade, as a tribute to the heavenly basist Jasmine You. I thought it looked wonderful. ♥

The setlist was great, in my opinion, but you couldn’t expect any less from a band like Versailles. They are just amazing.

As a tribute to Versailles, here’s a photo of a rose mom bought me for the graduation photo:

Red and big and beautiful~

I was going to make a new outfit for the gig, but I ran out of time, as usual. I managed, however, to sew a new red tulle petticoat, which I actually wore beneath my black skirt.

A bad nightly photo is bad. :'3 I made this following loosely Prinsessa Seinäruusunen’s tutorial for a basic tulle skirt (in Finnish only). It probably needs another layer of tulle and I’ll have to work on the lowest layer some more, but other than those two little things this came out quite alright. I feel like I’ll be sewing a lot of skirts in the future… :D

On with the show! I’ve got two new Blu-Rays this week!

The new Sherlock Holmes (I personally liked it very much, even though Jeremy Brett is the true Holmes to me) and Gone with the Wind. *-* I was watching the bonus materials of GwtW yesterday and today I watched Sherlock Holmes. I think I couldn’t handle the Wind at my current state of mind, but I just can’t my hands off it. It’s just pure love. But I can’t agree with all the people who call it a love story. To me it’s a tragey, first and foremost, however optimistically you might look at it. It’s a hundred times more tragic than Romeo and Juliet, for example. They at least got each other forever. ;__;

Well, enough with the rant about love. Here’s a bad-quality photo of my nails from last week:

I shortened my nails quite a bit but they still look quite long. Succes! I’m wearing OPI O’Hare & Nails Look Great and I must say that it is one of the most horrible-smelling nail polishes I’ve ever come across with. It looks really pretty though. :3

That’s probably all for now. I’m dead tired, so I guess I should go to sleep… I felt like I was going to faint when I woke up this morning, or rather every time my phone’s alarm went of. I just turned my head on the pillow and everything started to spin. ò.Ô I got pretty scared, because I don’t usually faint just like that, but I guess this heat is getting the best of me. Or maybe I just managed to tilt my balance censors in an atypical position somehow. (I won’t even write the proper term here, because I started to read the Wikipedia article about balance and the inner ear and it just sounded a tad bit too difficult and scientific for me.) ^^''

Just two links, and then I’m off. First, Yumiko’s new website is up! Her official fan club is called Precious. http://www.mao-ayabuki.jp/

And then, as I’m going with the flow, you can now ask me your questions in formspring! I’ve added the question form to the sidebar too. Here’s the link to my profile:

>>ASK ME!♥<<

Keep the questions coming! (Anonymous questions are allowed, too.) Until next time, dears~!

♥ Hetha ♥

Nerdier by the hour

As some of you might already know, I was in Tallin, Estonia for three days last week. As usual, I didn’t take any significant photos during the trip, and I think that neither my granny nor my cousin would have appreciated having their photos shown all over the internet. Not to mention my one-year-old godson. I guess we’ll just have to do with the things I bought and a very artistic (or not) blurry photo of a glass of rosé wine, from the first evening (that’d be Thursday), shown here:

We ate some Spanish food, my dish being some tasty beef. ♥ My mind is telling me to stop eating beef for environmental and ethic reasons, but my meat-loving mouth is making it impossible…

On to the things I bought!

This I actually bought on our way back home. A Snö of Sweden necklace with a red gemstone (or a wannabe, anyway). I wouldn’t really have the money for it, as I should be saving for my trip to Germany, but I simply couldn’t resist!

Other thing that I couldn’t resist was a discount on OPI polishes. :____D This brings a break to my mission of not buying any new nail polish, but OPIs were only 11€ in Estonia, and that, my friends, is a 4,90€ cheaper than the price in Finland. I considered getting two OPIs for just 22€ a bargain.

Here are my two new babies, O’Hare & Nails Look Great and Catch Me in Your Net. Apparently my brain told me that I haven’t got enough red polishes already. ^_________^''

Here’s a close-up of Catch Me in Your Net, a sparkly blueish turquoise polish from OPI’s Summer 2010 collection. A real eye-catcher, if you ask me.

I’m having a bit of nail crisis here. I’ve got a 5 mm crack on my right middle finger’s nail and I managed to burn the tip of my right thumbnail while lighting a candle. I’ll probably have to cut my nails soon… Do not want! ;__;

Ahem, back to the subject.

Here’s a crappy (and totally straight) toilet photo of the clothes I bought. The white jeans didn’t quite fit on the waist area, so I had to do a little sewing when I got back home. (A good chance to test my new sewing machine. :D I keep thinking the word computer instead of sewing machine, by the way… Strange. x3) I’ve been wanting to buy a lace t-shirt for some time and in Tallin I got the chance. I also got a black bolero, so now I can wear something else than my boring black hoodie if the weather is chilly. ♥

I also bought a new tea cup, as if I already didn’t have enough of those. :'D But it was Chinese porcelain and very pretty, and my granny actually paid for it, so… And I got a tea cup from Taitti too! As a graduation present. Thanks again~! ♥

That last photo was taken yesterday in the toilet of a local cinema. We went to see the Prince of Persia: Sands of Time with a couple of friends. I didn’t really have high expectations on the movie, so I was positively surprised. The movie was actually very good, in my opinion. The ending was a bit unfair, but I guess it couldn’t have been any other way. (Can’t say anything more specific if some of you haven’t seen it yet.)

Dum-de-dum, what else… I’m pretty tired already, so I won’t bother you for much longer. Tomorrow I’ll finally be getting behind the wheel, as I have my very first driving lesson. That’s one reason why I should be getting to bed; the lesson starts at 8:00 a.m.! :D I’m excited, as I’ve never even tried to start the car… My teacher seems funny but also slightly intimidating… When he’s joking I don’t know if I should laugh or cry! x3 I’ll also have an appointment with a doctor tomorrow, and a theory lesson, so calendar’s full for once! I’m thinking about going to Helsinki to buy an Ed Hardy t-shirt, as Hearts of Hollywood is having a 50% discount… There goes my money again! :'3

(Anyone willing to go to Germany with me, by the way? I’m getting three tickets to GACKT’s gig and I’ll probably be in Munich from the 21st to the 23rd. C’mon, anyone?)

That’s all for now. Until next time, my dears~

♥ Hetha ♥

P.S. …I realized I actually forgot to tell you what that title was all about. :__D So I’ve watched some 28 episodes of this Italian animation called ‘Angel’s Friends’ during these past three days… In Italian… Mind you my Italian vocabulary is probably less than a hundred words when it comes to speaking, although I understand Italian pretty well by the help of French and English etc. On good days I might be able to understand whole conversations, but sometimes everything just goes in from one ear and out from the other… And thanks to magical Italian animation, I’ve been reading some W.i.t.c.h. comics and even fanfiction… Nerdy, much? ~

Okay, that was it. Bye

Ah, bliss~♥

I’ve probably had a couple of yet another best days of my life, and more are coming, if everything goes as planned. :3

Should I do this chronologically? Umm, I’m thinking maybe. At least for the two most important things. ♥

First off, my graduation party! I managed (quite miraculously, in fact!) to finish my dress in time, had to sew a few stitches in the morning, but I didn’t need to downright panic at all! :D What an accomplishment.

Newly graduated, in our school’s lobby. I had about 15 minutes in the morning for curling my hair, so I’m positivelly surprised that they came out pretty well (better than ever before, I think) and they also lasted for the whole day (and I still have some loose curls, didn’t have time to wash my hair yet) so I’m extremelly happy!

…I wasn’t in my most photographable state on Saturday, I guess, but I’ve got a couple of okay photos. :3 Dad’s parents gave me that huge rose. I love it. *-* I got many compliments on my dress, which actually made me feel quilty, because I would have wanted to make it even prettier. My dad described it as one of the prettiest in the whole school (dad’s speech – I tried so hard not to cry, he was just overly wonderful ;__;♥) but he was obviously watching the whole thing through his paternal vision, so that’s not any kind of a proper measure. People told me they liked especially the corset (bought, obviously) and the part that covered my shoulders. Here’s where the quilt stepd in – I did the decolté just the previous day and actually had the only panic experiense at around eleven p.m. when I noticed that I had made it too small. I couldn’t really use the sewing machine at that time of the night, so I had to sew some extentions to the bach by hand. :'3 I didn’t mention it to the quests, though, and was just happy that they approved. ^^

My dear frien Kat came from Denmark with her parents who are our important family friends, almost like a part of the family. ♥ (I hope you won’t mind me showing this photo, Kat. I’ll take it down if you want.) The one on the right is my little sister. We’re like day and night, really. :'D I look so pale compared to the other two…

A little bit of shoe posing with my girls. ♥ You can finally see my shoes better here. I’ve got to say that I almost ruined my toes with these. ^^'' I wish I’d have a good photo of my complete outfit, but I guess we’ll just have to do with what we’ve got. :3

And now to the presents! I got a nice amount of money and gift cards from family friends and Godparents, which is good considering the other thing I’m going to write about. But let’s stick to the graduation for a while longer.

I got a new electronic sewing machine from my parents. ;__;♥ It’s so modern that I’m afraid to use it. So many cool options~ I learned that my mom’s sewing machine is about 20-30 years old, so I guess it’s good to finally have a new one in the house. I just hope that the electronic parts won’t break down… The old mechanical machines always last longer than the more modern stuff.

I got Arabia’s Satumetsä mugs from a friend, as I had hoped, and a teapot with two tea cups (Wildberries by Villeroy&Boch) from all of my cousins from dad’s side (as I don’t have any on my mother’s side). I also got a poppy painting from my dad’s mother and a series of three old portraits, one of my great-grandmother and my grandmother’s and mother’s graduation photos, all in black and white. ♥ Family history, that’s what I like. :3 There’s also a book journal I got from another friend. Got to start reading books more often again.

I got my first Nomination bracelet from my godparents. ♥ It has a star (for Stella, I suppose *-*) and a golden lyra for my graduation. :3 So from now on I’ll be more than pleased to receive new pieces for every little event. :D

My cards and the big roses. ♥

My cousin’s son (about 4 years now) was so adorable when he very shyly handed these flowers to me. ;__;♥ And his little brother, my godson, was the cutest little thing, as always. *3* ♥

And just to add yet another photo, here are my ‘summer shoes’ that I bought today. :3 I just couldn’t bring myself to buy flat shoes, a girl’s got to have heels. ♥ I hope I’ll be able to walk with these though… Unlike my fail with last summer’s shoes. x3

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Now, on to the big news!

Heta is going to Germany ~22.7.2010. ♥

GACKTOOOO, here I come! ♥

(I’m so tired from all that rambling about the graduation that I can’t write a proper over-excited post about this right now… :'D)

I’m a bit worried, since I haven’t yet got the actuall bill, but I got the confirmation e-mail, so I think it means I got the ticket? *-* I spent the whole mornin (from about 9:45 to approx. 13:50) refreshing the page of the ticket seller, slowly getting on with the order step by step. I was too excited to get frustrated, otherwise I probebly would have paniced or blown up my head or something. :'D

Now I just need to actually pay for the ticket and then reserve the hotel and plane tickets to Munich, as soon as possible. I’ll probably be in Munich from the 21st to the 23rd of July and right now it seems that I’m going all alone. :D My parents are a bit worried, but I’m just… Almost high from the feeling of freedom and independance. :__D Somehow Germany seems like a safe place to go alone, even though I don’t speak German at all, just understand somewhat and know some Elisabeth bits by heart. :'D Me and my usefull vocabulary, I can ask people why they have murdered the Empress Elisabeth, or tell them about der Tod, or sing Die Schatten werden länger, if I still remember the german lyrics after all of that Yami ga hirogaru… :'3 Or maybe I’ll just tell everyone that I’m afraid of the police. xD Well, I’ll get to see GACKT and explore a bit of Munich and that’s the main point. ♥ Good use for my graduation present money. :3

Zara just convinced me to go to Annyeong!Party tomorrow, so I guess I’d better get to sleep soon. I want to buy a headband from Spiritstore tomorrow, plus I’ll have to get an appointment with a doctor for the driving school. I just started the theory lessons today! So many things to write about, so many things to forget… Well, until next time, my dears! Nail repairing post is on the way, plus I feel like cutting my nails, so expect something naily in near future!

♥Hetha♥

P.S. I really hope my mom and dad will want to go to see Sting when he has a concert in Finland… Mom already said that she’s not all that inspired to see a huge arena concert with Sting playing old songs with a symphony orchestra, but c’mon! She’s already missed him once and has felt bad about it later on.. We’ve got to see the concert, right? Right?

The impossible is happening

I’m sorry if this post gets really random or over the top, because…

*DUM-DE-DUUUUUUUUM*

GACKT is coming to Europe! For real! Gaaaaah, I can’t get over this fact! And as I am a legal adult, it would technically be possible for me to go see his gig in Germany, for example. *_________* The problem is that he’s going to be playing in some relatively small clubs and thus the tickets are very limited… And I seriously don’t know who would go to, say Munich with me just to see GACKT’s gig… Plus I’d have to get a job to get the money, in case my friends and family aren’t too pleased with me spending my graduation present money all at once… But waaaaaah, I really want to go! I’ll have to get the tickets… *___* ♥ (Not that I wouldn’t be seeing my two favourite Japanese bands this year anyways…)

I’ve seen many Finnish people complaining in the net how unfair it is that GACKT’s not coming to Finland or even to Sweden or Russia, but I guess I’ll get to that when I’ve failed in getting the tickets to his concert in Germany. …Or the UK? I’m planning away here, without even discussing this over with my parents… I hope they won’t be totally against the idea. :3

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Ahem, I was going to write about other things than GACKT too. (Man, it’s a pain to spell his name on capital letters every time…)

Um, so I’m obviously supposed to be studyin- erm, sewing right now, but instead I’m updating my blog! It really wouldn’t take too long to finish my graduation outfit, a couple of seams and a little something for the upper half, plus the underskirt… Which brings us to the topic of the day, my shopping trip to Helsinki with Zara from yesterday. (Is it just me or am I failing in English? Too long a break in blogging, plus a bad state of mind…) First, my outfit (sorry for the crappy mirror photo, as always. ^^)

(Why do mirrors always make me look wide? :'D And sorry for that vacuum cleaner. xD) Sooooo… I’m actually wearing my mom’s old pen skirt, which fits me better than the one I bought myself. o.O And you can also see my new pumps I bought for the graduation. They are redder than that in real life.

Other than the shoes, I was looking for a zipper for my graduation dress. I bought one that was slightly too long, but I guess I’ll manage… :'3 I also finally remembered my 40€ gift card to Tokyokan, so I got to shop for some Japanese goods.

Gothic&Lolita Bible, from 2004. Featuring Kamijo~ (Only two pages. ;_;)

Chocolate & strawberry pockies :D The Hello Kitty –ones were actually pretty good. I also bought a new pair of chopsticks and a hashioki, but I didn’t take a photo of them. ^^'

Well, next up are my new love, Promarkers! I just got six new ones from the mail. :'3 No need to wonder if I start complaining about being poor. x3

Here they are, with three Neopikos. :3

And here are my current nails, a simple and slightly failed French mani. My nails seem quite long… Should I cut them already?

I was also going to write about my resurfacing Takarazuka-fandom, which I should keep in the back of my mind for health reasons, but then the GACKT news blew that thought away. ^^' I watched Elisabeth for the six hundredth time (just slightly exaggerating) last Thursday and both Mizu Natsuki and Zuka overall have been occupying my mind ever since. I also listened it over once and yesterday I started trying to write out the script in Japanese. Otaku hobbies ♥

… And now I notice that I’ve promised to do a post about nails and how to repair them if they start to chip etc. ò.Ô Well, keep your hopes up, I’ve got it coming (some day)! :'3

♥Hetha♥

Slowly getting there

Hiya! It’s been too long, again, since the last time I posted anything. I’m guessing that no-one’s all that interested in my Christmas presents at this time of the year, so I’ve decided to just get on with blogging about things in my life right now, it’s far easier that way. (What a clever realization from my part.) ^^

First a brief overall look on my life at present.

Aristocratic vampires are back with full force and I am currently trying to figure out how to bring that out in my appearances, without having to spend all my money replacing the contents of my wardrobe. I’m supposed to be studying to the upcoming university entrance exams but I’m finding an awful lot of nothing and more nothing to do instead. And I have been doing my best to not to buy any new nail polishes in addition to the thirty-something I already have in a beautiful box on top of my closet, and it hasn’t been an easy task. I almost failed at that only last Monday when I was at a local store and they were having a discount on Mavala nail polishes. I only escaped the path of doom when I realized I was holding not one but four bottles in my hands. I left the store without buying any nail polish and was extremely pleased with myself.

Here be an extremely low quality photo of a recent attempt of mine on aristocratic appearance:

(Photoshoots in the middle of the night. <3)

And now to the real subject! Two things have been rocking my boat this week (well, let’s say three and count in the most awesome piece of Gone with the Wind fan fiction ever). First, I got myself a Spotify Premium account and have been listening to a lot of non-Asian music. I have liked the program so far, even with its lack of Asian music. Soundtracks, musicals and Finnish classics have been on the top of my charts these past few days. And even though I have Spotify, I won’t stop buying my beloved CDs, as the people who know me have probably guessed already. ^^

The second thing (or third, since I already mentioned the GwtW fanfic (why do I keep stating the obvious?)) is that I was in Helsinki with my long-time friend Pia last Thursday and we were going to check out some stores to try to find me a graduation dress. We never got to any proper formal clothing shops because Pia reminded me that I had promised her quite some time ago that I would take her to Morticia, a shop that sells gothic/alternative clothing, and now was the perfect time for me to make good on that promise. So, off to Morticia we were and it just so happened that Pia convinced me to try on one of the most beautiful pieces of clothing I have ever seen (or had on me, at least). I wasn’t really going to tell anything about it to anyone else, but I’m way too excited to keep it a total secret. Yes, I found myself quite a gorgeous corset, a metal-boned one and it was such a bargain, too! An overbust for only 50 €! I couldn’t believe my luck. The only slight flaw is that the corset is size 22 (inches, as in the waist measure) and I could have done with at least the size 20. The size 22 doesn’t really take many centimeters off my waist even when tightened to the max, but it was the smallest size available of the precise type, so I took it. And it is flattering enough, in my opinion, even though I’m still dreaming of being able to fit into a size 18, like Scarlett O’Hara in her best days. (I’m just obsessed with Scarlett, 18 inches for a waist is actually terribly little. But I probably could do with something like 19…? Or then I just get used to this 22-inch corset and be happy?)

I see I got a little off track there. Anyways, after what I considered a very successful buy, I was off to a fabric store (Eurokangas, if some Finns are interested) with a huge inspiration to make a perfect graduation dress by myself, despite my mother’s wishes. (When I thought it aloud some time back that I could sew myself a dress she actually moaned out loud that I shouldn’t do it.) I was so excited that I could hardly sit still in the buss on my way to Tapiola, let alone on my way home with the necessary fabrics safely on my hands.

Needless to say, I’ve been sewing like crazy ever since Friday and, to my own very pleasant surprise, I haven’t even screwed up anything essential as of yet. I’m guessing my outfit won’t be the total show-stopper I always dream my best creations to be but I do think it’ll at least turn some heads over to my direction. I have a good amount of possibilities to fail left, though, so maybe I should cool my head a little and just aim for a basically good-looking outfit, instead of that over-the-top vision I have been having on my mind… I suck at keeping secrets, so against my better judgement I might be posting photos of the finished product – or of some parts of it, at least – here before the big day (June the 5th) and thus reducing the possible wow factor I’d wish it to have on some of my friends who read (or at least know of) this blog.

…Am I actually a totally mischievous person?

I meant to write briefly, but with my huge sentences and love for the most complicated way of putting things this entry has again reached the over-length I tend to go to with my posts. (I’d better stop trying to make thing any more complicated than what they already are or I won’t be able to make out what I’m trying to say myself, let alone have you, my dear readers, understand a single sentence. I’ll soon have to get a proofreader for this blog.)

Last but not least I’d like to type a few words about my nails, as you all must have missed them during my latest hiatus. ;) I’m thinking that my nails are right now the longest they have ever been in my life, the ‘white part’ being longer than the nail bed itself, an average of about 9 mm and near to 1 cm at the longest. I’m having a hard time to decide whether to file my nails slightly shorter, to keep them this long or to keep growing them still. And I can’t decide on the shape either. I have been happy with the rounded square shape, or ‘squoval’, I have now, with hardly any breakage or chipping, but I’m getting the feeling that I’d like to go for a more pointed shape again.

Well, here’s a photo of my current nails:

They are quite long, aren’t they? (OPI DS Extravagance, by the way. I adore the colour, though this photo isn’t the most becoming one… And I think, since this photo was taken a week ago, that right now my nails are actually half a millimeter longer still. o.o) The funny thing is that when I look at my nails I don’t feel like they are really long at all. I’ve got so accustomed to having long nails that these are starting to feel like the average length, instead of overly long as others may see them. So what about you, my dear readers? Do my nails seem awfully long or horrible-looking to you? Should I shorten them or shape them differently? I’m pretty sure that I won’t shorten my nails too much before graduation, at least, unless something terrible happens… *knocks on wood*

And now, one more question to you all: Are my posts too long to read? Would you rather read some brief updates of my daily life/materialistic dreams/random short entries every other day or so or do you prefer these huge posts of all too much rambling and complicated sentences? I’m open for suggestions, though I’m not sure if I can change the way I write so easily… Once again, I’m really grateful that you have taken interest in this silly blog of mine and I’ll give cookies and ice-cream to anyone who has had the strength to read this whole post. And I’ll give you a hug even if you didn’t really have it in you to read this through, any comments are appreciated!

Till next time, my dears~ (Maybe by then I’ve learned how to write short and interesting entries. x3)

I’ve died and gone to Heaven

…or maybe this is Yomi no sekai (land of the dead in Takarazuka’s Elisabeth).

Warning! This post is full of completely brainless Takarazuka/Elisabeth/Tooto/Mizu Natsuki fandom. No need to read if this irritates you. Otherwise have fun reading about how my brain decided to melt and pour out through my ears.

I tried to write about this calmly, but it simply doesn't seem to be possible. Sorry~

ADFHJSAGHDFAS!!! I finally got ‘em! Both of ‘em! *_________________________* On Thursday morning around 9:35 o’clock I came from my mother tongue class to find Ida, Zara and a couple of other Mursus (=people I hang around with at school… mursu = walrus… Don’t ask! XD) hanging around in our school’s so-called net café. I noticed a small plastic bag in Ida’s handbag but ignored it thinking that I couldn’t be so lucky as to finally get my Elisabeth CD. I sat there chatting with people when I suddenly noticed Ida and Zara whispering something to each other and instantly thought that there was something going on. Then Ida pulled out the plastic bag and I almost screamed out loud. Not only did I get the Elisabeth CD I was waiting for but there was the DVD also! *_________________* I just couldn’t believe my luck, those evil people (xD) at the German musical store had told Ida that they would be getting more DVDs in 8-12 weeks and yet there it was with the CD. Needless to say I spent the rest of the day hyperventilating and guarding my bag as if my life depended on it. And now I know that these people who dare to call themselves my friends are actually sadists who are trying to kill me by doing everything they can to cause me a heart attack. XD Not really, I love these people! <3 I hope they all had fun watching me completely lose my mind.

Okay, on with the good stuff! Here be a couple of photos of my precious:

Shiny objects are shiny and hard to photograph. :__D Sorry for the small size but I think that a) our dear Takarazuka would prefer it that way and b) Mizu-Tooto’s hotness would completely melt your brains too if the photos were any bigger than they are now. :3 Here comes the basic description of what I got (from left to right ^^): Takarazuka Elisabeth (2007 Snow Troupe version) double DVD w/ a beautiful shiny booklet and a lovely ‘How to use this DVD’ card with Mizu on it (goin to my wall somewhere near the Russian Blue/Rio de Bravo flyer I got from Ryu <3) and Takarazuka Elisabeth (2007 Snow Troupe version) double CD w/ a lovely shiny booklet. *3* Both the CD and the DVD include the full musical with final numbers and everything plus the DVD includes a bonus track of the musical’s rehearsals and the possibility to watch some scenes from a different angle (concentrating on one of the actresses). Lots of Mizu angles. *3* No, I won’t admit anything! Especially nothing concerning Mizu practicing Yami ga hirogaru otokoyaku dance number in a blouse and tight pants… Those hips… *dies at the thought*

Ehm, where was I? Did I have something more to add? I just managed to empty my brain again (or what’s left of it anyway). :''D This isn’t good for my concentration at school… Just when I thought I was getting better at maths again… Obsessions are so dangerous. Oh, I can’t wait to get some people to come over to my house to watch Elisabeth and drool all over the living room’s floor~. (Next Friday, Zara! *3* <3) I’m doing my best to get everyone around me addicted to this. :''D Maybe this post’s title should have been ‘Back to square one’ or something, because I’m kind of doing the exact same thing I did last June. Back then I managed to get Zara hooked *mischievous laughter* *hugs Zara* and now I’ve pretty much won Ani over, too (wasn’t all that hard with Tooto being a bit vampire-like character with a powerful voice). :3 Taitti and Niina are goin down soon, too, I’m sure of that. People who already love these mysterious beautiful characters, long silver hair and cool costumes won’t be hard to convince. >:3 Boo-hoo, now I feel like a horrible, selfish person. T-T And I also feel that I’m writing something totally random and unnecessary… Okay, before moving on I’ll just thank Siru for posting Ryu’s and Ayu’s Tooto/Elisabeth/Rudolf cosplays and a few Elisabeth videos which got me addicted. :3 And thanks Ryu and Ayu for amazing costumes!

Gah, I just realized that I was supposed to get to the point when I started that previous paragraph. :____D FAIL. Okay, now, what’s rockin’ my world besides der Tod? I’d like to do Tooto nails right now. (Lol, failed at changing the subject. XD) I need some silver & glittery nail polish. And I’ve got *ahem* a couple of inspirations. :''D I know your just dying to get a list, so here goes:

1. Sewing: a victorian dress, a corset, a dress shirt… Was that all? Ah, one more; a black vest (pinstripe?)

2. Knitting: a white beanie or a beret

3. Jewelry: cameo jewelry, some silver rings made of silver wire and some beads etc.

4. Decorative stuff: nail decorations, cellphone charms (like cupcakes etc.)…

5. That gothic manor dollhouse!

It certainly seems like I’ve got a lot of projects… Mom hates me for never finishing anything… ;__; (Being addicted to Facebook games & Gaia Online’s halloween event doesn’t really help. x3)

Wow, now I’m exhausted! I guess it’d be best if I just finished here… Sorry for all the fandom, craziness and overall randomness. Thumbs up for those who actually got around to reading the whole thing. ^3^ Lots of love & kisses to you all!

Oh, and Happy Halloween by the way! :3

Always Obsessed

Creativetitles.com :''D

Ahem, I always suck at getting to the point…

It’s been two weeks again, sorry for that! ^^ Here’s a brief version of what’s been going on in my life in these past two weeks:

1. I was being shy at Tsukicon with Zara (stalking people we know from the net, bloggers and such…). I tried to wear fake nails for the first time in my life and that… Well, let’s just say it wasn’t a very successful experiment. :''D

2. I’ve been a bit sick, a typical post-stress reaction or something.

3. I learned that the German shop I was ordering my Elisabeth DVD from has run out of copies so I’ll have to wait for 8-12 weeks 'til I’ll get it. T-T But hopefully I’ll get the CD early next week.

4. Umm… And yeah, as the title indicates, I’ve got myself obsessed in various “new” things. Or rather my old obsessions have expanded. (… Brain lag, I’m watching V-ROCK FESTIVAL and they’re showing Aoi’s performance atm. *-* …) My Phantom of the Opera fandom has got a new Takarazuka dimension and thus my Takarazuka fandom has got a new Wao Yoka dimension. *3* Which has lead to WaoHana fandom and to a renewal of my love for Victorian dresses. I can’t sleep because I only want to sew. But I suck at drawing patterns… It’s a dilemma. And my mom won’t buy me new fabrics until I finish my previous projects. T-T I suck at finishing things. Here’s a clip where you can (well, somewhat) see the dress I’d love to make:

(It’s the white one, in case you were wondering.) *3* I have absolutely no idea of where I’d wear a dress like that… Not at school obviously… Fancy throwing a ball, anyone?

Boohoo, I’ve got a feeling that this post is going to be a huge one… Sorry! XD

Nail status:

They’re short and yellow. T-T I really need to do something about them today… >___>''

Hair status:

(Lol, I look like a ghost >:D) A couple of experiments I’ve had with my shorter hair. For some reason I can’t keep from curling my hair these days. Shorter hair –> more volume, please!

Next subject… Helsinki Book Fair! *-* It’s been one of my favourite happenings of the year ever since I went there for the first time about seven years ago. I was a true book worm at the time and though I don’t read as much these days my love for books hasn’t faded. This year I went there with Taitti and Niina on Friday and then again with my mom on Saturday. Too many people, too much to see, too many books but I love it. This year it was “pappa betalar” (dad pays) for both me and mom. :____D It’s a good thing that my dad always supports our hobbies because otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to buy anything due to my poor financial status. :''D Anyways, here’s what I bought:

The things I bought on Friday are on top and Saturday’s findings are bellow. ^^ As you can see, I focused mainly on manga on Friday. I bought Love Celeb 1&2 in Finnish (*-* I can’t help loving the way Shinjo Mayu draws male characters…), Vampire Knight 5 in English and then that huge Comic Beam in Japanese (because it was only 5 euros and there seemed to be a few interesting chapters there… Now I just need to start practicing my Japanese :''D). On Saturday I got mom to buy me (or us) a book full of misheard lyrics. It’s hilarious! Mom also found a book about dollhouses and I encouraged her to buy it. I haven’t got around to reading it yet but it seems really beautiful and lovely. I bought J.R.Ward’s Dark Lover in Finnish for myself because it just happened to catch my attention and as it is about vampires I couldn’t help buying it. (Now I’m in trouble because I’m supposed to be reading a book for my mother tongue class but I would much rather read this vampire book… xP) I haven’t got any photos from the fair itself because I never remember to take any photos… >.<''

I know this is a mile long post already but I’ve got to share with you just one more thing. I got my tai chi sword on Thursday! Here:

(Lol at the pose x3) It’s a bit too simple (not decorated) for my taste but I guess it goes well with the tai chi ideology… It looks a bit too orange too… Well, who cares as long as I can start practicing the sword form in January. :3

I had something more to write about but (to all my readers’ luck) I forgot what it was. ^^'' So, until next time my friends! (If school doesn’t kill me first, that is…)

Um, oh yeah! (I promise I’ll make it short. :'3) About my obsessions… I’ve got myself totally hooked on Facebook games like FarmVille, Vampire Wars and Café World. :''D It’s a bit pitiful, staying up ‘til midnight watching how my virtual plants grow. :______D

And plus, I feel like I’d like to change this blog’s appearance… But I haven’t got any ideas! If you have any suggestions, please let me know! ^^