The vampirism strikes back

Yes, my dear readers, I have officially refound my inner vampire! I guess I kind of lost her among all that Takarazuka-fangirlism, winter depression, otokoyaku style loving, school and other random things which have occupied my life during these past eight months or so. (My vampire tag actually tells me that I have been rambling something about vampires a couple of times during that time, but a total obsession has stayed in the back of my mind.) With vampirism, obviously my love for nobility has also got stronger and I’ve been in a princess mode. But if you want to read more about that and see some photos, you can visit my other blog. ^^

Graduation dress update: I haven’t made any progress during these past two weeks. WHOOPSIE. :__D Well, maybe this weekend? Tomorrow?

I’ve got some good and bad news for you. Bad news first. My old camera, dear Tutankhamen (a.k.a. der Tod) died tragically. It just broke down when I was taking photos. At first I thought that it was just out of batteries, but then it wouldn’t turn on even with the batteries full. And it was just when I was having a princess photo shoot. Here be a webcam photo for you anyways:

You can see a part of my graduation dress, the white corset, here. ^^ And the staring GACKT on the background, he must not be forgotten!

And now on to the good news! My dad was kind enough to buy me a new camera right the next day! Let me introduce you to my new baby, Scarlett –DIVA version- (She Is My Sin). *drum solo*

Ahem, a tiny mirror photo, sorry about that. ^^' Anyways, she’s red and tiny and she’s got some 12.1 megapixels, so that’s a major update from der Tod with his 7.1 megapixels. I wouldn’t want to resize my high quality photos at all!

I’ve forgotten half of the things I meant to blog about… >____>'' Well, I guess I should mention the warm weather we had here in Finland last week. What a bliss to have nothing to do but to sit inside and watch the L-word spend time outside in the sun. I painted our terrace and got a sunburn on my back. :')

Hmm what else? Oh, right. I had my first entrance exam yesterday, and after sitting in the exam for an hour trying not to fall asleep, I left an almost empty paper to the inspector and headed out to find Taina. We spent the rest of the morning in Helsinki, getting rid of our money. I bought four new mangas, Vampire Knight 6, Love Celeb 3 and accidentally started collecting a new series, Kuroshitsuji. I’m still not accustomed to calling it by it’s English name, Black Butler. Well, I didn’t mean to, but I ended up buying two volumes, because I didn’t look too carefully and bought the second volume first. When I noticed this I just had to buy the first volume, right? And now I have a grand total of 110 mangas. :__D

I’ve also got addicted to Promarkers (thanks, Taina) and as of yesterday/today, Neopikos too. I’m finally finding my creativity muse after such a long time!

Strange, even when I’ve got nothing to write I end up rambling for ages. :'D

I spent my weekend at my grandparents’ cottage with them and my dad, collectin these mushrooms:

And obviously I had to try out Scarlett’s abilities at macro photography. :'3

And lastly, I want to share with you a musical masterpiece by Hans Zimmer:

God, that song is just beautiful! Especially in Hebrew, for obvious reasons. I’ve always loved the Prince of Egypt, but not until with my recent interest in film music have I noticed what an amazing piece of art this song is. This is one of the songs that have the chills running down my spine every single time I hear it. “River, oh river” especially. *___* And the most amazing thing is that this song was sung by an Israeli singer Ofra Haza in 28 different languages, including Finnish. I’ve always just thought that the Finnish singer was changing her pronounciation to bring a certain mood to the song, but to think that the singer actually doesn’t speak one word of Finnish – wow. Just wow. I love this soooo much. Today I even started crying a couple of times while listening to this. (I already had the major music orgasm regarding this song months ago, but it still rises such strong emotions.) Rest in peace, Ofra Haza. (P.S. I just had to buy this through Spotify. *-*)

Next post: nails.

♥ Hetha ♥

Slowly getting there

Hiya! It’s been too long, again, since the last time I posted anything. I’m guessing that no-one’s all that interested in my Christmas presents at this time of the year, so I’ve decided to just get on with blogging about things in my life right now, it’s far easier that way. (What a clever realization from my part.) ^^

First a brief overall look on my life at present.

Aristocratic vampires are back with full force and I am currently trying to figure out how to bring that out in my appearances, without having to spend all my money replacing the contents of my wardrobe. I’m supposed to be studying to the upcoming university entrance exams but I’m finding an awful lot of nothing and more nothing to do instead. And I have been doing my best to not to buy any new nail polishes in addition to the thirty-something I already have in a beautiful box on top of my closet, and it hasn’t been an easy task. I almost failed at that only last Monday when I was at a local store and they were having a discount on Mavala nail polishes. I only escaped the path of doom when I realized I was holding not one but four bottles in my hands. I left the store without buying any nail polish and was extremely pleased with myself.

Here be an extremely low quality photo of a recent attempt of mine on aristocratic appearance:

(Photoshoots in the middle of the night. <3)

And now to the real subject! Two things have been rocking my boat this week (well, let’s say three and count in the most awesome piece of Gone with the Wind fan fiction ever). First, I got myself a Spotify Premium account and have been listening to a lot of non-Asian music. I have liked the program so far, even with its lack of Asian music. Soundtracks, musicals and Finnish classics have been on the top of my charts these past few days. And even though I have Spotify, I won’t stop buying my beloved CDs, as the people who know me have probably guessed already. ^^

The second thing (or third, since I already mentioned the GwtW fanfic (why do I keep stating the obvious?)) is that I was in Helsinki with my long-time friend Pia last Thursday and we were going to check out some stores to try to find me a graduation dress. We never got to any proper formal clothing shops because Pia reminded me that I had promised her quite some time ago that I would take her to Morticia, a shop that sells gothic/alternative clothing, and now was the perfect time for me to make good on that promise. So, off to Morticia we were and it just so happened that Pia convinced me to try on one of the most beautiful pieces of clothing I have ever seen (or had on me, at least). I wasn’t really going to tell anything about it to anyone else, but I’m way too excited to keep it a total secret. Yes, I found myself quite a gorgeous corset, a metal-boned one and it was such a bargain, too! An overbust for only 50 €! I couldn’t believe my luck. The only slight flaw is that the corset is size 22 (inches, as in the waist measure) and I could have done with at least the size 20. The size 22 doesn’t really take many centimeters off my waist even when tightened to the max, but it was the smallest size available of the precise type, so I took it. And it is flattering enough, in my opinion, even though I’m still dreaming of being able to fit into a size 18, like Scarlett O’Hara in her best days. (I’m just obsessed with Scarlett, 18 inches for a waist is actually terribly little. But I probably could do with something like 19…? Or then I just get used to this 22-inch corset and be happy?)

I see I got a little off track there. Anyways, after what I considered a very successful buy, I was off to a fabric store (Eurokangas, if some Finns are interested) with a huge inspiration to make a perfect graduation dress by myself, despite my mother’s wishes. (When I thought it aloud some time back that I could sew myself a dress she actually moaned out loud that I shouldn’t do it.) I was so excited that I could hardly sit still in the buss on my way to Tapiola, let alone on my way home with the necessary fabrics safely on my hands.

Needless to say, I’ve been sewing like crazy ever since Friday and, to my own very pleasant surprise, I haven’t even screwed up anything essential as of yet. I’m guessing my outfit won’t be the total show-stopper I always dream my best creations to be but I do think it’ll at least turn some heads over to my direction. I have a good amount of possibilities to fail left, though, so maybe I should cool my head a little and just aim for a basically good-looking outfit, instead of that over-the-top vision I have been having on my mind… I suck at keeping secrets, so against my better judgement I might be posting photos of the finished product – or of some parts of it, at least – here before the big day (June the 5th) and thus reducing the possible wow factor I’d wish it to have on some of my friends who read (or at least know of) this blog.

…Am I actually a totally mischievous person?

I meant to write briefly, but with my huge sentences and love for the most complicated way of putting things this entry has again reached the over-length I tend to go to with my posts. (I’d better stop trying to make thing any more complicated than what they already are or I won’t be able to make out what I’m trying to say myself, let alone have you, my dear readers, understand a single sentence. I’ll soon have to get a proofreader for this blog.)

Last but not least I’d like to type a few words about my nails, as you all must have missed them during my latest hiatus. ;) I’m thinking that my nails are right now the longest they have ever been in my life, the ‘white part’ being longer than the nail bed itself, an average of about 9 mm and near to 1 cm at the longest. I’m having a hard time to decide whether to file my nails slightly shorter, to keep them this long or to keep growing them still. And I can’t decide on the shape either. I have been happy with the rounded square shape, or ‘squoval’, I have now, with hardly any breakage or chipping, but I’m getting the feeling that I’d like to go for a more pointed shape again.

Well, here’s a photo of my current nails:

They are quite long, aren’t they? (OPI DS Extravagance, by the way. I adore the colour, though this photo isn’t the most becoming one… And I think, since this photo was taken a week ago, that right now my nails are actually half a millimeter longer still. o.o) The funny thing is that when I look at my nails I don’t feel like they are really long at all. I’ve got so accustomed to having long nails that these are starting to feel like the average length, instead of overly long as others may see them. So what about you, my dear readers? Do my nails seem awfully long or horrible-looking to you? Should I shorten them or shape them differently? I’m pretty sure that I won’t shorten my nails too much before graduation, at least, unless something terrible happens… *knocks on wood*

And now, one more question to you all: Are my posts too long to read? Would you rather read some brief updates of my daily life/materialistic dreams/random short entries every other day or so or do you prefer these huge posts of all too much rambling and complicated sentences? I’m open for suggestions, though I’m not sure if I can change the way I write so easily… Once again, I’m really grateful that you have taken interest in this silly blog of mine and I’ll give cookies and ice-cream to anyone who has had the strength to read this whole post. And I’ll give you a hug even if you didn’t really have it in you to read this through, any comments are appreciated!

Till next time, my dears~ (Maybe by then I’ve learned how to write short and interesting entries. x3)

I’ve died and gone to Heaven

…or maybe this is Yomi no sekai (land of the dead in Takarazuka’s Elisabeth).

Warning! This post is full of completely brainless Takarazuka/Elisabeth/Tooto/Mizu Natsuki fandom. No need to read if this irritates you. Otherwise have fun reading about how my brain decided to melt and pour out through my ears.

I tried to write about this calmly, but it simply doesn't seem to be possible. Sorry~

ADFHJSAGHDFAS!!! I finally got ‘em! Both of ‘em! *_________________________* On Thursday morning around 9:35 o’clock I came from my mother tongue class to find Ida, Zara and a couple of other Mursus (=people I hang around with at school… mursu = walrus… Don’t ask! XD) hanging around in our school’s so-called net café. I noticed a small plastic bag in Ida’s handbag but ignored it thinking that I couldn’t be so lucky as to finally get my Elisabeth CD. I sat there chatting with people when I suddenly noticed Ida and Zara whispering something to each other and instantly thought that there was something going on. Then Ida pulled out the plastic bag and I almost screamed out loud. Not only did I get the Elisabeth CD I was waiting for but there was the DVD also! *_________________* I just couldn’t believe my luck, those evil people (xD) at the German musical store had told Ida that they would be getting more DVDs in 8-12 weeks and yet there it was with the CD. Needless to say I spent the rest of the day hyperventilating and guarding my bag as if my life depended on it. And now I know that these people who dare to call themselves my friends are actually sadists who are trying to kill me by doing everything they can to cause me a heart attack. XD Not really, I love these people! <3 I hope they all had fun watching me completely lose my mind.

Okay, on with the good stuff! Here be a couple of photos of my precious:

Shiny objects are shiny and hard to photograph. :__D Sorry for the small size but I think that a) our dear Takarazuka would prefer it that way and b) Mizu-Tooto’s hotness would completely melt your brains too if the photos were any bigger than they are now. :3 Here comes the basic description of what I got (from left to right ^^): Takarazuka Elisabeth (2007 Snow Troupe version) double DVD w/ a beautiful shiny booklet and a lovely ‘How to use this DVD’ card with Mizu on it (goin to my wall somewhere near the Russian Blue/Rio de Bravo flyer I got from Ryu <3) and Takarazuka Elisabeth (2007 Snow Troupe version) double CD w/ a lovely shiny booklet. *3* Both the CD and the DVD include the full musical with final numbers and everything plus the DVD includes a bonus track of the musical’s rehearsals and the possibility to watch some scenes from a different angle (concentrating on one of the actresses). Lots of Mizu angles. *3* No, I won’t admit anything! Especially nothing concerning Mizu practicing Yami ga hirogaru otokoyaku dance number in a blouse and tight pants… Those hips… *dies at the thought*

Ehm, where was I? Did I have something more to add? I just managed to empty my brain again (or what’s left of it anyway). :''D This isn’t good for my concentration at school… Just when I thought I was getting better at maths again… Obsessions are so dangerous. Oh, I can’t wait to get some people to come over to my house to watch Elisabeth and drool all over the living room’s floor~. (Next Friday, Zara! *3* <3) I’m doing my best to get everyone around me addicted to this. :''D Maybe this post’s title should have been ‘Back to square one’ or something, because I’m kind of doing the exact same thing I did last June. Back then I managed to get Zara hooked *mischievous laughter* *hugs Zara* and now I’ve pretty much won Ani over, too (wasn’t all that hard with Tooto being a bit vampire-like character with a powerful voice). :3 Taitti and Niina are goin down soon, too, I’m sure of that. People who already love these mysterious beautiful characters, long silver hair and cool costumes won’t be hard to convince. >:3 Boo-hoo, now I feel like a horrible, selfish person. T-T And I also feel that I’m writing something totally random and unnecessary… Okay, before moving on I’ll just thank Siru for posting Ryu’s and Ayu’s Tooto/Elisabeth/Rudolf cosplays and a few Elisabeth videos which got me addicted. :3 And thanks Ryu and Ayu for amazing costumes!

Gah, I just realized that I was supposed to get to the point when I started that previous paragraph. :____D FAIL. Okay, now, what’s rockin’ my world besides der Tod? I’d like to do Tooto nails right now. (Lol, failed at changing the subject. XD) I need some silver & glittery nail polish. And I’ve got *ahem* a couple of inspirations. :''D I know your just dying to get a list, so here goes:

1. Sewing: a victorian dress, a corset, a dress shirt… Was that all? Ah, one more; a black vest (pinstripe?)

2. Knitting: a white beanie or a beret

3. Jewelry: cameo jewelry, some silver rings made of silver wire and some beads etc.

4. Decorative stuff: nail decorations, cellphone charms (like cupcakes etc.)…

5. That gothic manor dollhouse!

It certainly seems like I’ve got a lot of projects… Mom hates me for never finishing anything… ;__; (Being addicted to Facebook games & Gaia Online’s halloween event doesn’t really help. x3)

Wow, now I’m exhausted! I guess it’d be best if I just finished here… Sorry for all the fandom, craziness and overall randomness. Thumbs up for those who actually got around to reading the whole thing. ^3^ Lots of love & kisses to you all!

Oh, and Happy Halloween by the way! :3

Always Obsessed

Creativetitles.com :''D

Ahem, I always suck at getting to the point…

It’s been two weeks again, sorry for that! ^^ Here’s a brief version of what’s been going on in my life in these past two weeks:

1. I was being shy at Tsukicon with Zara (stalking people we know from the net, bloggers and such…). I tried to wear fake nails for the first time in my life and that… Well, let’s just say it wasn’t a very successful experiment. :''D

2. I’ve been a bit sick, a typical post-stress reaction or something.

3. I learned that the German shop I was ordering my Elisabeth DVD from has run out of copies so I’ll have to wait for 8-12 weeks 'til I’ll get it. T-T But hopefully I’ll get the CD early next week.

4. Umm… And yeah, as the title indicates, I’ve got myself obsessed in various “new” things. Or rather my old obsessions have expanded. (… Brain lag, I’m watching V-ROCK FESTIVAL and they’re showing Aoi’s performance atm. *-* …) My Phantom of the Opera fandom has got a new Takarazuka dimension and thus my Takarazuka fandom has got a new Wao Yoka dimension. *3* Which has lead to WaoHana fandom and to a renewal of my love for Victorian dresses. I can’t sleep because I only want to sew. But I suck at drawing patterns… It’s a dilemma. And my mom won’t buy me new fabrics until I finish my previous projects. T-T I suck at finishing things. Here’s a clip where you can (well, somewhat) see the dress I’d love to make:

(It’s the white one, in case you were wondering.) *3* I have absolutely no idea of where I’d wear a dress like that… Not at school obviously… Fancy throwing a ball, anyone?

Boohoo, I’ve got a feeling that this post is going to be a huge one… Sorry! XD

Nail status:

They’re short and yellow. T-T I really need to do something about them today… >___>''

Hair status:

(Lol, I look like a ghost >:D) A couple of experiments I’ve had with my shorter hair. For some reason I can’t keep from curling my hair these days. Shorter hair –> more volume, please!

Next subject… Helsinki Book Fair! *-* It’s been one of my favourite happenings of the year ever since I went there for the first time about seven years ago. I was a true book worm at the time and though I don’t read as much these days my love for books hasn’t faded. This year I went there with Taitti and Niina on Friday and then again with my mom on Saturday. Too many people, too much to see, too many books but I love it. This year it was “pappa betalar” (dad pays) for both me and mom. :____D It’s a good thing that my dad always supports our hobbies because otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to buy anything due to my poor financial status. :''D Anyways, here’s what I bought:

The things I bought on Friday are on top and Saturday’s findings are bellow. ^^ As you can see, I focused mainly on manga on Friday. I bought Love Celeb 1&2 in Finnish (*-* I can’t help loving the way Shinjo Mayu draws male characters…), Vampire Knight 5 in English and then that huge Comic Beam in Japanese (because it was only 5 euros and there seemed to be a few interesting chapters there… Now I just need to start practicing my Japanese :''D). On Saturday I got mom to buy me (or us) a book full of misheard lyrics. It’s hilarious! Mom also found a book about dollhouses and I encouraged her to buy it. I haven’t got around to reading it yet but it seems really beautiful and lovely. I bought J.R.Ward’s Dark Lover in Finnish for myself because it just happened to catch my attention and as it is about vampires I couldn’t help buying it. (Now I’m in trouble because I’m supposed to be reading a book for my mother tongue class but I would much rather read this vampire book… xP) I haven’t got any photos from the fair itself because I never remember to take any photos… >.<''

I know this is a mile long post already but I’ve got to share with you just one more thing. I got my tai chi sword on Thursday! Here:

(Lol at the pose x3) It’s a bit too simple (not decorated) for my taste but I guess it goes well with the tai chi ideology… It looks a bit too orange too… Well, who cares as long as I can start practicing the sword form in January. :3

I had something more to write about but (to all my readers’ luck) I forgot what it was. ^^'' So, until next time my friends! (If school doesn’t kill me first, that is…)

Um, oh yeah! (I promise I’ll make it short. :'3) About my obsessions… I’ve got myself totally hooked on Facebook games like FarmVille, Vampire Wars and Café World. :''D It’s a bit pitiful, staying up ‘til midnight watching how my virtual plants grow. :______D

And plus, I feel like I’d like to change this blog’s appearance… But I haven’t got any ideas! If you have any suggestions, please let me know! ^^

Fail

I meant to update my dear blog earlier today but instead I ended up watching Mizu videos again… :''D That’s because I bought a pair of new jeans last Monday and I wanted to take some photos of them to show to you. And now I’m a bit depressed because I look so ridiculous compared to Mizu-san. ;__; (Not a huge surprise now, is it? :''D)

Okay, first of all I’ve got no idea of how I managed to get that strap of hair there in the first photo. :''D I’m sorry for the crappy quality again, I’m still working on my photographing skills. ^^ Wonder why I never take any photos when it’s not too dark… Anyways, I finally managed to buy a pair of new jeans! Now that’s something to celebrate, last time I bought new jeans was on… 8th grade or something? I can’t even remember. :''D (I’m totally overusing that smile btw… >.<'') I was in Helsinki with Zara last Monday and I told her I needed new jeans. I even said as a joke that insted of buying something for about 60-70€ I’d end up finding a perfect fit for 150€. Why is it that I never know when to shut up? I went to Sello afterwards and decided to go and check the JC store there. A kind shop assistant brought about seven pairs of jeans for me to try on and I must say I was getting a bit desperate when none of them fit well enough. Then I tried on what was to become the last pair and ta-dah, a perfect fit! The price? 139€ ;___; I ended up using double the amount of money I had reserved for the new jeans. Now I won’t be able to buy new shoes… Or a new winter jacket… T-T

My Gackt fandom has suffered slightly from my addiction to Takarazuka and Mizu (like almost all of my other fandoms) and I haven’t really been listening to Gackt’s music in a long time. Today I randomly started to listen to Crescent and oh my Gackt did I even remember why I love that CD so much. Mind forest & 君が待っているから. *_________* Please mister Gackt, release a new CD already! I’m getting slightly bored here, reading about all the new singles. A full album is what I need! (Oh, and I’ve spelled his name wrong here. In celebration of his 10 years as a solo artist he has decided to change his name slightly. From now on he is GACKT. Apparently he thinks that bigger artists need to spell their names with capital letters… :___D

Ehm, let’s get back to my Takarazuka/Mizu Natsuki/otokoyaku fandom. Why do I like this page of style-arena.jp/Tokyo New Tribe? *3* Waitresses dressed as men… … … My brain just died. Can’t think about anything clever to say about this… … Yep, all blank, sorry. ^^'' Let’s just say that I think that’s a great idea. I’ll definitely have to visit that place someday.

Apart from my identity crisis, my brain has been full of all kinds of ideas of what I could do. Everything from writing, drawing and sewing to decorating my phone and nails and making new jewelry. My latest inspiration is to make a gothic dollhouse. I’m not kidding, I’d really like to have a little vampire mansion in my room. A miniature version of my dream house. *3* I could make things by myself and buy some furniture… And it could have electricity too! Okay, I already have a dollhouse in my room, but that’s something my dad has made for me and my little sister when we were little and it kind of represents our house, so I can’t really turn it into a gothic manor… So I want to make a new one. This sounds like another one of those projects that I am very eager to start but never end up finishing. :''D But it would be cool~.

Hehe, I’ve been ranting quite much already but I’ve got to add just one more thing… My Elisabeth DVD + CD have been ordered! *__________* I just can’t wait to get them in my hands! I wish they’ll be in my friend’s mailbox before the autumn holiday… I already told my parents that I’ll have a movie night with Zara at some point so they won’t be too surprised when I tell them that I’ll reserve the living room for the night. And I learned that dad has ordered us a new stereo system. I can already feel the chills running down my spine when Mizu-Tooto starts to sing. *_________* … … … Now my brain died again at the thought. Well, I guess that was all anyways. See you later! ^^