Ici le venin de la haine coule dans nos vies comme dans nos veines

Bonsoir my dear readers! You might wonder if I’ve turned French during this inexcusably long Blogger silence but I assure you this isn’t anything serious, just another obsession. You’ve been missing my crazy rants, haven’t you? Well, let’s not keep you waiting any longer. On to the crazy place called my mind!

THIS! Oh Gackt, this is the best thing since Elisabeth! That French guy’s voice! *-* This song! WHY oh why didn’t I find this musical last year when I needed the inspiration to study French for the matriculation examination? Well, if I’d have found this earlier it would have been even bigger a pain to wait for the Takarazuka version… I mean, Oh Gackt (yes, again) I NEED to see, no OWN this on DVD… And since there are two versions, the Hoshigumi one with Kaname as Tybalt and the Yukigumi one with Chigi as Mercutio I obviously need them both. I want to be poor and happy SO badly right now. *insert more excited rant here*

Other than that, I’ve started a tumblr blog just for the sake of spam. As you can see, it doesn’t necessarily lessen the spam in my other blogs. Sorry about that, but that’s just the way I am. ^^

THEN! (I am slightly stressed/fatigued/depressed so I write even more colourfully than usually. :'D) I had my hair cut AGAIN last Wednesday. ♥

Ahaha, a weird picture but whatever. I finally got the short-on-the-back-longer-on-the-front ‘bob’ I’ve been dreaming of since I don’t even know when. Have a look at these next bad quality webcam photos:

The hair is super short (on my scale, at least) at the nape of the neck. It’s a bit like one of Victoria Beckham’s bobs, except that Posh obviously wears her hair better than me and my hair is cut straighter than hers. Or something. My English totally fails me, sorry. x3 AND I’ve noticed (again) that I am terrible at doing my hair. ♥ Well, time to learn, right?

I’m 99,9% sure that I’m going to die of lack of sleep, stress and overall exhaustion next week… Or maybe of Zuka angst, we’ll see.

On a not as random a thought as that previous paragraph, I got a dataliittymä as a Christmas present. Sorry for the lack of interest to find out what it would be in English, but basically it means that I can surf in the net on my phone to my heart’s content anytime I want, almost anywhere I want. The best thing? My dad can’t stalk the times I use the net. ♥ So I can stay up ‘til four a.m. doing nothing useful and die of tiredness the next day. ♥ This is one of the reasons I am definitely going to die sooner than expected.

RANDOMNESS IS RANDOM. Over and out. ♥

Dieu, que les hommes, sont durs
Que les hommes, sont sûrs d'eux
Oh ! Dieu, que les hommes, sont durs
Que faut-il donc qu'on fasse
Pour que tu accordes ta grâce
Dieu toi qui nous a mis sur la terre
Pourquoi nous forcer à nous taire
Et regarder, mourir les hommes

Better than love

Ladies and gentlemen, what you are looking at is a post written by one very happy girl. And that was a huge understatement right there. Alright, since you can all guess what this is about I’ll just get to the subject without further delay.

*Insert dramatic drums here*

Friday the 15th was definitely more successful than the one before it, but the reason to my happiness was the same. (Zuka, obviously. There’s still no progress with the video thing. ^^'')

… !!!

I got my new Mizu stuff! *____* I was completely over the moon when I came home from a fashion fair (nothing much to say about that) to find a package from Japan on my table. My sister had apparently signed the delivery for me, so all I had to do was avoid any questions about the price of the delivery from my parents. I snuck the package to my room and squealed and hyperventilated a lot while carefully examining the contents. My mind has obviously been filled with Mizu for the past week. There’s so much to look at and so much to read, if only I could read Japanese, that is. I’ve done a lot of reading, actually. If I would bother to learn some of the more frequently appearing kanji it wouldn’t be all that hard to at least grasp the main concept of all the articles etc. I’m feeling the need to scan every photo of Mizu on the computer for personal usage, but I don’t want to risk ruining the book and the magazines in the process. Plus, there would be so much to scan; I wouldn’t know where to begin. Anyway, that was 97 € well spent. *pats herself on the back*

~♥~

I started to write this entry two weeks ago and I’m sure I had something non-zuka-related to say back then but now… Tehehee. :D Zara has bought like three new DVDs in the past two weeks so we’ve had a Zuka night two Saturdays in a row. Pari no Sora Yori mo Takaku was great of course, but nothing can beat what we watched yesterday. Roget/Rock on! is something that I must buy immediately, sorry Zuka shopping list! I’ve fallen in love. I’ve found my post-Mizu favourite takarasienne. I’m over the moon, about to faint, feeling anxious when I wake up all because of one Sagiri Seina. New obsession, here I come!

(Image from here.) This girl… My Gackt, why do I always forget how to breathe when she pops up from somewhere? *_____*

She’s just… Whoah. You really should see her in action, she’s too cool. Or too hot to handle. I can’t decide which would be the best way to describe her. Hot like ice? (Yes, her character is the bad guy. Why do I always fall for the bad guys? Tooto, Aosetona, vampires in general…) Her acting somehow reminds me of Gackt, and her voice… To die for. I heard her voice in Russian Blue for the first time and fell for it right away. Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, I’m moving on now to save the last bit of sense I have in me.

(Got to say just one more thing related to this… My dad randomly decided to up our (mine & my sister’s) monthly allowance by 25 €. YAYYYY! Now I can almost afford the DVD with the handling and postage fees… …Ohmigackt, this is not good for my sanity…)

…Just one more and I promise to stop spamming.

(Source.) Is she cool or what? *q* *dances away to find a bucket*

~♥~

I’ve had a massive skin problem for a month now. I don’t want to go into too much detail here, so I’ll just say that the skin on my face was so dry I was afraid it would come off altogether and I had a nasty rash on my neck and even armpits.  I went to see a doctor on Wednesday and got four different creams with which to start healing my skin. The most healing cream worked like magic and my skin was back to normal in three days. Now I’m just mad at myself for not seeing a doctor sooner. -.-

~♥~

Next subject: mood swings! I’ve about had it. Last week I was feeling under the weather because of my skin. Yesterday I was angsting big time, probably due to lack of Chigi sleep. Today has been a massive rollercoaster. I think I’ve regained some of my appetite after two days of not feeling like eating much. (And here I thought it was impossible for me to lose my appetite.) I haven’t exactly cried (got enough of that yesterday) but I’ve been down. But I’ve also been high with a texting war about Zuka meets Star Wars with Zara and finding Roget/Rock on! online. And the best of all? I started jumping up and down with joy when I got my hair crisis (yes, it’s always there) under control.

(A bad webcam photo is bad.) This isn’t inspired by Chigi’s cheek bones. It’s a bit difficult to see in the photo (Why do I feel like I’ve written something like that before?) but my hair actually looks quite nice! A bit like Kathryn Morris’ in Cold Case. Well, I always thought I liked her hair and that it would probably suit me too. Well, it does! And guess what? I may have found a perfect cut, if I ever decide to get rid of these locks. Buh-bye hair! …Or not. :3 We’ll see…

~♥~

Now, I absolutely must watch more Chigi call it a night. Only two hours of school tomorrow and then I’ll be off to do some depression shopping. A blazer, a frilly dress shirt, a hat, a mini skirt… Dum-de-dum, I’ve got a list of new clothes I want. :3 If I can find any that suit me and my taste, that is…

Until next time, dearies~! ♥

Devils’ Parade

Hiya all! Long time no see. For once I’m not going to apologize for the blog silence since I’ve got a perfect excuse for my absence. *dum-de-dum* It’s actually school. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, for the past two weeks I have actually been studying! I got accepted to the school I wished to attend! Yay, go me! I’m studying sewing women’s clothes. 8) Suits me perfectly, don’t you think?

Okay, I have a crapload of photos to show you and nothing much in my brain to tell about them. :'D It’s obviously been too long since my last update, too many things have happened and I can’t keep my thoughts organized. Sorry if this gets messy again. x3

Since I mentioned visiting my godparents’ summer house in my last post, I could start with that. No, I didn’t take any photos. Yes, I did manage to get Stella somewhat hooked on Takarazuka. Heck yes, we had a great time! We should definitely see each other more often~

~♥~

Chronologically, the next thing would probably be D’espairsray’s new album MONSTERS.

Limited edition with DVD (that I haven’t actually watched yet o.O), straight from Japan. :3 Took me a while to really get in to the songs, but the more I listen to it the better it sounds. It’s a bit lighter than their usual style, but it’s catchy and I’m sure it’ll work well live. I really need to start learning the lyrics by heart…

~♥~

I have been enjoying the Zukaism with Zara. One Saturday we went to Helsinki to window-shop all things otokoyaku. And, well, I bought a pair of Kamijo-boots. :____D It just happened, I swear I didn’t mean to! …Ahem, whatever, here’s a crappy photo of my outfit of that day:

The otokoyaku scarf combined with a black shirt and a pen skirt? I really don’t know. :'3 You can’t actually see it all that well in the photo, but I managed to make myself the Tooto nails. Finally!

I bought myself a new nail polish, yet again. My previous Tooto polish had run dry, so I couldn’t help buying GOSH Black Passion. The colour is love, but I don’t really love the horrible tip pull it creates. Anyway, Black Passion was the base, OPI Catch Me in Your Net was added on the tips and the finishing touches were done by an eyeliner brush with Lumene Natural Code Classy. The result? Here:

I didn’t bother to take too detailed a photo, since I haven’t got any detailed photos of the real Tooto nails myself. (Explanations, explanations. x3) I ended up loving the result and am actually thinking of doing this design with some other colours too. (RED, anyone?)

~♥~

Ahem, then I’ve got a mass of photos of my face from a random lonely photo shoot. :'3 Feel the otokoyaku-vibe with a hint of feminine Hetaism added in. :'D

Man, I feel like a woman~♪ Or not. xD Dude-ism (what’s with the creative use of language again?) doesn’t make me look hot… I don’t even look like my dad here. x3

~♥~

Okay, now on to the good part! Me, Zara and Nepi went to Helsinki last Sunday to take some photos. It was so much fun and it shows. :D

Wanna get in trouble?

Rio de Bravo, anyone? :D

Interesting bugs down there?

The coolest photo of me and Nepi.

Can’t touch this~

Our Zuka dance reinvented caboeira. xD I can’t help lolling at these~

An unedited photo of my failing hair me. Ta-dah!

~♥~

Umm, I don’t really have all that much free time these days… It takes me about an hour and a half to get to school and the same to get back home, and the days aren’t all that short either. Last week I managed to not sit on the computer every night and thus I got to sleep about six hours per night. Yesterday, I failed. I stayed up ‘til half past two in the morning, watching Zuka videos. How irresponsible can one be of herself? >___>'' Now I just have to share this, even though most of you probably aren’t interested… My Zuka fandom has risen to a level where I hail about every otokoyaku I see. I just discovered the greatness of Maya Miki and that discovery is going to cause me so much pain. The woman has had a concert in Budokan. Where she sung Malice Mizer’s Gekka no Yasoukyoku. The live video is extremely hard to find. Somebody please shoot me now! A hot otokoyaku (they really knew how to fanservice in the 90s) singing one of my favourite songs! Gekka no Yasoukyoku is actually my example of how to somewhat ruin your favourite song by having it as the tune of your alarm clock. But it’s love. I would do about anything to see a clip of Miki singing it. WHERE CAN I FIND THAT VIDEO? (It has also Mizu in it. *-*)

I ain’t got no money, money~♫

…I love the autumn fashion collections, by the way. They’re always full of clean cuts and black and everything that I love. If I had the money, I would shop ‘til I drop in Seppälä, Lindex and Stockmann. I need shiny leggings, for example.

Due to lack of sleep last night, I can’t come up with anything clever to write. :'3 Sorry~

Until next time sweeties~ ♥

P.S. Keep listening to Desert Rose by Sting (whom I won’t be seeing live T-T) and watching different versions of the hotness Kosame. ;3

P.P.S. I should probably revive my writing blog, since I’ve got some 3000 words of YuMizu fanfiction on my computer… 8D

At the risk of sounding like a broken record…

Guess what’s back in full force? Zuka. Freaking. Fandom. :D Must apologize to all of you who aren’t all that interested to read about the same crazy fandom over and over again, but I just can’t keep this to myself (as you might have noticed during this past year).

I told you about Zara buying me some Zuka stuff torturing me with her hype being in Japan in my last post. Well, guess what? She’s back in Finland now and I, being the greedy little thing the most enthusiastic Zuka fan I am, managed to convince her to come at my place to have a Takarazuka sleepover. 8) We would have been watching her Zuka DVDs all day yesterday, but I had a theory lesson, which almost ruined our plans. Luckily we got this sleepover idea and managed to watch a few things in the evening.

Our Zuka night started with Zara showing me all the things she had bought for herself and me taking my sweet time browsing through everything. (My mind seems to be trying to cope with Takarazuka overdose by concentrating on every single kanji and random add I happen to see. :'3) I had to remind myself to breathe before she got my souvenirs out of her bag.

My new treasures. *-* Two advertisement papers and a Sabrina/Exiter! flyer on the top left corner. I could easily spend a few hours just examining those. Then, a Takarazuka GRAPH magazine from August 2009 on the top right, Matobu Sei on the cover, lots of 2009 Elizabeth-related things and photos from AQUA5’s concert inside, among other things. And then there’s the poster. Of Mizu. And of Yumiko. In the same poster. On the opposite sides of it. WTF Takarazuka, trying to make me nuts? You wouldn’t give me the chance to have both their pictures on my wall at the same time? Figures. On lower right, a photo of Mizu. *-* My first comment, while still having a total brain lag, was ‘Mizu is not amused’. Mizu’s über cool though, so I obviously love the photo. And finally, what’s that thing next to the photo? A DVD? For me? Ah yes, it is the love. La Rose de Versailles (Berubara amongst friends), Mizu as Oscar digest. ♥________♥ Heaven. And a very bling heaven at that.

On with the schedule of our sleepover. We watched my Berubara DVD first and then continued with Rio de Bravo, which turned out to be a huge success. So much bling and feathers that you’ve got to lol hard, but also a very cool and sexy Mizu stealing a piece of jewellery and putting a female officer in handcuffs. 8D Over-the-top costumes, sexy dancing, coolness and a touch of comedy. If I didn’t know better, I’d say that life doesn’t get any better than that.

Well, as we had begun our Zuka marathon a bit late, we had to call it a night after Rio. The next morning I woke up at around eight, with Zara telling me that she’d been awake since 5:30. :___________D Well, waking up early gave us more time to watch the rest of the DVDs and so our marathon continued with Russian Blue. That one was a comedy, ultimately cute and a pain to keep up with with our Japanese skills. The wizards at the beginning got us really confused and a musical-loving Stalin was just hilarious. And Mizu’s smiles… I don’t even need to go there, do I? *____* We did a 180 with the last remaining DVD (we didn’t have time for Zara’s Yuuhi Oozora Berubara), which was tragically beautiful Romeo to Julietto ‘99. Full of emotion, Mizu-scale. So much cuteness. Yumiko, drunk with bits of green in her hair, dying way too early. Touching, perfect. ;__;♥

And having wathced all those shows, I ended up just craving for more. :'3 Yes, that’s right, I now feel like buying every single DVD I can afford (which isn’t all that many at the time being). The bling and the awesomeness is just so catchy that I’d love to have a Zuka sleepover every night from now on. 8) I need to buy, for example 「水夏希～Energy～新人公演ダイジェスト」 maybe at the very beginning of next month. Me & My Girl with Mizu playing the main role. Tango Argentino, same thing. *_________* Lovelovelove! And, luckily only near December, 2010 MIZU Natsuki Takarazuka Sky Stage DVD-BOX『MIZU』, 750 minutes (that’s 12 and a half hours, you guys) of Mizu. *brain explosion* The prices? 10,500 yen (~95€) for the first one and 16,800 yen (~152€) fo the second. And that’s without the shipping service fees. *head-desk* I’m going to die poor and happy, with a fortune in Takarazuka DVDs (…and manga, but let’s not go into that now, shall we?). :3

~♥~

That was it about Zuka for now. I’m going to my godparents’ summer house tomorrow and thus I’ll be away from the computer for the weekend. But before I go, I’ll have to fill you in on my last week.

First of all, I had an entrance exam on Wednesday morning. It didn’t go all that great, and I’ll still have to wait until next week or so before I’ll know for sure whether I got in or not. >.<''

After the exam, me and my little sister flew to Denmark to see Kat. We had an awesome time there, buying my sister a ball gown, eating sushi, driving to BonBon-Land (I went to the second-craziest ride of my life, Sven Svingarm, twice with Kat), having a crayfish party, drinking a few more than usual (for me, at least) and watching too much Disney Channel. :'D Ah, life’s good.

Credits to my sister. The crazy awesome BonBon-Land rides. :D

I really need to sleep. *goes to watch some Berubara*

Guess who’s got this on DVD? *-* (Why am I totally amazed by Mizu in drag obsessed with Wataru in this?)

Until next time, dears~! ♥

Ah, bliss~♥

I’ve probably had a couple of yet another best days of my life, and more are coming, if everything goes as planned. :3

Should I do this chronologically? Umm, I’m thinking maybe. At least for the two most important things. ♥

First off, my graduation party! I managed (quite miraculously, in fact!) to finish my dress in time, had to sew a few stitches in the morning, but I didn’t need to downright panic at all! :D What an accomplishment.

Newly graduated, in our school’s lobby. I had about 15 minutes in the morning for curling my hair, so I’m positivelly surprised that they came out pretty well (better than ever before, I think) and they also lasted for the whole day (and I still have some loose curls, didn’t have time to wash my hair yet) so I’m extremelly happy!

…I wasn’t in my most photographable state on Saturday, I guess, but I’ve got a couple of okay photos. :3 Dad’s parents gave me that huge rose. I love it. *-* I got many compliments on my dress, which actually made me feel quilty, because I would have wanted to make it even prettier. My dad described it as one of the prettiest in the whole school (dad’s speech – I tried so hard not to cry, he was just overly wonderful ;__;♥) but he was obviously watching the whole thing through his paternal vision, so that’s not any kind of a proper measure. People told me they liked especially the corset (bought, obviously) and the part that covered my shoulders. Here’s where the quilt stepd in – I did the decolté just the previous day and actually had the only panic experiense at around eleven p.m. when I noticed that I had made it too small. I couldn’t really use the sewing machine at that time of the night, so I had to sew some extentions to the bach by hand. :'3 I didn’t mention it to the quests, though, and was just happy that they approved. ^^

My dear frien Kat came from Denmark with her parents who are our important family friends, almost like a part of the family. ♥ (I hope you won’t mind me showing this photo, Kat. I’ll take it down if you want.) The one on the right is my little sister. We’re like day and night, really. :'D I look so pale compared to the other two…

A little bit of shoe posing with my girls. ♥ You can finally see my shoes better here. I’ve got to say that I almost ruined my toes with these. ^^'' I wish I’d have a good photo of my complete outfit, but I guess we’ll just have to do with what we’ve got. :3

And now to the presents! I got a nice amount of money and gift cards from family friends and Godparents, which is good considering the other thing I’m going to write about. But let’s stick to the graduation for a while longer.

I got a new electronic sewing machine from my parents. ;__;♥ It’s so modern that I’m afraid to use it. So many cool options~ I learned that my mom’s sewing machine is about 20-30 years old, so I guess it’s good to finally have a new one in the house. I just hope that the electronic parts won’t break down… The old mechanical machines always last longer than the more modern stuff.

I got Arabia’s Satumetsä mugs from a friend, as I had hoped, and a teapot with two tea cups (Wildberries by Villeroy&Boch) from all of my cousins from dad’s side (as I don’t have any on my mother’s side). I also got a poppy painting from my dad’s mother and a series of three old portraits, one of my great-grandmother and my grandmother’s and mother’s graduation photos, all in black and white. ♥ Family history, that’s what I like. :3 There’s also a book journal I got from another friend. Got to start reading books more often again.

I got my first Nomination bracelet from my godparents. ♥ It has a star (for Stella, I suppose *-*) and a golden lyra for my graduation. :3 So from now on I’ll be more than pleased to receive new pieces for every little event. :D

My cards and the big roses. ♥

My cousin’s son (about 4 years now) was so adorable when he very shyly handed these flowers to me. ;__;♥ And his little brother, my godson, was the cutest little thing, as always. *3* ♥

And just to add yet another photo, here are my ‘summer shoes’ that I bought today. :3 I just couldn’t bring myself to buy flat shoes, a girl’s got to have heels. ♥ I hope I’ll be able to walk with these though… Unlike my fail with last summer’s shoes. x3

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Now, on to the big news!

Heta is going to Germany ~22.7.2010. ♥

GACKTOOOO, here I come! ♥

(I’m so tired from all that rambling about the graduation that I can’t write a proper over-excited post about this right now… :'D)

I’m a bit worried, since I haven’t yet got the actuall bill, but I got the confirmation e-mail, so I think it means I got the ticket? *-* I spent the whole mornin (from about 9:45 to approx. 13:50) refreshing the page of the ticket seller, slowly getting on with the order step by step. I was too excited to get frustrated, otherwise I probebly would have paniced or blown up my head or something. :'D

Now I just need to actually pay for the ticket and then reserve the hotel and plane tickets to Munich, as soon as possible. I’ll probably be in Munich from the 21st to the 23rd of July and right now it seems that I’m going all alone. :D My parents are a bit worried, but I’m just… Almost high from the feeling of freedom and independance. :__D Somehow Germany seems like a safe place to go alone, even though I don’t speak German at all, just understand somewhat and know some Elisabeth bits by heart. :'D Me and my usefull vocabulary, I can ask people why they have murdered the Empress Elisabeth, or tell them about der Tod, or sing Die Schatten werden länger, if I still remember the german lyrics after all of that Yami ga hirogaru… :'3 Or maybe I’ll just tell everyone that I’m afraid of the police. xD Well, I’ll get to see GACKT and explore a bit of Munich and that’s the main point. ♥ Good use for my graduation present money. :3

Zara just convinced me to go to Annyeong!Party tomorrow, so I guess I’d better get to sleep soon. I want to buy a headband from Spiritstore tomorrow, plus I’ll have to get an appointment with a doctor for the driving school. I just started the theory lessons today! So many things to write about, so many things to forget… Well, until next time, my dears! Nail repairing post is on the way, plus I feel like cutting my nails, so expect something naily in near future!

♥Hetha♥

P.S. I really hope my mom and dad will want to go to see Sting when he has a concert in Finland… Mom already said that she’s not all that inspired to see a huge arena concert with Sting playing old songs with a symphony orchestra, but c’mon! She’s already missed him once and has felt bad about it later on.. We’ve got to see the concert, right? Right?

Mizu stole my spare time

…Yeah, I’m still seriously obsessed and there’s no sign of change in that on the horizon. It just gets stronger and stronger every day. Yes, I had big plans of how I would read to the upcoming matriculation exams every day throughout the summer but then along came Mizu and all the plans flew out the window. ^^’’ It seriously worries me… Last semester my school work was practically ruined by yaoi and this semester seems to fall into pieces before it has even started, all because of the perfect Mizu Natsuki. And my wallet/bank account is feeling the pain, too. 200,90€ for a DVD and a CD and I couldn’t be more eager to get rid of the money right now! But I’m trying to do my best to not upset my parents, so I’ve got to do it the hard way. I’ll have dad buy me AQUA5’s CD from CDJapan with Versailles’ single ASCENDEAD MASTER as soon as he’s willing to do it though. One CD per month is the best Christmas present of mine these days, I just wish it would apply to DVDs that cost over 100€ and CDs that cost 64,95€… Well, life isn’t life without a few hardships, right? My guess is that someone’s trying to make me study instead of watching Elisabeth and thus making it basically impossible for me to get the DVD before the exams. It isn’t working very well though; that someone hasn’t taken YouTube into account.

Hmm, considering the length of the first paragraph I’m writing another novel here. ^^’’

I actually had something to tell and show you other than just my Mizu fandom. I’ve been an unusually active shopper last week; I went to Sello on Wednesday to buy that scarf and belt (and a new bra, but I’m not posting photos of that :''D (I’m easily influenced, so now I’ve got myself addicted to using that :'''D smile all the time. Got that habit from Zara. ^^ I’m sorry for always copying my friends instead of coming up with something of my own. ;__;)), on Thursday I went to Helsinki with Zara and on Friday I went there again with Taitti and Niina. I didn’t buy anything yesterday, thank God for that.

So now let's go back a few days, to Thursday. In Helsinki with Zara. I had decided not to buy anything because I’m saving money for something. Well, surprise surprise, I totally failed on that. We were supposed to meet in Kamppi at 12 o’clock but I arrived about twenty minutes early and decided to go walk around a bit and maybe do some window shopping. As it happens, before Zara had even arrived at Kamppi I had already spent 90€ on a HerStyler. >_____>''

It’s pink! It’s really easy to use and I can both straighten my hair and create pretty curls. *Advertisement* Money well spent but why do I always have to buy something that costs a lot when I’m saving money for something even more expensive? >.<'' It’s a mystery.

I also bought Matenrou Opera’s new CD ANOMIE from Keltainen jäänsärkijä. I felt pretty good about that, since dad’s going to pay me back for it. ^^

Here’s my j-rock collection at the moment. ^^ I’m planning on buying more in the near future, as I’ve already mentioned.

I had a private photo shoot (why won’t I ever learn how to spell that? >.<) on Friday because I felt pretty. I straightened my hair in the morning obviously and got a bit of clothing inspiration from Mizu. ^^’’ Yesterday I didn’t feel pretty at all though, because I felt (and still feel) slightly sick and didn’t bother with a shower because I was going to sauna in the evening anyway. (I really hope that I haven’t got the swine flu… Don’t think so, anyway. Everyone just has to half-heartedly remind me of the possibility.)

Ermm… Where did all the good photos go? o.O Now I’m depressed 'cause I can’t be as beautiful as Mizu. –.-'' I tried to do Mizu’s pointed finger thing but I failed so bad I can’t show those photos to anyone. ^^’’ If you don’t know what I’m talking about:

Ittemiyo! *__________* Notice the most awesome Tooto-nails too. (Watch in YouTube for HQ)

Uwaah, this is the handiest thing! I’m posting with Windows Live Writer and all I need to do is paste the URL among the text and this thing automatically adds it as a video. *w*

Erm, back to subject… What was the subject again? My brain just poured out from my ear so it’s a bit hard to concentrate.

Well, maybe I’ve already said everything I meant to say… Maybe I could add that the combination of Mizu, Zara and Messenger has completely ruined my sleeping pattern. Today I will shut the computer at eleven p.m. at the very latest. It’s a promise. I’ve got to keep it.

P.S. I forgot to mention... I got a new conditioner with the HerStyler. It's like a mask so I can use it only once a week and it smells wonderful! *u* It's also quite effective compared to my other conditioners... Now I keep sniffing my hair every once in a while. x)

Inochi wa omoshiroi desu ne

…That’s my first Japanese title in this blog, right? I hope so. I’m sorry for those who get annoyed when people like me use Japanese just for fun. I just had to use that phrase. I should be studying English, Swedish and French for the final exams (did I mention this already?) but instead I’m doing my best to learn more Japanese and German. ^^’

Life’s interesting. If it isn’t, do something to make it so. That’s what I’m about to do.

Sorry for having another break in blogging. I’ve been madly obsessed, though I think I’m getting over it, little by little. I’m still trying to find a way to buy the DVD but I haven’t been waking in the middle of the night thinking about Mizu Natsuki. I’m so glad, this obsession scared the life out of me at one point.

I spent two days (Tuesday & Wednesday) at my grandparents’ summer cottage with my dad. We went to pick blueberries and my dad almost managed to turn it into a competition, like always. In the end, we came back home with over 7 kg of blueberries. I don’t mind, eating blueberries straight form freezer in the winter is the best!

Here’s a photo of my hand and basket. If you look closely (click for bigger version, as always) you’ll notice my stained fingers.

My basket on the left, the other one is dad’s. After a little over two hours of crouching in the forest. That was about enough for me, but dad had to go back twice afterwards. Picking blueberries was very relaxing, almost meditative. Forest is the best place for us Finns, imo.

The cottage. It’s very small but lovely. It’s one of the places I could call home. (That’s my grandmother on the porch, by the way.)

My grandmother’s (or grandfather’s, I’m not 100% sure…) fuschia. Felt like taking a photo. ^^ Gotta love that plant’s Finnish name, verenpisara, which means blood drop. It is my duty as a vampire lover to love the plant with such a tempting name. ^___~

And here’s a very freshly awesome photo of me in the forest. (Note the sarcasm here.) When I got home the first thing to do was to take a shower. The cottage doesn’t have water pipes, so washing my long hair would have been a major pain in the butt. x)

So now I’m back home. My little sister will be at home in about two hours, too, coming back from Jersey. She called me the other day to tell that she has bought me a super cute souvenir. I can’t wait! (I miss her, of course, but she isn’t the kind of person who would admit she has missed her big sister. So I’ll keep quiet about that. ^^)

I’m going about an identity crisis here. Should I change my style to something like this this or this(with longer hair and probably adding some romantic/aristocratic/gothic/vampiric/princess-y things)? Should I cut my hair? (Heck no!) Should I start buying more colourful clothes? (Maybe next summer…) Or should I perhaps try to look like Mizu Natsuki as death? (That would probably make me depressed… A no-go with my face…) My addiction has serously messed up my mind. My new theme songs are Antti Tuisku: Aivan niinkuin oisin mennyt biitistä sekaisin~ and TikTak: Sekoitat mun maailman~. (Lol, you should consider yourself lucky if you don’t know what I’m talking about.)

Then to yet another problem of mine. xD What on Earth should I wear to D’espairsRay’s gig tomorrow? :O Panicpanicpanic, I have no idea! And which shoes? I’ll have to wear shoes I can walk on… Nails? Hair? Gaah, I don’t know! I should go shopping, but I think it’ll have to wait till August when I’ll have more money… I would like to buy a men’s jacket looking blazer or something but, as my mom (my dear saving angel) put it, it’ll be nearly impossible to find one that suits me and even if I do, it’ll cost way too much. Mom is scarily practical at times.

Wow, I didn’t use the word indeed at all in this post! I was watching yet another Austen movie yestarday and I thought it would have affected my English. Sadly, it didn’t. I would love to use phrases like Are you quite certain? or I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it eight years ago on a daily basis.

I think that’s all for now. Expect a gig review on Sunday or so. ^^