Desperate attempt at bringing this blog back to life

Hello again my dear readers! I can’t believe it’s been three months since the last time I’ve posted anything here!

So let’s see what’s been going on in my life for these past months. My summer went relatively well, although I managed to spend most of it online. My summer trip no. 2 was going to Pärnu, Estonia with my family. It was fun, except for a couple of  minor family crises that made me think we will never go on a family trip again. I don’t have many photos, as usual, but you’ll get to see what I bought (read: what dad bought for me) from there. :)

Oh God, possibly the worst photo ever and nobody even mention the pose. The point of this: the lace shorts and the heels. ♥

New nail polish no. 1 – OPI An Affair in Red Square ♥

New nail polish no. 2 – (the blue one) OPI DS Magic ♥

New shirt no. 1 and also the most recent photo of my lovely face. :'3

New shirt no. 2 featuring my kawaii face.

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Other real life news: My sister turned 18 in August and got her driver’s license and I’ve started driving to school. I’ve been to my grandparents’ cottage with my dad and uncle to pick mushrooms and I’ve seen a concert version of Jesus Christ Superstar in Lahti and the Finnish version of Tanz der Vampire (which was AMAZING and cost me way more than I would’ve liked) in Seinäjoki. School has been better again, but I’m supposed to start on-the-job training soon and it’s making my stress levels go up again. I’ve finally started taking ballet lessons and it’s one of the best decisions I’ve made in my life. Now I just need to stop being lazy on Thursdays and actually go to the classes every week. :'D

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Things that are rocking my world: internet with all the amazing people I’ve met (hi guys I love you ♥), and Takarazuka. I’ve written my first fan letters to my princess a.k.a. Sagiri Seina and bought the ultimate amazingness a.k.a. said princess’ Bow Hall show’s DVD. Nijinsky, you guys. Watch it. Now. ♥ Also, my dear Zara was in Japan so I had her buy me everything I could afford, namely these things:

♥___________♥ Everything is shiny and nothing hurts. Obviously Zara bought a lot of stuff for herself too, and we had the best 'Zuka sleepover this weekend. ♥ Yukigumi. ♥

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Dad installed Windows 7 on my computer last week and everything looks shiny now. We did three different backups of my old files and stuff but I still haven’t figured out how to get some things back the way they used to be. Like my Firefox bookmarks. ASDFASGDF. And I finally got the new Photoshop dad promised to buy me years ago. I actually got the Adobe Creative Suite 5.5 Design Premium and it’s so full of things I hardly know how to use it. A huge leap from my old Elements 2.0.

Okay, that’s enough of text for now. Hopefully I’ll get back to more regular updates soon! Until next time, lovelies. ♥

Tenshi no uta ga kikoeru

Hello dear followers! The Japanese post titles are back because Takarazuka revue is my life at the moment. *3*

So I helped Zara go crazy with her DVD order and had her buy a few things for me too while she was at it. So yesterday I got these:

OH HI THAR MY INTERESTING LIFE. I bought the Elisabeth II Mook and after quickly browsing it through I came to the conclusion that I was right in getting it. My life could never be complete without all the photos of Mizu!Tooto’s costumes. *q*

Buying Yukigumi R&J DVD was obligatory, of course. We watched it with Zara last night and it was A-MAZ-ING. HEAVENLY. My love for Yukigumi skyrocketed like nobody’s business while watching this and I thought I already loved them to pieces. Kimu and Mimi were fabulous, Kittybalt was sdfsdhf and Chigi!Mercutio I can’t even write anymore. *q* So I won’t. JUST WATCH IT, OKAY?

Umm and then there’s that book with someone called Ouki Kaname. I don’t know what that is. :| No really, I GOT TERU’S PERSONAL BOOK FROM ZARA. AS A PRESENT. WHAT IS THIS? I haven’t even paid for my stuff yet and she’s giving me the hottest presents. GHH you can have the regular version of Chigi’s book in exchange, okay? ♥

I also got this necklace from Tenerife. ZARA STOP GIVING ME PRESENTS ALREADY! I feel like such a bad friend because I never give anything to you. Or to anyone, for that matter. >.>''

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My sister was cleaning her closets and throwing away clothes she didn’t want anymore. I ended up taking most of them. ^^; Our styles differ quite much so I’m surprised I liked so many things. Here’s a photo of my “new” boyfriend jeans and T-shirt I liked particularly much:

I’ll call this my casual-semi-otokoyaku-like-look or something.

Ugh, I want my hair to grow so I can get a more otokoyaku-ish cut. :'D I think I might start really growing my hair out again soon… But we’ll see. I really liked the two previous cuts I had…

Hmm, I thought I had more to write about… But no-one’s interested in reading my rage over school, job applications or feeling under the weather for the past two weeks. So I’ll just give you this:

I’ve started to draw again! All thanks to Zuka. :'D Musumeyaku fan art with a heart in the background, what is this? Click the pic for what I wrote about it in dA. ^^

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I’ve added my Tweets to the sidebar, by the way. I’m so addicted to Twitter I think it’s making me ill. x3

Anyway, since my brain is so full of Zuka that I can’t even write I think I’ll continue drawing my Chigi/Kitarou drawing now… Or watch R&J again… :D

Until next time, dears~! ♥

P.S. Here’s what I’d like to do to my hair:

Lol possibly the worst photo manip ever, but you get the picture. RED HAIR. *___* Also my skin would probably look either dead pale or very red if I ever decided to dye my hair red… I’ll HAVE to buy a red wig for May Day to know for sure…

Nenepanic!

Unf, well hello there again. I have apparently tried to start a new blogpost last month when I got this baby in the mail:

It’s the Hoshigumi R&J! *__________* Oh baby, am I even in love. With Terubalt. And her… his? ass. :__D The title of this post comes from when I was watching this with Zara and we decided that Juliet’s anxiety attacs (there are a lot of those in this show) should be called Nenepanic, after the top musumeyaku Yumesaki Nene. Who, btw, is the ultimately cutest thing ever. ;3;
Other than RomiJuri, my life has been filled with internet, school, depression and *dumdedum* Chigi-chan! I kind of ordered two versions of her personal book and her calendar AND her stage postcard… ^^’’

Here’s my new prescious stuff! (Well, I’ve had them for almost three weeks now…) I was so happy when I opened the package from Japan and found all of these inside! My acquaintance in Japan had been very thoughtful and bought me the personal calendar that came with the clear file. The four chirashi also came with that. The upper one of the personal books (oh God, I just typoed and wrote boobs instead *dead* x.x) came with a DVD with approximately 30 mins of footage from the first photoshoot of the book. And aside from the stage postcard I had ordered, I also got another postcard with the greetings from my acquaintance. Thank you so much!
Now let’s not discuss the amount of money I spent on all that Zuka stuff last month…

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Other than that, I’ve been very low these past two months. Mostly because of school and all the things I should have done already. And then there’s the situation in Japan. I don’t even have any Japanese friends, but of course the horrible events make me feel bad for everyone in the land of the rising sun. I can’t even write anything about it, but Japan stays in my thoughts. Hopefully everyone will stay safe and the rebuilding can start soon. ;__;

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And… I got a new haircut again. It’s not even near to what I had hoped it to be, so I’ve been even more unhappy since last Wednesday.

Guh.
Well, it’s not all that horrible I guess, but still… T-T I’ve been trying to tell myself that hair will always grow back and the I can go for the otokoyaku look I’ve been yearning. Until then I’ll just have to try to learn new ways to do this current hair and not look in the mirror too much. >____>’’
Oh, and I figured you might want to see that hair better, so I took a video with my webcam:

Depressed me is depressed. Sorry for the boring post. I’ll try to cheer up and write something more interesting next time.

Ici le venin de la haine coule dans nos vies comme dans nos veines

Bonsoir my dear readers! You might wonder if I’ve turned French during this inexcusably long Blogger silence but I assure you this isn’t anything serious, just another obsession. You’ve been missing my crazy rants, haven’t you? Well, let’s not keep you waiting any longer. On to the crazy place called my mind!

THIS! Oh Gackt, this is the best thing since Elisabeth! That French guy’s voice! *-* This song! WHY oh why didn’t I find this musical last year when I needed the inspiration to study French for the matriculation examination? Well, if I’d have found this earlier it would have been even bigger a pain to wait for the Takarazuka version… I mean, Oh Gackt (yes, again) I NEED to see, no OWN this on DVD… And since there are two versions, the Hoshigumi one with Kaname as Tybalt and the Yukigumi one with Chigi as Mercutio I obviously need them both. I want to be poor and happy SO badly right now. *insert more excited rant here*

Other than that, I’ve started a tumblr blog just for the sake of spam. As you can see, it doesn’t necessarily lessen the spam in my other blogs. Sorry about that, but that’s just the way I am. ^^

THEN! (I am slightly stressed/fatigued/depressed so I write even more colourfully than usually. :'D) I had my hair cut AGAIN last Wednesday. ♥

Ahaha, a weird picture but whatever. I finally got the short-on-the-back-longer-on-the-front ‘bob’ I’ve been dreaming of since I don’t even know when. Have a look at these next bad quality webcam photos:

The hair is super short (on my scale, at least) at the nape of the neck. It’s a bit like one of Victoria Beckham’s bobs, except that Posh obviously wears her hair better than me and my hair is cut straighter than hers. Or something. My English totally fails me, sorry. x3 AND I’ve noticed (again) that I am terrible at doing my hair. ♥ Well, time to learn, right?

I’m 99,9% sure that I’m going to die of lack of sleep, stress and overall exhaustion next week… Or maybe of Zuka angst, we’ll see.

On a not as random a thought as that previous paragraph, I got a dataliittymä as a Christmas present. Sorry for the lack of interest to find out what it would be in English, but basically it means that I can surf in the net on my phone to my heart’s content anytime I want, almost anywhere I want. The best thing? My dad can’t stalk the times I use the net. ♥ So I can stay up ‘til four a.m. doing nothing useful and die of tiredness the next day. ♥ This is one of the reasons I am definitely going to die sooner than expected.

RANDOMNESS IS RANDOM. Over and out. ♥

Dieu, que les hommes, sont durs
Que les hommes, sont sûrs d'eux
Oh ! Dieu, que les hommes, sont durs
Que faut-il donc qu'on fasse
Pour que tu accordes ta grâce
Dieu toi qui nous a mis sur la terre
Pourquoi nous forcer à nous taire
Et regarder, mourir les hommes

Razzle dazzle and all that jazz

Happy New Year everyone! It’s been two months since my last post, so I could start the new year with promising that I’ll update my blog more often. ^^

2010 was an unforgettable year, to say the least. I’ve been up so high it feels unreal and I’ve been down to the point where I’ve thought I wouldn’t be able to make it to 2011. But here I am and for the moment I’m feeling positive about the future. Other than updating my blog more I’ll promise to start putting goals to myself and really start acting like the grown-up I’m supposed to be. I’ll also promise not do the same mistakes over and over again, keeping my friends close and be more active when it comes to meeting people, old and new. I’ll do everything I can to avoid depression, exercise and go outdoors regularly and eat more healthy food.

But that’s enough of the new year’s promises. During these last two months I’ve, for example, turned 19, got my driver’s license and cut my hair. I know you want less typing and more photos, so here comes.

I was supposed to go for a more otokoyaku-like cut, but instead ended up with a bob. Getting a less feminine cut = fail but at least the bob suits me and I’ve got a lot of compliments. Many have said that I’m finally out of that typical high-schooler look. Sorry about the bad webcam quality, by the way. The darkest months of the year aren’t the best for taking photographs. …Which actually brings us to my next subject; Christmas! We had a very white one here in southern Finland, as you can see in this photo of our front yard:

It has been snowing even more since this photo was taken. I love snow so this is good news for me. ♥

Next up is my Christmas look:

You can’t actually see it in this photo, but my Snö of Sweden necklace matched very well with that shirt. ^^

My main gift for both my birthday and Christmas was a trip to London with my friend Pia. We had to go through a bit of a setback with it when half of Europe got covered in snow before Christmas and Heathrow was closed just the day we were supposed to set off. Well, we got our flights rescheduled and instead of Christmas shopping we went to London just in time for the great post Christmas sales. That is to say we flew to London on the 27th and returned on the 30th. We didn’t do too much shopping, though: too much people for both of us. ^^’’ We did, however, go to see a musical, since we are both big fans of the London West End shows. We got our half-price tickets to Chicago from tkts and I’ve got to say that £33 was a real bargain for each of the third-row seats we got. *-* The show was amazing, the performers were fabulous and we got to see it all just a few meters away from the stage. Love! Here’s a photo of the theater the night after we saw the musical:

I guess I was supposed to notice how hot all of the male dancers were, but I couldn’t keep my eyes off Vivien Carter whose Velma Kelly made me speechless. ♥__♥ I managed to notice though that Billy Flynn was played by Terence Maynard from Young Dracula the TV series! :D

I guess the best word to describe our London trip would be sexy, since the night after we saw Chicago we went to see Burlesque the movie. That too was much fun and full of great singing. Christina Aguilera’s voice is just something else.

Probably slightly inspired by the dazzling London trip, I slept with curlers on last night. If only I could control the curls a bit more I think I would really fall in love with this style…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Not quite the Todoroki curls, right Zara? ^__~ Again, it’s too dark to take photos and with my photographing skills… Well, the last photo seems alright to me, at least.

That’s all for now. See you soon, dears! ♥

Better than love

Ladies and gentlemen, what you are looking at is a post written by one very happy girl. And that was a huge understatement right there. Alright, since you can all guess what this is about I’ll just get to the subject without further delay.

*Insert dramatic drums here*

Friday the 15th was definitely more successful than the one before it, but the reason to my happiness was the same. (Zuka, obviously. There’s still no progress with the video thing. ^^'')

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I got my new Mizu stuff! *____* I was completely over the moon when I came home from a fashion fair (nothing much to say about that) to find a package from Japan on my table. My sister had apparently signed the delivery for me, so all I had to do was avoid any questions about the price of the delivery from my parents. I snuck the package to my room and squealed and hyperventilated a lot while carefully examining the contents. My mind has obviously been filled with Mizu for the past week. There’s so much to look at and so much to read, if only I could read Japanese, that is. I’ve done a lot of reading, actually. If I would bother to learn some of the more frequently appearing kanji it wouldn’t be all that hard to at least grasp the main concept of all the articles etc. I’m feeling the need to scan every photo of Mizu on the computer for personal usage, but I don’t want to risk ruining the book and the magazines in the process. Plus, there would be so much to scan; I wouldn’t know where to begin. Anyway, that was 97 € well spent. *pats herself on the back*

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I started to write this entry two weeks ago and I’m sure I had something non-zuka-related to say back then but now… Tehehee. :D Zara has bought like three new DVDs in the past two weeks so we’ve had a Zuka night two Saturdays in a row. Pari no Sora Yori mo Takaku was great of course, but nothing can beat what we watched yesterday. Roget/Rock on! is something that I must buy immediately, sorry Zuka shopping list! I’ve fallen in love. I’ve found my post-Mizu favourite takarasienne. I’m over the moon, about to faint, feeling anxious when I wake up all because of one Sagiri Seina. New obsession, here I come!

(Image from here.) This girl… My Gackt, why do I always forget how to breathe when she pops up from somewhere? *_____*

She’s just… Whoah. You really should see her in action, she’s too cool. Or too hot to handle. I can’t decide which would be the best way to describe her. Hot like ice? (Yes, her character is the bad guy. Why do I always fall for the bad guys? Tooto, Aosetona, vampires in general…) Her acting somehow reminds me of Gackt, and her voice… To die for. I heard her voice in Russian Blue for the first time and fell for it right away. Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, I’m moving on now to save the last bit of sense I have in me.

(Got to say just one more thing related to this… My dad randomly decided to up our (mine & my sister’s) monthly allowance by 25 €. YAYYYY! Now I can almost afford the DVD with the handling and postage fees… …Ohmigackt, this is not good for my sanity…)

…Just one more and I promise to stop spamming.

(Source.) Is she cool or what? *q* *dances away to find a bucket*

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I’ve had a massive skin problem for a month now. I don’t want to go into too much detail here, so I’ll just say that the skin on my face was so dry I was afraid it would come off altogether and I had a nasty rash on my neck and even armpits.  I went to see a doctor on Wednesday and got four different creams with which to start healing my skin. The most healing cream worked like magic and my skin was back to normal in three days. Now I’m just mad at myself for not seeing a doctor sooner. -.-

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Next subject: mood swings! I’ve about had it. Last week I was feeling under the weather because of my skin. Yesterday I was angsting big time, probably due to lack of Chigi sleep. Today has been a massive rollercoaster. I think I’ve regained some of my appetite after two days of not feeling like eating much. (And here I thought it was impossible for me to lose my appetite.) I haven’t exactly cried (got enough of that yesterday) but I’ve been down. But I’ve also been high with a texting war about Zuka meets Star Wars with Zara and finding Roget/Rock on! online. And the best of all? I started jumping up and down with joy when I got my hair crisis (yes, it’s always there) under control.

(A bad webcam photo is bad.) This isn’t inspired by Chigi’s cheek bones. It’s a bit difficult to see in the photo (Why do I feel like I’ve written something like that before?) but my hair actually looks quite nice! A bit like Kathryn Morris’ in Cold Case. Well, I always thought I liked her hair and that it would probably suit me too. Well, it does! And guess what? I may have found a perfect cut, if I ever decide to get rid of these locks. Buh-bye hair! …Or not. :3 We’ll see…

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Now, I absolutely must watch more Chigi call it a night. Only two hours of school tomorrow and then I’ll be off to do some depression shopping. A blazer, a frilly dress shirt, a hat, a mini skirt… Dum-de-dum, I’ve got a list of new clothes I want. :3 If I can find any that suit me and my taste, that is…

Until next time, dearies~! ♥

I’ve died and gone to Heaven

…or maybe this is Yomi no sekai (land of the dead in Takarazuka’s Elisabeth).

Warning! This post is full of completely brainless Takarazuka/Elisabeth/Tooto/Mizu Natsuki fandom. No need to read if this irritates you. Otherwise have fun reading about how my brain decided to melt and pour out through my ears.

I tried to write about this calmly, but it simply doesn't seem to be possible. Sorry~

ADFHJSAGHDFAS!!! I finally got ‘em! Both of ‘em! *_________________________* On Thursday morning around 9:35 o’clock I came from my mother tongue class to find Ida, Zara and a couple of other Mursus (=people I hang around with at school… mursu = walrus… Don’t ask! XD) hanging around in our school’s so-called net café. I noticed a small plastic bag in Ida’s handbag but ignored it thinking that I couldn’t be so lucky as to finally get my Elisabeth CD. I sat there chatting with people when I suddenly noticed Ida and Zara whispering something to each other and instantly thought that there was something going on. Then Ida pulled out the plastic bag and I almost screamed out loud. Not only did I get the Elisabeth CD I was waiting for but there was the DVD also! *_________________* I just couldn’t believe my luck, those evil people (xD) at the German musical store had told Ida that they would be getting more DVDs in 8-12 weeks and yet there it was with the CD. Needless to say I spent the rest of the day hyperventilating and guarding my bag as if my life depended on it. And now I know that these people who dare to call themselves my friends are actually sadists who are trying to kill me by doing everything they can to cause me a heart attack. XD Not really, I love these people! <3 I hope they all had fun watching me completely lose my mind.

Okay, on with the good stuff! Here be a couple of photos of my precious:

Shiny objects are shiny and hard to photograph. :__D Sorry for the small size but I think that a) our dear Takarazuka would prefer it that way and b) Mizu-Tooto’s hotness would completely melt your brains too if the photos were any bigger than they are now. :3 Here comes the basic description of what I got (from left to right ^^): Takarazuka Elisabeth (2007 Snow Troupe version) double DVD w/ a beautiful shiny booklet and a lovely ‘How to use this DVD’ card with Mizu on it (goin to my wall somewhere near the Russian Blue/Rio de Bravo flyer I got from Ryu <3) and Takarazuka Elisabeth (2007 Snow Troupe version) double CD w/ a lovely shiny booklet. *3* Both the CD and the DVD include the full musical with final numbers and everything plus the DVD includes a bonus track of the musical’s rehearsals and the possibility to watch some scenes from a different angle (concentrating on one of the actresses). Lots of Mizu angles. *3* No, I won’t admit anything! Especially nothing concerning Mizu practicing Yami ga hirogaru otokoyaku dance number in a blouse and tight pants… Those hips… *dies at the thought*

Ehm, where was I? Did I have something more to add? I just managed to empty my brain again (or what’s left of it anyway). :''D This isn’t good for my concentration at school… Just when I thought I was getting better at maths again… Obsessions are so dangerous. Oh, I can’t wait to get some people to come over to my house to watch Elisabeth and drool all over the living room’s floor~. (Next Friday, Zara! *3* <3) I’m doing my best to get everyone around me addicted to this. :''D Maybe this post’s title should have been ‘Back to square one’ or something, because I’m kind of doing the exact same thing I did last June. Back then I managed to get Zara hooked *mischievous laughter* *hugs Zara* and now I’ve pretty much won Ani over, too (wasn’t all that hard with Tooto being a bit vampire-like character with a powerful voice). :3 Taitti and Niina are goin down soon, too, I’m sure of that. People who already love these mysterious beautiful characters, long silver hair and cool costumes won’t be hard to convince. >:3 Boo-hoo, now I feel like a horrible, selfish person. T-T And I also feel that I’m writing something totally random and unnecessary… Okay, before moving on I’ll just thank Siru for posting Ryu’s and Ayu’s Tooto/Elisabeth/Rudolf cosplays and a few Elisabeth videos which got me addicted. :3 And thanks Ryu and Ayu for amazing costumes!

Gah, I just realized that I was supposed to get to the point when I started that previous paragraph. :____D FAIL. Okay, now, what’s rockin’ my world besides der Tod? I’d like to do Tooto nails right now. (Lol, failed at changing the subject. XD) I need some silver & glittery nail polish. And I’ve got *ahem* a couple of inspirations. :''D I know your just dying to get a list, so here goes:

1. Sewing: a victorian dress, a corset, a dress shirt… Was that all? Ah, one more; a black vest (pinstripe?)

2. Knitting: a white beanie or a beret

3. Jewelry: cameo jewelry, some silver rings made of silver wire and some beads etc.

4. Decorative stuff: nail decorations, cellphone charms (like cupcakes etc.)…

5. That gothic manor dollhouse!

It certainly seems like I’ve got a lot of projects… Mom hates me for never finishing anything… ;__; (Being addicted to Facebook games & Gaia Online’s halloween event doesn’t really help. x3)

Wow, now I’m exhausted! I guess it’d be best if I just finished here… Sorry for all the fandom, craziness and overall randomness. Thumbs up for those who actually got around to reading the whole thing. ^3^ Lots of love & kisses to you all!

Oh, and Happy Halloween by the way! :3

Always Obsessed

Creativetitles.com :''D

Ahem, I always suck at getting to the point…

It’s been two weeks again, sorry for that! ^^ Here’s a brief version of what’s been going on in my life in these past two weeks:

1. I was being shy at Tsukicon with Zara (stalking people we know from the net, bloggers and such…). I tried to wear fake nails for the first time in my life and that… Well, let’s just say it wasn’t a very successful experiment. :''D

2. I’ve been a bit sick, a typical post-stress reaction or something.

3. I learned that the German shop I was ordering my Elisabeth DVD from has run out of copies so I’ll have to wait for 8-12 weeks 'til I’ll get it. T-T But hopefully I’ll get the CD early next week.

4. Umm… And yeah, as the title indicates, I’ve got myself obsessed in various “new” things. Or rather my old obsessions have expanded. (… Brain lag, I’m watching V-ROCK FESTIVAL and they’re showing Aoi’s performance atm. *-* …) My Phantom of the Opera fandom has got a new Takarazuka dimension and thus my Takarazuka fandom has got a new Wao Yoka dimension. *3* Which has lead to WaoHana fandom and to a renewal of my love for Victorian dresses. I can’t sleep because I only want to sew. But I suck at drawing patterns… It’s a dilemma. And my mom won’t buy me new fabrics until I finish my previous projects. T-T I suck at finishing things. Here’s a clip where you can (well, somewhat) see the dress I’d love to make:

(It’s the white one, in case you were wondering.) *3* I have absolutely no idea of where I’d wear a dress like that… Not at school obviously… Fancy throwing a ball, anyone?

Boohoo, I’ve got a feeling that this post is going to be a huge one… Sorry! XD

Nail status:

They’re short and yellow. T-T I really need to do something about them today… >___>''

Hair status:

(Lol, I look like a ghost >:D) A couple of experiments I’ve had with my shorter hair. For some reason I can’t keep from curling my hair these days. Shorter hair –> more volume, please!

Next subject… Helsinki Book Fair! *-* It’s been one of my favourite happenings of the year ever since I went there for the first time about seven years ago. I was a true book worm at the time and though I don’t read as much these days my love for books hasn’t faded. This year I went there with Taitti and Niina on Friday and then again with my mom on Saturday. Too many people, too much to see, too many books but I love it. This year it was “pappa betalar” (dad pays) for both me and mom. :____D It’s a good thing that my dad always supports our hobbies because otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to buy anything due to my poor financial status. :''D Anyways, here’s what I bought:

The things I bought on Friday are on top and Saturday’s findings are bellow. ^^ As you can see, I focused mainly on manga on Friday. I bought Love Celeb 1&2 in Finnish (*-* I can’t help loving the way Shinjo Mayu draws male characters…), Vampire Knight 5 in English and then that huge Comic Beam in Japanese (because it was only 5 euros and there seemed to be a few interesting chapters there… Now I just need to start practicing my Japanese :''D). On Saturday I got mom to buy me (or us) a book full of misheard lyrics. It’s hilarious! Mom also found a book about dollhouses and I encouraged her to buy it. I haven’t got around to reading it yet but it seems really beautiful and lovely. I bought J.R.Ward’s Dark Lover in Finnish for myself because it just happened to catch my attention and as it is about vampires I couldn’t help buying it. (Now I’m in trouble because I’m supposed to be reading a book for my mother tongue class but I would much rather read this vampire book… xP) I haven’t got any photos from the fair itself because I never remember to take any photos… >.<''

I know this is a mile long post already but I’ve got to share with you just one more thing. I got my tai chi sword on Thursday! Here:

(Lol at the pose x3) It’s a bit too simple (not decorated) for my taste but I guess it goes well with the tai chi ideology… It looks a bit too orange too… Well, who cares as long as I can start practicing the sword form in January. :3

I had something more to write about but (to all my readers’ luck) I forgot what it was. ^^'' So, until next time my friends! (If school doesn’t kill me first, that is…)

Um, oh yeah! (I promise I’ll make it short. :'3) About my obsessions… I’ve got myself totally hooked on Facebook games like FarmVille, Vampire Wars and Café World. :''D It’s a bit pitiful, staying up ‘til midnight watching how my virtual plants grow. :______D

And plus, I feel like I’d like to change this blog’s appearance… But I haven’t got any ideas! If you have any suggestions, please let me know! ^^

Fail

I meant to update my dear blog earlier today but instead I ended up watching Mizu videos again… :''D That’s because I bought a pair of new jeans last Monday and I wanted to take some photos of them to show to you. And now I’m a bit depressed because I look so ridiculous compared to Mizu-san. ;__; (Not a huge surprise now, is it? :''D)

Okay, first of all I’ve got no idea of how I managed to get that strap of hair there in the first photo. :''D I’m sorry for the crappy quality again, I’m still working on my photographing skills. ^^ Wonder why I never take any photos when it’s not too dark… Anyways, I finally managed to buy a pair of new jeans! Now that’s something to celebrate, last time I bought new jeans was on… 8th grade or something? I can’t even remember. :''D (I’m totally overusing that smile btw… >.<'') I was in Helsinki with Zara last Monday and I told her I needed new jeans. I even said as a joke that insted of buying something for about 60-70€ I’d end up finding a perfect fit for 150€. Why is it that I never know when to shut up? I went to Sello afterwards and decided to go and check the JC store there. A kind shop assistant brought about seven pairs of jeans for me to try on and I must say I was getting a bit desperate when none of them fit well enough. Then I tried on what was to become the last pair and ta-dah, a perfect fit! The price? 139€ ;___; I ended up using double the amount of money I had reserved for the new jeans. Now I won’t be able to buy new shoes… Or a new winter jacket… T-T

My Gackt fandom has suffered slightly from my addiction to Takarazuka and Mizu (like almost all of my other fandoms) and I haven’t really been listening to Gackt’s music in a long time. Today I randomly started to listen to Crescent and oh my Gackt did I even remember why I love that CD so much. Mind forest & 君が待っているから. *_________* Please mister Gackt, release a new CD already! I’m getting slightly bored here, reading about all the new singles. A full album is what I need! (Oh, and I’ve spelled his name wrong here. In celebration of his 10 years as a solo artist he has decided to change his name slightly. From now on he is GACKT. Apparently he thinks that bigger artists need to spell their names with capital letters… :___D

Ehm, let’s get back to my Takarazuka/Mizu Natsuki/otokoyaku fandom. Why do I like this page of style-arena.jp/Tokyo New Tribe? *3* Waitresses dressed as men… … … My brain just died. Can’t think about anything clever to say about this… … Yep, all blank, sorry. ^^'' Let’s just say that I think that’s a great idea. I’ll definitely have to visit that place someday.

Apart from my identity crisis, my brain has been full of all kinds of ideas of what I could do. Everything from writing, drawing and sewing to decorating my phone and nails and making new jewelry. My latest inspiration is to make a gothic dollhouse. I’m not kidding, I’d really like to have a little vampire mansion in my room. A miniature version of my dream house. *3* I could make things by myself and buy some furniture… And it could have electricity too! Okay, I already have a dollhouse in my room, but that’s something my dad has made for me and my little sister when we were little and it kind of represents our house, so I can’t really turn it into a gothic manor… So I want to make a new one. This sounds like another one of those projects that I am very eager to start but never end up finishing. :''D But it would be cool~.

Hehe, I’ve been ranting quite much already but I’ve got to add just one more thing… My Elisabeth DVD + CD have been ordered! *__________* I just can’t wait to get them in my hands! I wish they’ll be in my friend’s mailbox before the autumn holiday… I already told my parents that I’ll have a movie night with Zara at some point so they won’t be too surprised when I tell them that I’ll reserve the living room for the night. And I learned that dad has ordered us a new stereo system. I can already feel the chills running down my spine when Mizu-Tooto starts to sing. *_________* … … … Now my brain died again at the thought. Well, I guess that was all anyways. See you later! ^^

Mizu stole my spare time

…Yeah, I’m still seriously obsessed and there’s no sign of change in that on the horizon. It just gets stronger and stronger every day. Yes, I had big plans of how I would read to the upcoming matriculation exams every day throughout the summer but then along came Mizu and all the plans flew out the window. ^^’’ It seriously worries me… Last semester my school work was practically ruined by yaoi and this semester seems to fall into pieces before it has even started, all because of the perfect Mizu Natsuki. And my wallet/bank account is feeling the pain, too. 200,90€ for a DVD and a CD and I couldn’t be more eager to get rid of the money right now! But I’m trying to do my best to not upset my parents, so I’ve got to do it the hard way. I’ll have dad buy me AQUA5’s CD from CDJapan with Versailles’ single ASCENDEAD MASTER as soon as he’s willing to do it though. One CD per month is the best Christmas present of mine these days, I just wish it would apply to DVDs that cost over 100€ and CDs that cost 64,95€… Well, life isn’t life without a few hardships, right? My guess is that someone’s trying to make me study instead of watching Elisabeth and thus making it basically impossible for me to get the DVD before the exams. It isn’t working very well though; that someone hasn’t taken YouTube into account.

Hmm, considering the length of the first paragraph I’m writing another novel here. ^^’’

I actually had something to tell and show you other than just my Mizu fandom. I’ve been an unusually active shopper last week; I went to Sello on Wednesday to buy that scarf and belt (and a new bra, but I’m not posting photos of that :''D (I’m easily influenced, so now I’ve got myself addicted to using that :'''D smile all the time. Got that habit from Zara. ^^ I’m sorry for always copying my friends instead of coming up with something of my own. ;__;)), on Thursday I went to Helsinki with Zara and on Friday I went there again with Taitti and Niina. I didn’t buy anything yesterday, thank God for that.

So now let's go back a few days, to Thursday. In Helsinki with Zara. I had decided not to buy anything because I’m saving money for something. Well, surprise surprise, I totally failed on that. We were supposed to meet in Kamppi at 12 o’clock but I arrived about twenty minutes early and decided to go walk around a bit and maybe do some window shopping. As it happens, before Zara had even arrived at Kamppi I had already spent 90€ on a HerStyler. >_____>''

It’s pink! It’s really easy to use and I can both straighten my hair and create pretty curls. *Advertisement* Money well spent but why do I always have to buy something that costs a lot when I’m saving money for something even more expensive? >.<'' It’s a mystery.

I also bought Matenrou Opera’s new CD ANOMIE from Keltainen jäänsärkijä. I felt pretty good about that, since dad’s going to pay me back for it. ^^

Here’s my j-rock collection at the moment. ^^ I’m planning on buying more in the near future, as I’ve already mentioned.

I had a private photo shoot (why won’t I ever learn how to spell that? >.<) on Friday because I felt pretty. I straightened my hair in the morning obviously and got a bit of clothing inspiration from Mizu. ^^’’ Yesterday I didn’t feel pretty at all though, because I felt (and still feel) slightly sick and didn’t bother with a shower because I was going to sauna in the evening anyway. (I really hope that I haven’t got the swine flu… Don’t think so, anyway. Everyone just has to half-heartedly remind me of the possibility.)

Ermm… Where did all the good photos go? o.O Now I’m depressed 'cause I can’t be as beautiful as Mizu. –.-'' I tried to do Mizu’s pointed finger thing but I failed so bad I can’t show those photos to anyone. ^^’’ If you don’t know what I’m talking about:

Ittemiyo! *__________* Notice the most awesome Tooto-nails too. (Watch in YouTube for HQ)

Uwaah, this is the handiest thing! I’m posting with Windows Live Writer and all I need to do is paste the URL among the text and this thing automatically adds it as a video. *w*

Erm, back to subject… What was the subject again? My brain just poured out from my ear so it’s a bit hard to concentrate.

Well, maybe I’ve already said everything I meant to say… Maybe I could add that the combination of Mizu, Zara and Messenger has completely ruined my sleeping pattern. Today I will shut the computer at eleven p.m. at the very latest. It’s a promise. I’ve got to keep it.

P.S. I forgot to mention... I got a new conditioner with the HerStyler. It's like a mask so I can use it only once a week and it smells wonderful! *u* It's also quite effective compared to my other conditioners... Now I keep sniffing my hair every once in a while. x)

In my darkest hours I could not foresee

...That the tide could turn so fast to this degree (Within Temptation – Our Solemn hour)

Rest in peace Jasmine You, you’ll be missed and loved forever.

I’ll try my hardest to make this a happy post. Even when in mourning, we need to seek happiness in small things in life.

Jag skulle skriva på svenska men jag vill inte. >.<’’ It would be good to practice Swedish by writing but I’m too lazy. And I guess that some people wouldn’t really appreciate it if I suddenly wrote a whole post in Swedish.

I have so many photos and things to write about! We were at my grandparents’ summer house again for the weekend, with my little sister this time. We swam a lot because the weather was great. Mum says that I’ve tanned noticeably, even though I still look pale by most standards. And here comes the photo spam:

The awesome summer house (the house itself and the sauna). The border of the lake is to the right, about ten meters from the sauna. I know, I suck at taking photos…

Sunset on Friday evening. The girl in the photo is my godparents’ daughter; I hope she doesn’t mind that I only censored her face… I just didn’t want to ruin the photo. :3

Lol, me. x) My hand looks amputated… And I tried Yulia Tymoshenko-styled braids… can’t see it that well in the photo though. :’3

We saw this awesome swallowtail caterpillar. It was about 10 cm long. ^^

Me and Stella walking down towards the sauna.

We were fishing. :''D Looks like I’m about to fall to the lake…

(Random comment: LOST SCENE *___* dum-dum-dum)

I went to Sello today… Oh no, I don’t want to start the Mizu-fandom at this hour… >___>'' But yeah, I suddenly got obsessed with belts and long scarves. :3

Sorry for the bad quality… Awesome pose, don’t you think? x) I had to practice otoko no winku a few times. :'''D I bought that white scarf and the belt that you can’t see well in the photo. I need more money~! Now I’m a bit afraid… What will happen to my aristocratic vampirism if this goes on? >___>'' How long will it take until I’m listening to AQUA5 24/7?

…I romanized Maladie/Saigo no Chansu yesterday. It’s freaking love, that whole scene of the musical. ♥______♥

Gah, I’ve been writing to my Galleriapäiväkirja way too much, I’ve ran out of inspiration in regards to my blogs. D: Hmm… I have a few photos of my hair in the past… Maybe I’ll do some kind of a hair post some day?

Oh, almost forgot!

Nails of the day. ^^ My mom’s old nail polish, best before 08/2006. :'''''D

We got this new chair on our balcony. ^^ And…

I bought a new backpack. Just in case I have to carry a crapload of books to school some day…

Now, maybe I’ll finally draw the patterns to my shirt… If I don’t end up watching Mizu videos for the whole night again, that is. >.<''