Yup, still alive

…And randomly updating my blog because HI.

Excuses first. I haven’t been updating this blog because my attention has been focused elsewhere. Like school. I did five weeks of on-the-job training in November-December. Stressful but fun. Then we had this amazingly life-consuming course during which I made a graduation dress for my sister. PAINFULL. We started a new course this week… But I won’t talk about it yet.

Because.

(7doors.jp)GUYS. I’M SEEING MIZU NATSUKI LIVE. Is this even real? *___________*

Also.

(sanspo.com) CHIGI.

Yup, you read it right; Japan Trip 2012 is happening April 2.-15.! Osaka calling~ I’m going with my ‘Zuka sis Zara. :3 We’re going to see Mizu’s 7 Doors musical play and lots of ‘Zuka, obviously. Yukigumi’s Don Carlos/Shining Rhythm and Soragumi’s Brilliant Days/Climax. MIZU. CHIGI.

Dad pays. Yes. But I don’t feel too bad about it, since I got the flights as a birthday present and money for other things /hi dad, I’m sure you didn’t mean xxx amount of theatre tickets and other ‘Zuka stuff) as a Christmas present. And because it’s around Easter holidays I’m going to miss only 5 days of school. No regrets. ♥

Also hi, I have trench coats (but I want a new one):

Yup, bad face day. The one on the right is from… 2004 or something? And the left is the one I’ve been wearing since buying it in 2007-ish. I think I like the black one more. o.O The silhouette suits me better and the length…

Okay that’s all for now. Thank you all for bering with me! ♥

Better than love

Ladies and gentlemen, what you are looking at is a post written by one very happy girl. And that was a huge understatement right there. Alright, since you can all guess what this is about I’ll just get to the subject without further delay.

*Insert dramatic drums here*

Friday the 15th was definitely more successful than the one before it, but the reason to my happiness was the same. (Zuka, obviously. There’s still no progress with the video thing. ^^'')

… !!!

I got my new Mizu stuff! *____* I was completely over the moon when I came home from a fashion fair (nothing much to say about that) to find a package from Japan on my table. My sister had apparently signed the delivery for me, so all I had to do was avoid any questions about the price of the delivery from my parents. I snuck the package to my room and squealed and hyperventilated a lot while carefully examining the contents. My mind has obviously been filled with Mizu for the past week. There’s so much to look at and so much to read, if only I could read Japanese, that is. I’ve done a lot of reading, actually. If I would bother to learn some of the more frequently appearing kanji it wouldn’t be all that hard to at least grasp the main concept of all the articles etc. I’m feeling the need to scan every photo of Mizu on the computer for personal usage, but I don’t want to risk ruining the book and the magazines in the process. Plus, there would be so much to scan; I wouldn’t know where to begin. Anyway, that was 97 € well spent. *pats herself on the back*

~♥~

I started to write this entry two weeks ago and I’m sure I had something non-zuka-related to say back then but now… Tehehee. :D Zara has bought like three new DVDs in the past two weeks so we’ve had a Zuka night two Saturdays in a row. Pari no Sora Yori mo Takaku was great of course, but nothing can beat what we watched yesterday. Roget/Rock on! is something that I must buy immediately, sorry Zuka shopping list! I’ve fallen in love. I’ve found my post-Mizu favourite takarasienne. I’m over the moon, about to faint, feeling anxious when I wake up all because of one Sagiri Seina. New obsession, here I come!

(Image from here.) This girl… My Gackt, why do I always forget how to breathe when she pops up from somewhere? *_____*

She’s just… Whoah. You really should see her in action, she’s too cool. Or too hot to handle. I can’t decide which would be the best way to describe her. Hot like ice? (Yes, her character is the bad guy. Why do I always fall for the bad guys? Tooto, Aosetona, vampires in general…) Her acting somehow reminds me of Gackt, and her voice… To die for. I heard her voice in Russian Blue for the first time and fell for it right away. Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, I’m moving on now to save the last bit of sense I have in me.

(Got to say just one more thing related to this… My dad randomly decided to up our (mine & my sister’s) monthly allowance by 25 €. YAYYYY! Now I can almost afford the DVD with the handling and postage fees… …Ohmigackt, this is not good for my sanity…)

…Just one more and I promise to stop spamming.

(Source.) Is she cool or what? *q* *dances away to find a bucket*

~♥~

I’ve had a massive skin problem for a month now. I don’t want to go into too much detail here, so I’ll just say that the skin on my face was so dry I was afraid it would come off altogether and I had a nasty rash on my neck and even armpits.  I went to see a doctor on Wednesday and got four different creams with which to start healing my skin. The most healing cream worked like magic and my skin was back to normal in three days. Now I’m just mad at myself for not seeing a doctor sooner. -.-

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Next subject: mood swings! I’ve about had it. Last week I was feeling under the weather because of my skin. Yesterday I was angsting big time, probably due to lack of Chigi sleep. Today has been a massive rollercoaster. I think I’ve regained some of my appetite after two days of not feeling like eating much. (And here I thought it was impossible for me to lose my appetite.) I haven’t exactly cried (got enough of that yesterday) but I’ve been down. But I’ve also been high with a texting war about Zuka meets Star Wars with Zara and finding Roget/Rock on! online. And the best of all? I started jumping up and down with joy when I got my hair crisis (yes, it’s always there) under control.

(A bad webcam photo is bad.) This isn’t inspired by Chigi’s cheek bones. It’s a bit difficult to see in the photo (Why do I feel like I’ve written something like that before?) but my hair actually looks quite nice! A bit like Kathryn Morris’ in Cold Case. Well, I always thought I liked her hair and that it would probably suit me too. Well, it does! And guess what? I may have found a perfect cut, if I ever decide to get rid of these locks. Buh-bye hair! …Or not. :3 We’ll see…

~♥~

Now, I absolutely must watch more Chigi call it a night. Only two hours of school tomorrow and then I’ll be off to do some depression shopping. A blazer, a frilly dress shirt, a hat, a mini skirt… Dum-de-dum, I’ve got a list of new clothes I want. :3 If I can find any that suit me and my taste, that is…

Until next time, dearies~! ♥

At the risk of sounding like a broken record…

Guess what’s back in full force? Zuka. Freaking. Fandom. :D Must apologize to all of you who aren’t all that interested to read about the same crazy fandom over and over again, but I just can’t keep this to myself (as you might have noticed during this past year).

I told you about Zara buying me some Zuka stuff torturing me with her hype being in Japan in my last post. Well, guess what? She’s back in Finland now and I, being the greedy little thing the most enthusiastic Zuka fan I am, managed to convince her to come at my place to have a Takarazuka sleepover. 8) We would have been watching her Zuka DVDs all day yesterday, but I had a theory lesson, which almost ruined our plans. Luckily we got this sleepover idea and managed to watch a few things in the evening.

Our Zuka night started with Zara showing me all the things she had bought for herself and me taking my sweet time browsing through everything. (My mind seems to be trying to cope with Takarazuka overdose by concentrating on every single kanji and random add I happen to see. :'3) I had to remind myself to breathe before she got my souvenirs out of her bag.

My new treasures. *-* Two advertisement papers and a Sabrina/Exiter! flyer on the top left corner. I could easily spend a few hours just examining those. Then, a Takarazuka GRAPH magazine from August 2009 on the top right, Matobu Sei on the cover, lots of 2009 Elizabeth-related things and photos from AQUA5’s concert inside, among other things. And then there’s the poster. Of Mizu. And of Yumiko. In the same poster. On the opposite sides of it. WTF Takarazuka, trying to make me nuts? You wouldn’t give me the chance to have both their pictures on my wall at the same time? Figures. On lower right, a photo of Mizu. *-* My first comment, while still having a total brain lag, was ‘Mizu is not amused’. Mizu’s über cool though, so I obviously love the photo. And finally, what’s that thing next to the photo? A DVD? For me? Ah yes, it is the love. La Rose de Versailles (Berubara amongst friends), Mizu as Oscar digest. ♥________♥ Heaven. And a very bling heaven at that.

On with the schedule of our sleepover. We watched my Berubara DVD first and then continued with Rio de Bravo, which turned out to be a huge success. So much bling and feathers that you’ve got to lol hard, but also a very cool and sexy Mizu stealing a piece of jewellery and putting a female officer in handcuffs. 8D Over-the-top costumes, sexy dancing, coolness and a touch of comedy. If I didn’t know better, I’d say that life doesn’t get any better than that.

Well, as we had begun our Zuka marathon a bit late, we had to call it a night after Rio. The next morning I woke up at around eight, with Zara telling me that she’d been awake since 5:30. :___________D Well, waking up early gave us more time to watch the rest of the DVDs and so our marathon continued with Russian Blue. That one was a comedy, ultimately cute and a pain to keep up with with our Japanese skills. The wizards at the beginning got us really confused and a musical-loving Stalin was just hilarious. And Mizu’s smiles… I don’t even need to go there, do I? *____* We did a 180 with the last remaining DVD (we didn’t have time for Zara’s Yuuhi Oozora Berubara), which was tragically beautiful Romeo to Julietto ‘99. Full of emotion, Mizu-scale. So much cuteness. Yumiko, drunk with bits of green in her hair, dying way too early. Touching, perfect. ;__;♥

And having wathced all those shows, I ended up just craving for more. :'3 Yes, that’s right, I now feel like buying every single DVD I can afford (which isn’t all that many at the time being). The bling and the awesomeness is just so catchy that I’d love to have a Zuka sleepover every night from now on. 8) I need to buy, for example 「水夏希～Energy～新人公演ダイジェスト」 maybe at the very beginning of next month. Me & My Girl with Mizu playing the main role. Tango Argentino, same thing. *_________* Lovelovelove! And, luckily only near December, 2010 MIZU Natsuki Takarazuka Sky Stage DVD-BOX『MIZU』, 750 minutes (that’s 12 and a half hours, you guys) of Mizu. *brain explosion* The prices? 10,500 yen (~95€) for the first one and 16,800 yen (~152€) fo the second. And that’s without the shipping service fees. *head-desk* I’m going to die poor and happy, with a fortune in Takarazuka DVDs (…and manga, but let’s not go into that now, shall we?). :3

~♥~

That was it about Zuka for now. I’m going to my godparents’ summer house tomorrow and thus I’ll be away from the computer for the weekend. But before I go, I’ll have to fill you in on my last week.

First of all, I had an entrance exam on Wednesday morning. It didn’t go all that great, and I’ll still have to wait until next week or so before I’ll know for sure whether I got in or not. >.<''

After the exam, me and my little sister flew to Denmark to see Kat. We had an awesome time there, buying my sister a ball gown, eating sushi, driving to BonBon-Land (I went to the second-craziest ride of my life, Sven Svingarm, twice with Kat), having a crayfish party, drinking a few more than usual (for me, at least) and watching too much Disney Channel. :'D Ah, life’s good.

Credits to my sister. The crazy awesome BonBon-Land rides. :D

I really need to sleep. *goes to watch some Berubara*

Guess who’s got this on DVD? *-* (Why am I totally amazed by Mizu in drag obsessed with Wataru in this?)

Until next time, dears~! ♥

Ways to prevent brain death

The title is inspired by my overflowing fangirlism for everything that happens to cross my way. If you are a fandom magnet like me, I strongly suggest staying away from the computer, or at least limit the time per week (or per day) that you can spend in the net. But more about my mental problems later. I’ll do this chronologically.

~♥~

Let’s start with my Finland mini-rail I did last week with my friend Pia (who is clearly my senior, born one day before me). Just to annoy the life out of my readers, I managed to take the grand amount of zero photos during our five-day trip around Finland. Isn’t that just great? :D No need to worry though, I have got a few photos to show you anyway.

Our trip started with a two and a half-hours long travel by train from Helsinki to Mikkeli. We stayed at Pia’s father’s parent’s summer house (I probably could have put that in other words, but my English is completely failing me. Ah, this is going to be lovely.) for the first night, continuing through Pieksämäki to Jyväskylä in the morning. The Finnish summer was showing its best during the whole trip, so we were pretty much dead tired throughout the days, as the temperature kept staying above 30 Celsius degrees. Jyväskylä was an okay place, but as it is a student town and we were there in June, it was pretty quiet everywhere in the evening. We did buy a couple of drinks in the evening, though. ;)

From Jyväskylä we headed towards Tampere, where we stayed for two nights. Tampere was a positive experience, even though the restaurants closed down pretty early, at 11 p.m. usually. We had reserved a whole day for visiting the Särkänniemi amusement park, which turned out to be a good decision. Here’s the wristband/ticket to the park:

We really took everything… Mitä hiivattia on koko rahan edestä englanniksi?! Kohta luovutan! Ahem, sorry about that, my English is SERIOUSLY failing me. Must be the fandom… How could I say this simply… We went to Särkänniemi just before noon when it opened for the day and stayed there until 7 p.m. when it closed. Money well spent. :D

After Tampere we headed for Rauma, where we were going to see Semmarit (a.k.a. Seminaarinmäen mieslaulajat), a Finnish a cappella group. Pia is a big fan of theirs and she really got me into it, too. (Act surprised, everyone! xD) We actually saw them from the first row, can you believe it? Pia was over the moon for just that. But this isn’t where our good luck ended. After the gig, we headed to a restaurant to get some dessert and a drink or two. After we had finished eating, it just so happens that two Semmari singers came to sit in our table! We ended up heading to a small bar with them and spending the rest of the night chatting with various members of the group. We only headed to our hotel at 1:30 a.m., tired but tremendously happy.

The next day was our last, and we headed for Turku to see Pia’s other grandparents. I took a train back home, but Pia stayed for the night to see Semmarit again.

~♥~

Okay, that was our mini-rail in a nutshell. In a very small nutshell on my scale, I might add. ^^ Now, on to everyone’s favourite part, photos!

I bought these two rings at a flea market in Mikkeli.

When I got back home, these babies were waiting for me. *-* I bought GACKT’s new single collection from CDJapan and apparently the first press edition came with an awesome plastic pocket. 8D Now I feel like collecting all my fan stuff in one place, take lots of photos and do a huge blog post of fandom. Luckily I’ll be away from the computer for the next five days so you won’t have to suffer from my stupid ideas. x3

I felt like taking photos the other day…

And the results are crappy, as always. (Check my vampire blog for more nightly photos. ^__~)

~♥~

And then on to the problems of my mind… I can’t get over my fandoms for the time being. GACKT. Semmarit. Takara-freaking-zuka (is that the way I’m supposed to put it? :'D).

Zara is in Japan at the moment and that evil little thing (whom I tremendously love) is talking to me via MSN, telling about how she went to see a hanagumi show today. *______* I’m having a Zuka high just for listening to her (...reading what she’s writing…) and she, being the angel she is, has bought me a Zuka DVD, a magazine and who knows what for who knows how many yen. ;______;♥ I’ll be in eternal gratitude for her. If I won’t die of a heart attac when she gets back in Finland, that is. Well, I’ll be a gratefull dead person in that case. :D

…I’ve had such good luck with gigs this year, maybe I’ll win a trip to Japan to see Mizu’s last performance in Takarazuka?

~♥~

Well, I’m off to Denmark tomorrow, after having my last entrance exam, so I’ll see you all again next week. I’ll finally be continuing with my driving lessons, something I’m not all that excited about. D: And since I couldn’t make it last weekend, I’ll be going to my godparents’ summer house on the 13th. (Friday the 13th, by the way. O.O)

Until next time, honeys~! Let’s hope that my next post is going to be a less-failing one…

The impossible is happening

I’m sorry if this post gets really random or over the top, because…

*DUM-DE-DUUUUUUUUM*

GACKT is coming to Europe! For real! Gaaaaah, I can’t get over this fact! And as I am a legal adult, it would technically be possible for me to go see his gig in Germany, for example. *_________* The problem is that he’s going to be playing in some relatively small clubs and thus the tickets are very limited… And I seriously don’t know who would go to, say Munich with me just to see GACKT’s gig… Plus I’d have to get a job to get the money, in case my friends and family aren’t too pleased with me spending my graduation present money all at once… But waaaaaah, I really want to go! I’ll have to get the tickets… *___* ♥ (Not that I wouldn’t be seeing my two favourite Japanese bands this year anyways…)

I’ve seen many Finnish people complaining in the net how unfair it is that GACKT’s not coming to Finland or even to Sweden or Russia, but I guess I’ll get to that when I’ve failed in getting the tickets to his concert in Germany. …Or the UK? I’m planning away here, without even discussing this over with my parents… I hope they won’t be totally against the idea. :3

…

Ahem, I was going to write about other things than GACKT too. (Man, it’s a pain to spell his name on capital letters every time…)

Um, so I’m obviously supposed to be studyin- erm, sewing right now, but instead I’m updating my blog! It really wouldn’t take too long to finish my graduation outfit, a couple of seams and a little something for the upper half, plus the underskirt… Which brings us to the topic of the day, my shopping trip to Helsinki with Zara from yesterday. (Is it just me or am I failing in English? Too long a break in blogging, plus a bad state of mind…) First, my outfit (sorry for the crappy mirror photo, as always. ^^)

(Why do mirrors always make me look wide? :'D And sorry for that vacuum cleaner. xD) Sooooo… I’m actually wearing my mom’s old pen skirt, which fits me better than the one I bought myself. o.O And you can also see my new pumps I bought for the graduation. They are redder than that in real life.

Other than the shoes, I was looking for a zipper for my graduation dress. I bought one that was slightly too long, but I guess I’ll manage… :'3 I also finally remembered my 40€ gift card to Tokyokan, so I got to shop for some Japanese goods.

Gothic&Lolita Bible, from 2004. Featuring Kamijo~ (Only two pages. ;_;)

Chocolate & strawberry pockies :D The Hello Kitty –ones were actually pretty good. I also bought a new pair of chopsticks and a hashioki, but I didn’t take a photo of them. ^^'

Well, next up are my new love, Promarkers! I just got six new ones from the mail. :'3 No need to wonder if I start complaining about being poor. x3

Here they are, with three Neopikos. :3

And here are my current nails, a simple and slightly failed French mani. My nails seem quite long… Should I cut them already?

I was also going to write about my resurfacing Takarazuka-fandom, which I should keep in the back of my mind for health reasons, but then the GACKT news blew that thought away. ^^' I watched Elisabeth for the six hundredth time (just slightly exaggerating) last Thursday and both Mizu Natsuki and Zuka overall have been occupying my mind ever since. I also listened it over once and yesterday I started trying to write out the script in Japanese. Otaku hobbies ♥

… And now I notice that I’ve promised to do a post about nails and how to repair them if they start to chip etc. ò.Ô Well, keep your hopes up, I’ve got it coming (some day)! :'3

♥Hetha♥

A kiss while your lips are still red

Hiya all! I’m supposed to be sleeping but instead I’m just sitting here staring at my screen so thought I’d quickly update my blog. :3

My week has been… confusing, to say the least. I got my swine flu vaccination on Tuesday and thus was sick on Wednesday. My arm was terribly sore up until yesterday and I was in a bad mood. I even skipped my morning lessons on Friday just because I felt depressed. And today I’ve been hyper. :''D It’s the rollercoaster of emotions again.

But now to the point! I thought I’d post a random image of my face since I haven’t posted any of those in a while. x3 Here we go, a random lipstick experiment:

Sorry for the crappy quality! :'D The length of a day is less than six hours at this time of the year so I really haven’t had much of a chance to take photos with natural light. Crappy photo is crappy. Oh well, at least you got to see my face. :'D

Aaaaaand here’s my main reason for doing this post:

I did my nails today! ^^ I actually wanted to do something vampire-inspired but instead ended up with these Christmas-y nails. :'3 Used Lumene’s Dancing Waves and O.P.I I’m Not Really A Waitress plus Mavala’s base coat. And I’ve run out of top coat so none was used. :__D (Dunno why I just got Gackt- ahem, sorry, GACKT’s Arittake no ai de on my mind… I want to wrap you in my love or something like that… I wrapped my nails in love? o.O Maybe they represent love… Ok, wtf am I rambling about? xD)

On with the show! I finally got a proper mirror in my room! here’s another crappy photo:

Ta-dah! xD How did my face dissapear in the light so conveniently? xD And the photo is so straight that I could cry… :__D

I just had to draw this up quickly on the other day. :__D Describes perfectly how I look while watching Mizu videos. x3 Concentration: 100% (can’t say the same about the drawing process…)

Hmm was that all? :__D I really don’t know but it’s time for me to sleep. I’ll end this post with a quote of what someone wise once said:

The past is history, the future is a mystery, and this moment is a gift. That is why 'this moment' is called 'the present'.

Busted

The shortest blog title yet, yay!

Ehehee, my parents found out about the DVD… :___D Luckily I didn’t get yelled at (as of yet, that is) but mom seemed to be disappointed… I hate disappointing my parents but sometimes it just can’t be avoided. But dad disappointed me first, so I’d say we’re even now. :3 Mom’s reaction kind of made me feel bad, otherwise yesterday would have been about perfect. Thanks for a great Mizu-filled afternoon/evening Zara! <3 *-*

I did a little depression shopping on Monday. ^^'' I went to Sello (yeah, I really think that I’m turning into a masochist) in search of a new winter coat. After going through about three shops I gave up and went to look for a new pair of boots. I finally managed to find ones that fit and pleased my eyes. Here they are:

I’m usually not too fond of wrinkled things but these boots are tight enough, so I don’t mind. (Plus AQUA5, k-pop etc. have messed my mind so bad that I won’t be surprised when I find myself liking all kinds of things I couldn’t stand before…) I bought these from DinSko so I’m not expecting them to stay in good shape for too long… I had to spend some 60€ on these only. T-T My bank account is getting emptier by the minute.

I remembered that I needed a new foundation and ended up buying a new nail polish, a white eyeliner and a very thin brush for doing nail art. These were 27,80€ in total. From a local market, nothing too special but good enough for me. ^^

And here’s what I bought today! I went to buy a CD for my dad (we’re celebrating Father’s Day tomorrow here in Finland) and ended up buying this new CD Strike by The Baseballs. I’ve been listening this for basically the whole evening and I am so in love! Rock on rockabilly~ I guess it isn’t a surprise that my love for the 50’s doesn’t limit to clothes, hair and cars but extends to music as well. *-*

And here are my über awesome Tooto-inspired nails. Made by Heta the five-year-old. >.<'' Used my black-ish Nivea nail polish (that I haven’t showed you here yet o.O'') as the base and then a weird grayish GOSH polish to make the silvery parts (oh my Gackt how my English is failing me… T-T) and when I got the new silver nail polish and the small brush I painted the thin silver lines to separate the black and grey. At first I didn’t like these nails at all and just wanted to paint my nails red but then I kind of started to like these after all. (I’m going to start crying soon if my sentences don’t get any better than this. Brain=empty.)

Um, well, since my brain seems to be pretty dead already I could show you a video that completely threw me out of balance the other day. I was at school having a free period and decided to check if there were any new Mizu videos on YouTube. Well, there was this one particular DVD commercial that almost made me cry right there.

OMG. *__________* Seriously, Mizu is too hot and she certainly makes me do evil things to my wallet. God I want that DVD. My soul cries blood. I’m so glad that I’ll be 18 when it’s released, makes buying it easier… It’s scary how Mizu has become such a necessity for me. “Not a want but a need” as they sing in High School Musical… XD Mizu Natsuki is the hottest drug ever. (The DVD on TCA website)

Ahem, how did I end up hyperventilating again? It seems like I can’t make one Mizu-less post anymore… Someone needs to pull me back from clouds. “Earth to Heta, Earth to Heta-” “I’m sorry Sir but I think we have lost the contact. She seems to be out of range already- Ah, wait! I just got a message that she passed Pluto a couple of minutes ago. I’m afraid there’s nothing more we can do for her, poor soul.” :___D Some NASA people are having conversations in my head. XD

Oh yeah, I almost forgot! I got a memory stick full of pics of all kinds of historical & vintage dresses and clothes and thus I’m full of ideas for new sewing projects! (As if I didn’t already have enough of those… >.<'') I hope that I’ll manage to get something done tomorrow…

Total brain lag again, better end this here before things get any more random and messy than they already are. See you later! I’m waiting for your comments, as always~

I’ve died and gone to Heaven

…or maybe this is Yomi no sekai (land of the dead in Takarazuka’s Elisabeth).

Warning! This post is full of completely brainless Takarazuka/Elisabeth/Tooto/Mizu Natsuki fandom. No need to read if this irritates you. Otherwise have fun reading about how my brain decided to melt and pour out through my ears.

I tried to write about this calmly, but it simply doesn't seem to be possible. Sorry~

ADFHJSAGHDFAS!!! I finally got ‘em! Both of ‘em! *_________________________* On Thursday morning around 9:35 o’clock I came from my mother tongue class to find Ida, Zara and a couple of other Mursus (=people I hang around with at school… mursu = walrus… Don’t ask! XD) hanging around in our school’s so-called net café. I noticed a small plastic bag in Ida’s handbag but ignored it thinking that I couldn’t be so lucky as to finally get my Elisabeth CD. I sat there chatting with people when I suddenly noticed Ida and Zara whispering something to each other and instantly thought that there was something going on. Then Ida pulled out the plastic bag and I almost screamed out loud. Not only did I get the Elisabeth CD I was waiting for but there was the DVD also! *_________________* I just couldn’t believe my luck, those evil people (xD) at the German musical store had told Ida that they would be getting more DVDs in 8-12 weeks and yet there it was with the CD. Needless to say I spent the rest of the day hyperventilating and guarding my bag as if my life depended on it. And now I know that these people who dare to call themselves my friends are actually sadists who are trying to kill me by doing everything they can to cause me a heart attack. XD Not really, I love these people! <3 I hope they all had fun watching me completely lose my mind.

Okay, on with the good stuff! Here be a couple of photos of my precious:

Shiny objects are shiny and hard to photograph. :__D Sorry for the small size but I think that a) our dear Takarazuka would prefer it that way and b) Mizu-Tooto’s hotness would completely melt your brains too if the photos were any bigger than they are now. :3 Here comes the basic description of what I got (from left to right ^^): Takarazuka Elisabeth (2007 Snow Troupe version) double DVD w/ a beautiful shiny booklet and a lovely ‘How to use this DVD’ card with Mizu on it (goin to my wall somewhere near the Russian Blue/Rio de Bravo flyer I got from Ryu <3) and Takarazuka Elisabeth (2007 Snow Troupe version) double CD w/ a lovely shiny booklet. *3* Both the CD and the DVD include the full musical with final numbers and everything plus the DVD includes a bonus track of the musical’s rehearsals and the possibility to watch some scenes from a different angle (concentrating on one of the actresses). Lots of Mizu angles. *3* No, I won’t admit anything! Especially nothing concerning Mizu practicing Yami ga hirogaru otokoyaku dance number in a blouse and tight pants… Those hips… *dies at the thought*

Ehm, where was I? Did I have something more to add? I just managed to empty my brain again (or what’s left of it anyway). :''D This isn’t good for my concentration at school… Just when I thought I was getting better at maths again… Obsessions are so dangerous. Oh, I can’t wait to get some people to come over to my house to watch Elisabeth and drool all over the living room’s floor~. (Next Friday, Zara! *3* <3) I’m doing my best to get everyone around me addicted to this. :''D Maybe this post’s title should have been ‘Back to square one’ or something, because I’m kind of doing the exact same thing I did last June. Back then I managed to get Zara hooked *mischievous laughter* *hugs Zara* and now I’ve pretty much won Ani over, too (wasn’t all that hard with Tooto being a bit vampire-like character with a powerful voice). :3 Taitti and Niina are goin down soon, too, I’m sure of that. People who already love these mysterious beautiful characters, long silver hair and cool costumes won’t be hard to convince. >:3 Boo-hoo, now I feel like a horrible, selfish person. T-T And I also feel that I’m writing something totally random and unnecessary… Okay, before moving on I’ll just thank Siru for posting Ryu’s and Ayu’s Tooto/Elisabeth/Rudolf cosplays and a few Elisabeth videos which got me addicted. :3 And thanks Ryu and Ayu for amazing costumes!

Gah, I just realized that I was supposed to get to the point when I started that previous paragraph. :____D FAIL. Okay, now, what’s rockin’ my world besides der Tod? I’d like to do Tooto nails right now. (Lol, failed at changing the subject. XD) I need some silver & glittery nail polish. And I’ve got *ahem* a couple of inspirations. :''D I know your just dying to get a list, so here goes:

1. Sewing: a victorian dress, a corset, a dress shirt… Was that all? Ah, one more; a black vest (pinstripe?)

2. Knitting: a white beanie or a beret

3. Jewelry: cameo jewelry, some silver rings made of silver wire and some beads etc.

4. Decorative stuff: nail decorations, cellphone charms (like cupcakes etc.)…

5. That gothic manor dollhouse!

It certainly seems like I’ve got a lot of projects… Mom hates me for never finishing anything… ;__; (Being addicted to Facebook games & Gaia Online’s halloween event doesn’t really help. x3)

Wow, now I’m exhausted! I guess it’d be best if I just finished here… Sorry for all the fandom, craziness and overall randomness. Thumbs up for those who actually got around to reading the whole thing. ^3^ Lots of love & kisses to you all!

Oh, and Happy Halloween by the way! :3

Fail

I meant to update my dear blog earlier today but instead I ended up watching Mizu videos again… :''D That’s because I bought a pair of new jeans last Monday and I wanted to take some photos of them to show to you. And now I’m a bit depressed because I look so ridiculous compared to Mizu-san. ;__; (Not a huge surprise now, is it? :''D)

Okay, first of all I’ve got no idea of how I managed to get that strap of hair there in the first photo. :''D I’m sorry for the crappy quality again, I’m still working on my photographing skills. ^^ Wonder why I never take any photos when it’s not too dark… Anyways, I finally managed to buy a pair of new jeans! Now that’s something to celebrate, last time I bought new jeans was on… 8th grade or something? I can’t even remember. :''D (I’m totally overusing that smile btw… >.<'') I was in Helsinki with Zara last Monday and I told her I needed new jeans. I even said as a joke that insted of buying something for about 60-70€ I’d end up finding a perfect fit for 150€. Why is it that I never know when to shut up? I went to Sello afterwards and decided to go and check the JC store there. A kind shop assistant brought about seven pairs of jeans for me to try on and I must say I was getting a bit desperate when none of them fit well enough. Then I tried on what was to become the last pair and ta-dah, a perfect fit! The price? 139€ ;___; I ended up using double the amount of money I had reserved for the new jeans. Now I won’t be able to buy new shoes… Or a new winter jacket… T-T

My Gackt fandom has suffered slightly from my addiction to Takarazuka and Mizu (like almost all of my other fandoms) and I haven’t really been listening to Gackt’s music in a long time. Today I randomly started to listen to Crescent and oh my Gackt did I even remember why I love that CD so much. Mind forest & 君が待っているから. *_________* Please mister Gackt, release a new CD already! I’m getting slightly bored here, reading about all the new singles. A full album is what I need! (Oh, and I’ve spelled his name wrong here. In celebration of his 10 years as a solo artist he has decided to change his name slightly. From now on he is GACKT. Apparently he thinks that bigger artists need to spell their names with capital letters… :___D

Ehm, let’s get back to my Takarazuka/Mizu Natsuki/otokoyaku fandom. Why do I like this page of style-arena.jp/Tokyo New Tribe? *3* Waitresses dressed as men… … … My brain just died. Can’t think about anything clever to say about this… … Yep, all blank, sorry. ^^'' Let’s just say that I think that’s a great idea. I’ll definitely have to visit that place someday.

Apart from my identity crisis, my brain has been full of all kinds of ideas of what I could do. Everything from writing, drawing and sewing to decorating my phone and nails and making new jewelry. My latest inspiration is to make a gothic dollhouse. I’m not kidding, I’d really like to have a little vampire mansion in my room. A miniature version of my dream house. *3* I could make things by myself and buy some furniture… And it could have electricity too! Okay, I already have a dollhouse in my room, but that’s something my dad has made for me and my little sister when we were little and it kind of represents our house, so I can’t really turn it into a gothic manor… So I want to make a new one. This sounds like another one of those projects that I am very eager to start but never end up finishing. :''D But it would be cool~.

Hehe, I’ve been ranting quite much already but I’ve got to add just one more thing… My Elisabeth DVD + CD have been ordered! *__________* I just can’t wait to get them in my hands! I wish they’ll be in my friend’s mailbox before the autumn holiday… I already told my parents that I’ll have a movie night with Zara at some point so they won’t be too surprised when I tell them that I’ll reserve the living room for the night. And I learned that dad has ordered us a new stereo system. I can already feel the chills running down my spine when Mizu-Tooto starts to sing. *_________* … … … Now my brain died again at the thought. Well, I guess that was all anyways. See you later! ^^

Mizu stole my spare time

…Yeah, I’m still seriously obsessed and there’s no sign of change in that on the horizon. It just gets stronger and stronger every day. Yes, I had big plans of how I would read to the upcoming matriculation exams every day throughout the summer but then along came Mizu and all the plans flew out the window. ^^’’ It seriously worries me… Last semester my school work was practically ruined by yaoi and this semester seems to fall into pieces before it has even started, all because of the perfect Mizu Natsuki. And my wallet/bank account is feeling the pain, too. 200,90€ for a DVD and a CD and I couldn’t be more eager to get rid of the money right now! But I’m trying to do my best to not upset my parents, so I’ve got to do it the hard way. I’ll have dad buy me AQUA5’s CD from CDJapan with Versailles’ single ASCENDEAD MASTER as soon as he’s willing to do it though. One CD per month is the best Christmas present of mine these days, I just wish it would apply to DVDs that cost over 100€ and CDs that cost 64,95€… Well, life isn’t life without a few hardships, right? My guess is that someone’s trying to make me study instead of watching Elisabeth and thus making it basically impossible for me to get the DVD before the exams. It isn’t working very well though; that someone hasn’t taken YouTube into account.

Hmm, considering the length of the first paragraph I’m writing another novel here. ^^’’

I actually had something to tell and show you other than just my Mizu fandom. I’ve been an unusually active shopper last week; I went to Sello on Wednesday to buy that scarf and belt (and a new bra, but I’m not posting photos of that :''D (I’m easily influenced, so now I’ve got myself addicted to using that :'''D smile all the time. Got that habit from Zara. ^^ I’m sorry for always copying my friends instead of coming up with something of my own. ;__;)), on Thursday I went to Helsinki with Zara and on Friday I went there again with Taitti and Niina. I didn’t buy anything yesterday, thank God for that.

So now let's go back a few days, to Thursday. In Helsinki with Zara. I had decided not to buy anything because I’m saving money for something. Well, surprise surprise, I totally failed on that. We were supposed to meet in Kamppi at 12 o’clock but I arrived about twenty minutes early and decided to go walk around a bit and maybe do some window shopping. As it happens, before Zara had even arrived at Kamppi I had already spent 90€ on a HerStyler. >_____>''

It’s pink! It’s really easy to use and I can both straighten my hair and create pretty curls. *Advertisement* Money well spent but why do I always have to buy something that costs a lot when I’m saving money for something even more expensive? >.<'' It’s a mystery.

I also bought Matenrou Opera’s new CD ANOMIE from Keltainen jäänsärkijä. I felt pretty good about that, since dad’s going to pay me back for it. ^^

Here’s my j-rock collection at the moment. ^^ I’m planning on buying more in the near future, as I’ve already mentioned.

I had a private photo shoot (why won’t I ever learn how to spell that? >.<) on Friday because I felt pretty. I straightened my hair in the morning obviously and got a bit of clothing inspiration from Mizu. ^^’’ Yesterday I didn’t feel pretty at all though, because I felt (and still feel) slightly sick and didn’t bother with a shower because I was going to sauna in the evening anyway. (I really hope that I haven’t got the swine flu… Don’t think so, anyway. Everyone just has to half-heartedly remind me of the possibility.)

Ermm… Where did all the good photos go? o.O Now I’m depressed 'cause I can’t be as beautiful as Mizu. –.-'' I tried to do Mizu’s pointed finger thing but I failed so bad I can’t show those photos to anyone. ^^’’ If you don’t know what I’m talking about:

Ittemiyo! *__________* Notice the most awesome Tooto-nails too. (Watch in YouTube for HQ)

Uwaah, this is the handiest thing! I’m posting with Windows Live Writer and all I need to do is paste the URL among the text and this thing automatically adds it as a video. *w*

Erm, back to subject… What was the subject again? My brain just poured out from my ear so it’s a bit hard to concentrate.

Well, maybe I’ve already said everything I meant to say… Maybe I could add that the combination of Mizu, Zara and Messenger has completely ruined my sleeping pattern. Today I will shut the computer at eleven p.m. at the very latest. It’s a promise. I’ve got to keep it.

P.S. I forgot to mention... I got a new conditioner with the HerStyler. It's like a mask so I can use it only once a week and it smells wonderful! *u* It's also quite effective compared to my other conditioners... Now I keep sniffing my hair every once in a while. x)

In my darkest hours I could not foresee

...That the tide could turn so fast to this degree (Within Temptation – Our Solemn hour)

Rest in peace Jasmine You, you’ll be missed and loved forever.

I’ll try my hardest to make this a happy post. Even when in mourning, we need to seek happiness in small things in life.

Jag skulle skriva på svenska men jag vill inte. >.<’’ It would be good to practice Swedish by writing but I’m too lazy. And I guess that some people wouldn’t really appreciate it if I suddenly wrote a whole post in Swedish.

I have so many photos and things to write about! We were at my grandparents’ summer house again for the weekend, with my little sister this time. We swam a lot because the weather was great. Mum says that I’ve tanned noticeably, even though I still look pale by most standards. And here comes the photo spam:

The awesome summer house (the house itself and the sauna). The border of the lake is to the right, about ten meters from the sauna. I know, I suck at taking photos…

Sunset on Friday evening. The girl in the photo is my godparents’ daughter; I hope she doesn’t mind that I only censored her face… I just didn’t want to ruin the photo. :3

Lol, me. x) My hand looks amputated… And I tried Yulia Tymoshenko-styled braids… can’t see it that well in the photo though. :’3

We saw this awesome swallowtail caterpillar. It was about 10 cm long. ^^

Me and Stella walking down towards the sauna.

We were fishing. :''D Looks like I’m about to fall to the lake…

(Random comment: LOST SCENE *___* dum-dum-dum)

I went to Sello today… Oh no, I don’t want to start the Mizu-fandom at this hour… >___>'' But yeah, I suddenly got obsessed with belts and long scarves. :3

Sorry for the bad quality… Awesome pose, don’t you think? x) I had to practice otoko no winku a few times. :'''D I bought that white scarf and the belt that you can’t see well in the photo. I need more money~! Now I’m a bit afraid… What will happen to my aristocratic vampirism if this goes on? >___>'' How long will it take until I’m listening to AQUA5 24/7?

…I romanized Maladie/Saigo no Chansu yesterday. It’s freaking love, that whole scene of the musical. ♥______♥

Gah, I’ve been writing to my Galleriapäiväkirja way too much, I’ve ran out of inspiration in regards to my blogs. D: Hmm… I have a few photos of my hair in the past… Maybe I’ll do some kind of a hair post some day?

Oh, almost forgot!

Nails of the day. ^^ My mom’s old nail polish, best before 08/2006. :'''''D

We got this new chair on our balcony. ^^ And…

I bought a new backpack. Just in case I have to carry a crapload of books to school some day…

Now, maybe I’ll finally draw the patterns to my shirt… If I don’t end up watching Mizu videos for the whole night again, that is. >.<''