Yup, still alive

…And randomly updating my blog because HI.

Excuses first. I haven’t been updating this blog because my attention has been focused elsewhere. Like school. I did five weeks of on-the-job training in November-December. Stressful but fun. Then we had this amazingly life-consuming course during which I made a graduation dress for my sister. PAINFULL. We started a new course this week… But I won’t talk about it yet.

Because.

(7doors.jp)GUYS. I’M SEEING MIZU NATSUKI LIVE. Is this even real? *___________*

Also.

(sanspo.com) CHIGI.

Yup, you read it right; Japan Trip 2012 is happening April 2.-15.! Osaka calling~ I’m going with my ‘Zuka sis Zara. :3 We’re going to see Mizu’s 7 Doors musical play and lots of ‘Zuka, obviously. Yukigumi’s Don Carlos/Shining Rhythm and Soragumi’s Brilliant Days/Climax. MIZU. CHIGI.

Dad pays. Yes. But I don’t feel too bad about it, since I got the flights as a birthday present and money for other things /hi dad, I’m sure you didn’t mean xxx amount of theatre tickets and other ‘Zuka stuff) as a Christmas present. And because it’s around Easter holidays I’m going to miss only 5 days of school. No regrets. ♥

Also hi, I have trench coats (but I want a new one):

Yup, bad face day. The one on the right is from… 2004 or something? And the left is the one I’ve been wearing since buying it in 2007-ish. I think I like the black one more. o.O The silhouette suits me better and the length…

Okay that’s all for now. Thank you all for bering with me! ♥

Desperate attempt at bringing this blog back to life

Hello again my dear readers! I can’t believe it’s been three months since the last time I’ve posted anything here!

So let’s see what’s been going on in my life for these past months. My summer went relatively well, although I managed to spend most of it online. My summer trip no. 2 was going to Pärnu, Estonia with my family. It was fun, except for a couple of  minor family crises that made me think we will never go on a family trip again. I don’t have many photos, as usual, but you’ll get to see what I bought (read: what dad bought for me) from there. :)

Oh God, possibly the worst photo ever and nobody even mention the pose. The point of this: the lace shorts and the heels. ♥

New nail polish no. 1 – OPI An Affair in Red Square ♥

New nail polish no. 2 – (the blue one) OPI DS Magic ♥

New shirt no. 1 and also the most recent photo of my lovely face. :'3

New shirt no. 2 featuring my kawaii face.

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Other real life news: My sister turned 18 in August and got her driver’s license and I’ve started driving to school. I’ve been to my grandparents’ cottage with my dad and uncle to pick mushrooms and I’ve seen a concert version of Jesus Christ Superstar in Lahti and the Finnish version of Tanz der Vampire (which was AMAZING and cost me way more than I would’ve liked) in Seinäjoki. School has been better again, but I’m supposed to start on-the-job training soon and it’s making my stress levels go up again. I’ve finally started taking ballet lessons and it’s one of the best decisions I’ve made in my life. Now I just need to stop being lazy on Thursdays and actually go to the classes every week. :'D

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Things that are rocking my world: internet with all the amazing people I’ve met (hi guys I love you ♥), and Takarazuka. I’ve written my first fan letters to my princess a.k.a. Sagiri Seina and bought the ultimate amazingness a.k.a. said princess’ Bow Hall show’s DVD. Nijinsky, you guys. Watch it. Now. ♥ Also, my dear Zara was in Japan so I had her buy me everything I could afford, namely these things:

♥___________♥ Everything is shiny and nothing hurts. Obviously Zara bought a lot of stuff for herself too, and we had the best 'Zuka sleepover this weekend. ♥ Yukigumi. ♥

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Dad installed Windows 7 on my computer last week and everything looks shiny now. We did three different backups of my old files and stuff but I still haven’t figured out how to get some things back the way they used to be. Like my Firefox bookmarks. ASDFASGDF. And I finally got the new Photoshop dad promised to buy me years ago. I actually got the Adobe Creative Suite 5.5 Design Premium and it’s so full of things I hardly know how to use it. A huge leap from my old Elements 2.0.

Okay, that’s enough of text for now. Hopefully I’ll get back to more regular updates soon! Until next time, lovelies. ♥

Tenshi no uta ga kikoeru

Hello dear followers! The Japanese post titles are back because Takarazuka revue is my life at the moment. *3*

So I helped Zara go crazy with her DVD order and had her buy a few things for me too while she was at it. So yesterday I got these:

OH HI THAR MY INTERESTING LIFE. I bought the Elisabeth II Mook and after quickly browsing it through I came to the conclusion that I was right in getting it. My life could never be complete without all the photos of Mizu!Tooto’s costumes. *q*

Buying Yukigumi R&J DVD was obligatory, of course. We watched it with Zara last night and it was A-MAZ-ING. HEAVENLY. My love for Yukigumi skyrocketed like nobody’s business while watching this and I thought I already loved them to pieces. Kimu and Mimi were fabulous, Kittybalt was sdfsdhf and Chigi!Mercutio I can’t even write anymore. *q* So I won’t. JUST WATCH IT, OKAY?

Umm and then there’s that book with someone called Ouki Kaname. I don’t know what that is. :| No really, I GOT TERU’S PERSONAL BOOK FROM ZARA. AS A PRESENT. WHAT IS THIS? I haven’t even paid for my stuff yet and she’s giving me the hottest presents. GHH you can have the regular version of Chigi’s book in exchange, okay? ♥

I also got this necklace from Tenerife. ZARA STOP GIVING ME PRESENTS ALREADY! I feel like such a bad friend because I never give anything to you. Or to anyone, for that matter. >.>''

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My sister was cleaning her closets and throwing away clothes she didn’t want anymore. I ended up taking most of them. ^^; Our styles differ quite much so I’m surprised I liked so many things. Here’s a photo of my “new” boyfriend jeans and T-shirt I liked particularly much:

I’ll call this my casual-semi-otokoyaku-like-look or something.

Ugh, I want my hair to grow so I can get a more otokoyaku-ish cut. :'D I think I might start really growing my hair out again soon… But we’ll see. I really liked the two previous cuts I had…

Hmm, I thought I had more to write about… But no-one’s interested in reading my rage over school, job applications or feeling under the weather for the past two weeks. So I’ll just give you this:

I’ve started to draw again! All thanks to Zuka. :'D Musumeyaku fan art with a heart in the background, what is this? Click the pic for what I wrote about it in dA. ^^

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I’ve added my Tweets to the sidebar, by the way. I’m so addicted to Twitter I think it’s making me ill. x3

Anyway, since my brain is so full of Zuka that I can’t even write I think I’ll continue drawing my Chigi/Kitarou drawing now… Or watch R&J again… :D

Until next time, dears~! ♥

P.S. Here’s what I’d like to do to my hair:

Lol possibly the worst photo manip ever, but you get the picture. RED HAIR. *___* Also my skin would probably look either dead pale or very red if I ever decided to dye my hair red… I’ll HAVE to buy a red wig for May Day to know for sure…

Nenepanic!

Unf, well hello there again. I have apparently tried to start a new blogpost last month when I got this baby in the mail:

It’s the Hoshigumi R&J! *__________* Oh baby, am I even in love. With Terubalt. And her… his? ass. :__D The title of this post comes from when I was watching this with Zara and we decided that Juliet’s anxiety attacs (there are a lot of those in this show) should be called Nenepanic, after the top musumeyaku Yumesaki Nene. Who, btw, is the ultimately cutest thing ever. ;3;
Other than RomiJuri, my life has been filled with internet, school, depression and *dumdedum* Chigi-chan! I kind of ordered two versions of her personal book and her calendar AND her stage postcard… ^^’’

Here’s my new prescious stuff! (Well, I’ve had them for almost three weeks now…) I was so happy when I opened the package from Japan and found all of these inside! My acquaintance in Japan had been very thoughtful and bought me the personal calendar that came with the clear file. The four chirashi also came with that. The upper one of the personal books (oh God, I just typoed and wrote boobs instead *dead* x.x) came with a DVD with approximately 30 mins of footage from the first photoshoot of the book. And aside from the stage postcard I had ordered, I also got another postcard with the greetings from my acquaintance. Thank you so much!
Now let’s not discuss the amount of money I spent on all that Zuka stuff last month…

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Other than that, I’ve been very low these past two months. Mostly because of school and all the things I should have done already. And then there’s the situation in Japan. I don’t even have any Japanese friends, but of course the horrible events make me feel bad for everyone in the land of the rising sun. I can’t even write anything about it, but Japan stays in my thoughts. Hopefully everyone will stay safe and the rebuilding can start soon. ;__;

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And… I got a new haircut again. It’s not even near to what I had hoped it to be, so I’ve been even more unhappy since last Wednesday.

Guh.
Well, it’s not all that horrible I guess, but still… T-T I’ve been trying to tell myself that hair will always grow back and the I can go for the otokoyaku look I’ve been yearning. Until then I’ll just have to try to learn new ways to do this current hair and not look in the mirror too much. >____>’’
Oh, and I figured you might want to see that hair better, so I took a video with my webcam:

Depressed me is depressed. Sorry for the boring post. I’ll try to cheer up and write something more interesting next time.

Ici le venin de la haine coule dans nos vies comme dans nos veines

Bonsoir my dear readers! You might wonder if I’ve turned French during this inexcusably long Blogger silence but I assure you this isn’t anything serious, just another obsession. You’ve been missing my crazy rants, haven’t you? Well, let’s not keep you waiting any longer. On to the crazy place called my mind!

THIS! Oh Gackt, this is the best thing since Elisabeth! That French guy’s voice! *-* This song! WHY oh why didn’t I find this musical last year when I needed the inspiration to study French for the matriculation examination? Well, if I’d have found this earlier it would have been even bigger a pain to wait for the Takarazuka version… I mean, Oh Gackt (yes, again) I NEED to see, no OWN this on DVD… And since there are two versions, the Hoshigumi one with Kaname as Tybalt and the Yukigumi one with Chigi as Mercutio I obviously need them both. I want to be poor and happy SO badly right now. *insert more excited rant here*

Other than that, I’ve started a tumblr blog just for the sake of spam. As you can see, it doesn’t necessarily lessen the spam in my other blogs. Sorry about that, but that’s just the way I am. ^^

THEN! (I am slightly stressed/fatigued/depressed so I write even more colourfully than usually. :'D) I had my hair cut AGAIN last Wednesday. ♥

Ahaha, a weird picture but whatever. I finally got the short-on-the-back-longer-on-the-front ‘bob’ I’ve been dreaming of since I don’t even know when. Have a look at these next bad quality webcam photos:

The hair is super short (on my scale, at least) at the nape of the neck. It’s a bit like one of Victoria Beckham’s bobs, except that Posh obviously wears her hair better than me and my hair is cut straighter than hers. Or something. My English totally fails me, sorry. x3 AND I’ve noticed (again) that I am terrible at doing my hair. ♥ Well, time to learn, right?

I’m 99,9% sure that I’m going to die of lack of sleep, stress and overall exhaustion next week… Or maybe of Zuka angst, we’ll see.

On a not as random a thought as that previous paragraph, I got a dataliittymä as a Christmas present. Sorry for the lack of interest to find out what it would be in English, but basically it means that I can surf in the net on my phone to my heart’s content anytime I want, almost anywhere I want. The best thing? My dad can’t stalk the times I use the net. ♥ So I can stay up ‘til four a.m. doing nothing useful and die of tiredness the next day. ♥ This is one of the reasons I am definitely going to die sooner than expected.

RANDOMNESS IS RANDOM. Over and out. ♥

Dieu, que les hommes, sont durs
Que les hommes, sont sûrs d'eux
Oh ! Dieu, que les hommes, sont durs
Que faut-il donc qu'on fasse
Pour que tu accordes ta grâce
Dieu toi qui nous a mis sur la terre
Pourquoi nous forcer à nous taire
Et regarder, mourir les hommes

Better than love

Ladies and gentlemen, what you are looking at is a post written by one very happy girl. And that was a huge understatement right there. Alright, since you can all guess what this is about I’ll just get to the subject without further delay.

*Insert dramatic drums here*

Friday the 15th was definitely more successful than the one before it, but the reason to my happiness was the same. (Zuka, obviously. There’s still no progress with the video thing. ^^'')

… !!!

I got my new Mizu stuff! *____* I was completely over the moon when I came home from a fashion fair (nothing much to say about that) to find a package from Japan on my table. My sister had apparently signed the delivery for me, so all I had to do was avoid any questions about the price of the delivery from my parents. I snuck the package to my room and squealed and hyperventilated a lot while carefully examining the contents. My mind has obviously been filled with Mizu for the past week. There’s so much to look at and so much to read, if only I could read Japanese, that is. I’ve done a lot of reading, actually. If I would bother to learn some of the more frequently appearing kanji it wouldn’t be all that hard to at least grasp the main concept of all the articles etc. I’m feeling the need to scan every photo of Mizu on the computer for personal usage, but I don’t want to risk ruining the book and the magazines in the process. Plus, there would be so much to scan; I wouldn’t know where to begin. Anyway, that was 97 € well spent. *pats herself on the back*

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I started to write this entry two weeks ago and I’m sure I had something non-zuka-related to say back then but now… Tehehee. :D Zara has bought like three new DVDs in the past two weeks so we’ve had a Zuka night two Saturdays in a row. Pari no Sora Yori mo Takaku was great of course, but nothing can beat what we watched yesterday. Roget/Rock on! is something that I must buy immediately, sorry Zuka shopping list! I’ve fallen in love. I’ve found my post-Mizu favourite takarasienne. I’m over the moon, about to faint, feeling anxious when I wake up all because of one Sagiri Seina. New obsession, here I come!

(Image from here.) This girl… My Gackt, why do I always forget how to breathe when she pops up from somewhere? *_____*

She’s just… Whoah. You really should see her in action, she’s too cool. Or too hot to handle. I can’t decide which would be the best way to describe her. Hot like ice? (Yes, her character is the bad guy. Why do I always fall for the bad guys? Tooto, Aosetona, vampires in general…) Her acting somehow reminds me of Gackt, and her voice… To die for. I heard her voice in Russian Blue for the first time and fell for it right away. Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, I’m moving on now to save the last bit of sense I have in me.

(Got to say just one more thing related to this… My dad randomly decided to up our (mine & my sister’s) monthly allowance by 25 €. YAYYYY! Now I can almost afford the DVD with the handling and postage fees… …Ohmigackt, this is not good for my sanity…)

…Just one more and I promise to stop spamming.

(Source.) Is she cool or what? *q* *dances away to find a bucket*

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I’ve had a massive skin problem for a month now. I don’t want to go into too much detail here, so I’ll just say that the skin on my face was so dry I was afraid it would come off altogether and I had a nasty rash on my neck and even armpits.  I went to see a doctor on Wednesday and got four different creams with which to start healing my skin. The most healing cream worked like magic and my skin was back to normal in three days. Now I’m just mad at myself for not seeing a doctor sooner. -.-

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Next subject: mood swings! I’ve about had it. Last week I was feeling under the weather because of my skin. Yesterday I was angsting big time, probably due to lack of Chigi sleep. Today has been a massive rollercoaster. I think I’ve regained some of my appetite after two days of not feeling like eating much. (And here I thought it was impossible for me to lose my appetite.) I haven’t exactly cried (got enough of that yesterday) but I’ve been down. But I’ve also been high with a texting war about Zuka meets Star Wars with Zara and finding Roget/Rock on! online. And the best of all? I started jumping up and down with joy when I got my hair crisis (yes, it’s always there) under control.

(A bad webcam photo is bad.) This isn’t inspired by Chigi’s cheek bones. It’s a bit difficult to see in the photo (Why do I feel like I’ve written something like that before?) but my hair actually looks quite nice! A bit like Kathryn Morris’ in Cold Case. Well, I always thought I liked her hair and that it would probably suit me too. Well, it does! And guess what? I may have found a perfect cut, if I ever decide to get rid of these locks. Buh-bye hair! …Or not. :3 We’ll see…

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Now, I absolutely must watch more Chigi call it a night. Only two hours of school tomorrow and then I’ll be off to do some depression shopping. A blazer, a frilly dress shirt, a hat, a mini skirt… Dum-de-dum, I’ve got a list of new clothes I want. :3 If I can find any that suit me and my taste, that is…

Until next time, dearies~! ♥