Infection

(I seem to have fallen to the level where all my titles are song names. :'D)

It’s time for apologies and explanations again. Sorry for the lack of updates. School is eating up all my free time and I haven’t slept nearly enough in the past four weeks or so. Also, my fever at the beginning of the month extended and I also caught an eye infection, so I’ve been feeling a bit under the weather. I’m already healing up, so there’s no need to be too worried.

I’ve failed a lot, due to the illness (I hope). On the 13th I managed to lose my phone. The next Monday I lost my bus card. I was so frustrated I can’t put it into words! I’d probably lose my own body if it were possible. -____-'' Well, the good news is I got a new phone! Here she is:

My new Nokia 5230. The Siren ~Redemption~ (No, I still haven’t got rid of my habit of giving names to my electronical devices.)

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On the 22nd I attended the much anticipated gig of D’espairsRay, without any make-up due to the eye infection. I had lessons until four o’clock, so I headed to Helsinki straight from school. I got my new bus card first and then went to grab a little something to eat and drink before the gig with Zara and Sami. Taitti joined us when we were already queuing inside. I started to panic about getting a right-sized tour shirt, as I always do, but in the end both me and Taitti got our shirts and found a good place to enjoy the gig from, right next to the mixing table.

The set list was amazing. No, I’m not just saying, it really was that good. The only song I still missed was Reddish, but other than that I was completely blown away. The first two songs, BORN and Marry of the blood, had me thinking I must have died and gone to heaven. The rest of the songs didn’t let me down either. Garnet, fuyuu shita risou and DEATH POINT kept the mood up, but when they played dope, 13 -thirteen-, Love Is Dead and Damned in a row I was on Cloud nine. I enjoyed in vain and Devils' Parade, but Abyss got me a little distracted from the show, as I hadn’t paid it all that much attention when listening to MONSTERS. Lost in re:birth wasn’t my favourite song either, but Hollow got me back on track again. I was more than happy listening to Human-clad monster and REDEEMER, and then Abel to Cain made me go wild. The encore with forbidden, TRICKSTeR and MIRROR was great, but I felt a bit unsatisfied with the lack of Reddish. Both me and Taitti were all “So when will we see D’espairsRay again?” afterwards and were sad to read about the break they are taking after this tour. But as long as Hizumi will get his vocal cords in shape again it’s all good. Thank you for the amazing show again, D’espairsRay!

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I’ve actually been a bit depressed lately, probably due to the shortening days of autumn. I’ve been forced to wake up at 5:40 a.m. for way too many mornings in a row and it’ll only get worse after the (heavenly!) autumn break of 11 days starting next Thursday. Technically we aren’t allowed to eat anything in our classroom at school, so I’ll have to start having breakfast at home rather than just taking my morning tea and sandwiches with me when I leave the house. This means that I’ll have to wake up at 5:20 practically every weekday morning. I do not approve of this! Well, I can’t really complain since I was the one to decide I’d go to school so far away from home, but still. >.<''

Okay, enough of that rant for now. If I won’t update my blog too frequently from now on it’s just that I’m depressed and tired, that’s all. But! On to nicer subjects!

Dad bought me the cutest bottle of champagne ever!

(Sorry for the bad photo – as always. x3) Look, my Nicolas Feuillatte is wearing a pink winter coat! Just how cute is that? :D Now all I need is a pink coat with white fur for myself and a chihuahua with a matching outfit and I’m all set for a very chic New Year’s party or something. xD

Also, I got a gorgeous pocket watch from my dad! He already had one that used to belong to his uncle or grandfather, so he gave the other one to me. :D

*____* I don’t know where I’m going to wear it, but its cool. A great piece of accessory for a gothic photo shoot, don’t you think? I just need a chain for it…

~♥~

Last Friday was an exciting one. ;) Zara totally got me a heart-attack by texting me that she had got this:

My Miki in Budokan! *q* I left the house in the morning thinking that my life would be complete once I would get my hands on my new baby in the evening. But before that, I had to visit two museums with the other first-year artisan students from our school and then spend the afternoon in Helsinki with Taitti. We were going to buy some new Neopikos from Stockmann, since they had the big sales (Hullut päivät), but decided against it in the end. I bought some stuff for school, the seventh volume of Vampire Knight manga and, you got it right, nail polish. *sigh* I was only going to get myself a new base coat, but then I got my eyes on this:

OPI Kinky in Helsinki! (VERY inaccurate photo colour-wise. It’s much more… not-red IRL, more like magenta. Go Google it, it’s a pain to capture on camera but I’ll try again tomorrow with natural light.) My face was probably something like this: O________________O when I spotted the display next to all the other OPI polishes. My limited-edition-obsessed mind forced me to buy a bottle without stopping to think about it for one second. Luckily I’m absolutely loving it on my nails. ♥__♥

Now on to the curious case of Miki in Budokan. I went to see Zara straight from Helsinki and had to do a lot of self-restraining in order not to drool all over the package during the ten-minute train trip to Sello where my parents picked me up on their way to the grocery store. Once I was finally home, I went straight upstairs and plugged in the VCR. It was at this point that I realized what a huge failure of a nerd I am. The Japanese have their videos in NTSC format whereas our VCR can only play PAL videos. All I saw on the TV screen was a white mess and the sound was too slow and overall weird. I must have flipped because at first I couldn’t do anything but laugh so hard at myself for being an idiot and then I started to frantically search the net for any information on how to get my hands on a VCR that can play NTSC videos. So far it has proven to be quite difficult, but I’ll try searching through flea markets and recycling centres when I find the time. Gosh I wish I had more intelligence in my brain…

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Well, I could keep on ranting about my angst for the whole night, but I guess it would be unhealthy for me and very unpleasant to my readers, so maybe I’ll just keep all the gory details of how the Tarja/Nightwish-deal still gets me depressed to myself. Hopefully I’ll have a nicer post for you next time. (There’ll probably be some major Mizu!fangirling, since I’ve ordered myself a few new things from Japan~ :D

Until then, dears! ♥

P.S. DAMNIT, if only I had waited for 21 more minutes to publish this… I didn’t realize 10/10/10 at 10:10 would happen twice if you’re using a.m./p.m. time format. >.<''

P.P.S. I’ve got to do this now so that I won’t forget…

I got this Beautiful Blogger Award from Zara. I have to share seven facts about myself and then tag seven people to do the same. I’ll tag all my readers, because I don’t like to spam people’s comment boxes with things like this, even though this is a nice award and everything. :'3

1. I feel like a failure. Mostly because, even though I’m studying to become an artisan, I feel like I have no direction in my life and I get absolutely nothing done.

2. I’ve inherited a tendency to get depressed during the darker months of the year from my mom.

3. I’ve also inherited her genes that allow me to eat practically anything and still stay thin.

4. I always try very hard to please other people and I sometimes get all worked up because I can’t please everyone at the same time.

5. I tend to get some sort of an identity crisis every other month or so, due to an obsession or the previous fact.

6. I feel like I’ve failed in English again in this post and it bothers me very much, as always.

7. I’m a procrastinator and a perfectionist. NOT a good combination, I can tell you. I always get depressed over things I haven’t done but it doesn’t make me do them any faster. *ahem* driving lessons, taiji and student card *ahem*

Devils’ Parade

Hiya all! Long time no see. For once I’m not going to apologize for the blog silence since I’ve got a perfect excuse for my absence. *dum-de-dum* It’s actually school. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, for the past two weeks I have actually been studying! I got accepted to the school I wished to attend! Yay, go me! I’m studying sewing women’s clothes. 8) Suits me perfectly, don’t you think?

Okay, I have a crapload of photos to show you and nothing much in my brain to tell about them. :'D It’s obviously been too long since my last update, too many things have happened and I can’t keep my thoughts organized. Sorry if this gets messy again. x3

Since I mentioned visiting my godparents’ summer house in my last post, I could start with that. No, I didn’t take any photos. Yes, I did manage to get Stella somewhat hooked on Takarazuka. Heck yes, we had a great time! We should definitely see each other more often~

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Chronologically, the next thing would probably be D’espairsray’s new album MONSTERS.

Limited edition with DVD (that I haven’t actually watched yet o.O), straight from Japan. :3 Took me a while to really get in to the songs, but the more I listen to it the better it sounds. It’s a bit lighter than their usual style, but it’s catchy and I’m sure it’ll work well live. I really need to start learning the lyrics by heart…

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I have been enjoying the Zukaism with Zara. One Saturday we went to Helsinki to window-shop all things otokoyaku. And, well, I bought a pair of Kamijo-boots. :____D It just happened, I swear I didn’t mean to! …Ahem, whatever, here’s a crappy photo of my outfit of that day:

The otokoyaku scarf combined with a black shirt and a pen skirt? I really don’t know. :'3 You can’t actually see it all that well in the photo, but I managed to make myself the Tooto nails. Finally!

I bought myself a new nail polish, yet again. My previous Tooto polish had run dry, so I couldn’t help buying GOSH Black Passion. The colour is love, but I don’t really love the horrible tip pull it creates. Anyway, Black Passion was the base, OPI Catch Me in Your Net was added on the tips and the finishing touches were done by an eyeliner brush with Lumene Natural Code Classy. The result? Here:

I didn’t bother to take too detailed a photo, since I haven’t got any detailed photos of the real Tooto nails myself. (Explanations, explanations. x3) I ended up loving the result and am actually thinking of doing this design with some other colours too. (RED, anyone?)

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Ahem, then I’ve got a mass of photos of my face from a random lonely photo shoot. :'3 Feel the otokoyaku-vibe with a hint of feminine Hetaism added in. :'D

Man, I feel like a woman~♪ Or not. xD Dude-ism (what’s with the creative use of language again?) doesn’t make me look hot… I don’t even look like my dad here. x3

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Okay, now on to the good part! Me, Zara and Nepi went to Helsinki last Sunday to take some photos. It was so much fun and it shows. :D

Wanna get in trouble?

Rio de Bravo, anyone? :D

Interesting bugs down there?

The coolest photo of me and Nepi.

Can’t touch this~

Our Zuka dance reinvented caboeira. xD I can’t help lolling at these~

An unedited photo of my failing hair me. Ta-dah!

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Umm, I don’t really have all that much free time these days… It takes me about an hour and a half to get to school and the same to get back home, and the days aren’t all that short either. Last week I managed to not sit on the computer every night and thus I got to sleep about six hours per night. Yesterday, I failed. I stayed up ‘til half past two in the morning, watching Zuka videos. How irresponsible can one be of herself? >___>'' Now I just have to share this, even though most of you probably aren’t interested… My Zuka fandom has risen to a level where I hail about every otokoyaku I see. I just discovered the greatness of Maya Miki and that discovery is going to cause me so much pain. The woman has had a concert in Budokan. Where she sung Malice Mizer’s Gekka no Yasoukyoku. The live video is extremely hard to find. Somebody please shoot me now! A hot otokoyaku (they really knew how to fanservice in the 90s) singing one of my favourite songs! Gekka no Yasoukyoku is actually my example of how to somewhat ruin your favourite song by having it as the tune of your alarm clock. But it’s love. I would do about anything to see a clip of Miki singing it. WHERE CAN I FIND THAT VIDEO? (It has also Mizu in it. *-*)

I ain’t got no money, money~♫

…I love the autumn fashion collections, by the way. They’re always full of clean cuts and black and everything that I love. If I had the money, I would shop ‘til I drop in Seppälä, Lindex and Stockmann. I need shiny leggings, for example.

Due to lack of sleep last night, I can’t come up with anything clever to write. :'3 Sorry~

Until next time sweeties~ ♥

P.S. Keep listening to Desert Rose by Sting (whom I won’t be seeing live T-T) and watching different versions of the hotness Kosame. ;3

P.P.S. I should probably revive my writing blog, since I’ve got some 3000 words of YuMizu fanfiction on my computer… 8D

Ways to prevent brain death

The title is inspired by my overflowing fangirlism for everything that happens to cross my way. If you are a fandom magnet like me, I strongly suggest staying away from the computer, or at least limit the time per week (or per day) that you can spend in the net. But more about my mental problems later. I’ll do this chronologically.

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Let’s start with my Finland mini-rail I did last week with my friend Pia (who is clearly my senior, born one day before me). Just to annoy the life out of my readers, I managed to take the grand amount of zero photos during our five-day trip around Finland. Isn’t that just great? :D No need to worry though, I have got a few photos to show you anyway.

Our trip started with a two and a half-hours long travel by train from Helsinki to Mikkeli. We stayed at Pia’s father’s parent’s summer house (I probably could have put that in other words, but my English is completely failing me. Ah, this is going to be lovely.) for the first night, continuing through Pieksämäki to Jyväskylä in the morning. The Finnish summer was showing its best during the whole trip, so we were pretty much dead tired throughout the days, as the temperature kept staying above 30 Celsius degrees. Jyväskylä was an okay place, but as it is a student town and we were there in June, it was pretty quiet everywhere in the evening. We did buy a couple of drinks in the evening, though. ;)

From Jyväskylä we headed towards Tampere, where we stayed for two nights. Tampere was a positive experience, even though the restaurants closed down pretty early, at 11 p.m. usually. We had reserved a whole day for visiting the Särkänniemi amusement park, which turned out to be a good decision. Here’s the wristband/ticket to the park:

We really took everything… Mitä hiivattia on koko rahan edestä englanniksi?! Kohta luovutan! Ahem, sorry about that, my English is SERIOUSLY failing me. Must be the fandom… How could I say this simply… We went to Särkänniemi just before noon when it opened for the day and stayed there until 7 p.m. when it closed. Money well spent. :D

After Tampere we headed for Rauma, where we were going to see Semmarit (a.k.a. Seminaarinmäen mieslaulajat), a Finnish a cappella group. Pia is a big fan of theirs and she really got me into it, too. (Act surprised, everyone! xD) We actually saw them from the first row, can you believe it? Pia was over the moon for just that. But this isn’t where our good luck ended. After the gig, we headed to a restaurant to get some dessert and a drink or two. After we had finished eating, it just so happens that two Semmari singers came to sit in our table! We ended up heading to a small bar with them and spending the rest of the night chatting with various members of the group. We only headed to our hotel at 1:30 a.m., tired but tremendously happy.

The next day was our last, and we headed for Turku to see Pia’s other grandparents. I took a train back home, but Pia stayed for the night to see Semmarit again.

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Okay, that was our mini-rail in a nutshell. In a very small nutshell on my scale, I might add. ^^ Now, on to everyone’s favourite part, photos!

I bought these two rings at a flea market in Mikkeli.

When I got back home, these babies were waiting for me. *-* I bought GACKT’s new single collection from CDJapan and apparently the first press edition came with an awesome plastic pocket. 8D Now I feel like collecting all my fan stuff in one place, take lots of photos and do a huge blog post of fandom. Luckily I’ll be away from the computer for the next five days so you won’t have to suffer from my stupid ideas. x3

I felt like taking photos the other day…

And the results are crappy, as always. (Check my vampire blog for more nightly photos. ^__~)

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And then on to the problems of my mind… I can’t get over my fandoms for the time being. GACKT. Semmarit. Takara-freaking-zuka (is that the way I’m supposed to put it? :'D).

Zara is in Japan at the moment and that evil little thing (whom I tremendously love) is talking to me via MSN, telling about how she went to see a hanagumi show today. *______* I’m having a Zuka high just for listening to her (...reading what she’s writing…) and she, being the angel she is, has bought me a Zuka DVD, a magazine and who knows what for who knows how many yen. ;______;♥ I’ll be in eternal gratitude for her. If I won’t die of a heart attac when she gets back in Finland, that is. Well, I’ll be a gratefull dead person in that case. :D

…I’ve had such good luck with gigs this year, maybe I’ll win a trip to Japan to see Mizu’s last performance in Takarazuka?

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Well, I’m off to Denmark tomorrow, after having my last entrance exam, so I’ll see you all again next week. I’ll finally be continuing with my driving lessons, something I’m not all that excited about. D: And since I couldn’t make it last weekend, I’ll be going to my godparents’ summer house on the 13th. (Friday the 13th, by the way. O.O)

Until next time, honeys~! Let’s hope that my next post is going to be a less-failing one…

Ah, bliss~♥

I’ve probably had a couple of yet another best days of my life, and more are coming, if everything goes as planned. :3

Should I do this chronologically? Umm, I’m thinking maybe. At least for the two most important things. ♥

First off, my graduation party! I managed (quite miraculously, in fact!) to finish my dress in time, had to sew a few stitches in the morning, but I didn’t need to downright panic at all! :D What an accomplishment.

Newly graduated, in our school’s lobby. I had about 15 minutes in the morning for curling my hair, so I’m positivelly surprised that they came out pretty well (better than ever before, I think) and they also lasted for the whole day (and I still have some loose curls, didn’t have time to wash my hair yet) so I’m extremelly happy!

…I wasn’t in my most photographable state on Saturday, I guess, but I’ve got a couple of okay photos. :3 Dad’s parents gave me that huge rose. I love it. *-* I got many compliments on my dress, which actually made me feel quilty, because I would have wanted to make it even prettier. My dad described it as one of the prettiest in the whole school (dad’s speech – I tried so hard not to cry, he was just overly wonderful ;__;♥) but he was obviously watching the whole thing through his paternal vision, so that’s not any kind of a proper measure. People told me they liked especially the corset (bought, obviously) and the part that covered my shoulders. Here’s where the quilt stepd in – I did the decolté just the previous day and actually had the only panic experiense at around eleven p.m. when I noticed that I had made it too small. I couldn’t really use the sewing machine at that time of the night, so I had to sew some extentions to the bach by hand. :'3 I didn’t mention it to the quests, though, and was just happy that they approved. ^^

My dear frien Kat came from Denmark with her parents who are our important family friends, almost like a part of the family. ♥ (I hope you won’t mind me showing this photo, Kat. I’ll take it down if you want.) The one on the right is my little sister. We’re like day and night, really. :'D I look so pale compared to the other two…

A little bit of shoe posing with my girls. ♥ You can finally see my shoes better here. I’ve got to say that I almost ruined my toes with these. ^^'' I wish I’d have a good photo of my complete outfit, but I guess we’ll just have to do with what we’ve got. :3

And now to the presents! I got a nice amount of money and gift cards from family friends and Godparents, which is good considering the other thing I’m going to write about. But let’s stick to the graduation for a while longer.

I got a new electronic sewing machine from my parents. ;__;♥ It’s so modern that I’m afraid to use it. So many cool options~ I learned that my mom’s sewing machine is about 20-30 years old, so I guess it’s good to finally have a new one in the house. I just hope that the electronic parts won’t break down… The old mechanical machines always last longer than the more modern stuff.

I got Arabia’s Satumetsä mugs from a friend, as I had hoped, and a teapot with two tea cups (Wildberries by Villeroy&Boch) from all of my cousins from dad’s side (as I don’t have any on my mother’s side). I also got a poppy painting from my dad’s mother and a series of three old portraits, one of my great-grandmother and my grandmother’s and mother’s graduation photos, all in black and white. ♥ Family history, that’s what I like. :3 There’s also a book journal I got from another friend. Got to start reading books more often again.

I got my first Nomination bracelet from my godparents. ♥ It has a star (for Stella, I suppose *-*) and a golden lyra for my graduation. :3 So from now on I’ll be more than pleased to receive new pieces for every little event. :D

My cards and the big roses. ♥

My cousin’s son (about 4 years now) was so adorable when he very shyly handed these flowers to me. ;__;♥ And his little brother, my godson, was the cutest little thing, as always. *3* ♥

And just to add yet another photo, here are my ‘summer shoes’ that I bought today. :3 I just couldn’t bring myself to buy flat shoes, a girl’s got to have heels. ♥ I hope I’ll be able to walk with these though… Unlike my fail with last summer’s shoes. x3

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Now, on to the big news!

Heta is going to Germany ~22.7.2010. ♥

GACKTOOOO, here I come! ♥

(I’m so tired from all that rambling about the graduation that I can’t write a proper over-excited post about this right now… :'D)

I’m a bit worried, since I haven’t yet got the actuall bill, but I got the confirmation e-mail, so I think it means I got the ticket? *-* I spent the whole mornin (from about 9:45 to approx. 13:50) refreshing the page of the ticket seller, slowly getting on with the order step by step. I was too excited to get frustrated, otherwise I probebly would have paniced or blown up my head or something. :'D

Now I just need to actually pay for the ticket and then reserve the hotel and plane tickets to Munich, as soon as possible. I’ll probably be in Munich from the 21st to the 23rd of July and right now it seems that I’m going all alone. :D My parents are a bit worried, but I’m just… Almost high from the feeling of freedom and independance. :__D Somehow Germany seems like a safe place to go alone, even though I don’t speak German at all, just understand somewhat and know some Elisabeth bits by heart. :'D Me and my usefull vocabulary, I can ask people why they have murdered the Empress Elisabeth, or tell them about der Tod, or sing Die Schatten werden länger, if I still remember the german lyrics after all of that Yami ga hirogaru… :'3 Or maybe I’ll just tell everyone that I’m afraid of the police. xD Well, I’ll get to see GACKT and explore a bit of Munich and that’s the main point. ♥ Good use for my graduation present money. :3

Zara just convinced me to go to Annyeong!Party tomorrow, so I guess I’d better get to sleep soon. I want to buy a headband from Spiritstore tomorrow, plus I’ll have to get an appointment with a doctor for the driving school. I just started the theory lessons today! So many things to write about, so many things to forget… Well, until next time, my dears! Nail repairing post is on the way, plus I feel like cutting my nails, so expect something naily in near future!

♥Hetha♥

P.S. I really hope my mom and dad will want to go to see Sting when he has a concert in Finland… Mom already said that she’s not all that inspired to see a huge arena concert with Sting playing old songs with a symphony orchestra, but c’mon! She’s already missed him once and has felt bad about it later on.. We’ve got to see the concert, right? Right?

Cutcutcut

First things first: Sorry for the lack of updates during these past… 3 weeks or something. :''D School has been killing me etc. so I hope you’ll understand.

I thought about making some kind of a hair history post but I decided against it after all when I went through some old photos… I guess I don’t go well with a camera.

Blah, I’ve written two random essays today and I wonder whether I’ve got anythig to say anymore. :'3 My brain has got some issues. Regarding school and Takarazuka. And I have an identity crisis. :__)

Well, on to the big news! My hair is short. D: And I don’t know how I can live with that. My family wouldn’t even have noticed the difference if I hadn’t pointed it out but to me it does matter when my hair is roughly 20 cm shorter than before. I thought I’d go for Tooto length but no. >.<'' It’s funny that I thought I hadn’t quite wrapped my head around the fact that my hair was so long but now when it’s shorter I’m totally on pins and needles. :''D

Okay, I know you want to see already. ;) (Sorry for the crappy webcam quality…)

Before…

After.

You see why I’m a bit freaked out right now? I wonder what my hair dresser will think when I come to her after a couple of months with a Tooto pic and tell her I want to have hair like that (without the blue parts though). :__D

And now that my hair is gone the next thing to cut will be the nails. Uh-oh, now I’m scared. :''D I just haven’t decided how short and what shape I want my nails to be. Too many options. I thought I would go with very short for once but after the hair cut that might be a bit too much…

I should be studying maths at the moment but, surprisingly, I’ve started a couple of new projects that I’d like to continue right now (such as der Tod fanvideo and a new visual style for my computer). :'3

Hmhmhm… If you have any suggestions for my nails or hair feel free to tell me! ^__^ I guess that’s all for now, see you again (soon, I hope)!

*Insert an interesting title here*

My brain is pretty empty right now and I don’t know why. I’m going through a nice variety of emotions and I keep switching my thinking language between Finnish, English, Swedish and French, which is confusing to say the least. I’m a bit worried about next Wednesday because then I’ll have my English matriculation exam and my English isn’t really at it’s best right now. Well, I did get quite a good score from the listening comprehension (85/90) but I’m getting pretty worried about the grammar part. And judging by the first paragraph of this blog entry the essay part won’t be easy either. I fail. ;__;

I’ve been quite stressed over all the school work lately. The teachers just keep giving us too much homework and other projects and I’ve been feeling like I haven’t got any time of my own at all. And thus I’ve neglected almost all of my homework, which has made me feel guilty and unwilling to go to the classes. I’m quite proud of myself though; I haven’t skipped a single class since the beginning of the semester. Go me!

Last Tuesday I was so fed up with my teachers and all the things they make us do that I simply decided to do nothing at all. It didn’t make me feel better but at least it didn’t make me feel worse. Because that would have been too much. I spent the night staring at my computer screen, mostly Takarazuka videos on YouTube. The same angst and unwillingness to do anything went on on Wednesday, too, but I guess I was already feeling slightly better. Thursdays are always the worst and the most tiring days but on yesterday evening I felt very good and relaxed. Amazing, isn’t it, what little things like dancing can do. I got slightly too relaxed though; I couldn’t sleep. >.<’’

Today I’ve come across quite a few not so cheerful things from wrist cutting to suicide. Depression and stress seem to appear in about everyone’s life lately. It makes me feel sick. I find myself trying to keep away from the bad things, trying not to empathize with them. But that’s almost even more scary; ignorance isn’t really my thing and the numbness that follows makes me scared of losing all my feelings. To make matters worse, I watched a bit of a 9/11 memorial documentary. My mom, who actually isn’t in high spirits either, asked me why I was watching such a depressing thing. I couldn’t answer; I know that I sometimes watch such things to remind myself of the bad things in life (and when I do it feels masochistic) but right now I have no reason to do so.

I should go to sleep already; I’ll have to be at school from 9 to 12 tomorrow, studying Swedish. And then I’m going to Helsinki with Taitti to check out some kind of a manga event. ^^ To end this post on a positive note, I’ll tell you about a dream I saw last night. I wasn’t in the dream myself but I saw a dark gothic castle. There, in a hall, was count Dracula or some other older aristocratic vampire with his servant. The servant told the count something about a woman’s corpse floating in a river by the castle. The count looked out of a window, said something like ‘There’s no sun at this time of night’ and got outside laughing mischievously. Pretty random, but I’m not complaining as long as it’s about vampires.

And lastly, here’s a bit crappy photo of my current nails:

School stole my spare time

Yeah, school started. >__>'' It’s been only a week and a half and I’m pretty much dead already. So much work to do. Well, things will probably get a bit easier in about four weeks or so when the exams are over. I can cope until then, right?

I’ve been doing my Swedish homework so my brain doesn’t really compute in English right now. :''D Got to update my blog now anyway, when I have the time. I was going to update last weekend but then I didn’t have the time or the energy to do it. Now then, on with the show!

Last Friday I was in the Night of the Arts with my family. Mom just decided out of the blue that she wanted to see the performance of les Plasticiens Volants and so we headed to Senate Square. We were there at around 9 p.m. so we had plenty of time to decide where we wanted to stand. Later on there were so many people that they didn’t even fit to the square.

Not all that many people yet. :—D Only the stairs are crowded.

The performance itself was great. My pocket camera (or my photographing skills for that matter) wasn’t at its best when I desperately tried to take photos of the giant floating sea creatures… Luckily enough, I managed to find some settings with which I could take decent photos in the dark. Most of them were unfocused, but I thought I’d show you a few anyway. ^^

(Click for larger pic, as always.) This was the first thing we saw. Sorry for the bad quality, I just wanted to show how amazingly detailed these things were… All those paintings and everything… *-*

These things were so funny! Notice also the little boy sitting on his dad’s shoulders… He has a cool dragon-like hat. :D

Here’s a more overall-ish photo of the three first creatures… I was dumb and took way too many photos at hte begining of the show; my camera’s battery died in the middle of the show. >.<''

This was probably the coolest of them all in my opinion. The photo is smudgy and dark but in real life this was extremely detailed and beautifully painted. *-* And huge too!

I just love all kinds of interesting performances. I’ve probably inherited that from my parents; my dad especially loves things like modern circus and big shows (Cirque du Soleil etc.).

On Saturday I met some of the members of Versailles’ Street Team Finland. I was being shy most of the time but I got new friends anyways. ^^ I was pretty much brain-dead when I got back home but I managed to take a few photos of myself anyways. :''D

These are the clothes I was wearing… Not vampire-y (:''D) enough for the occasion, but… :''D (Honestly, sorry for failing in writing today. >.<'') Posing, anyone? x) And sorry for the lack of shoes. Notice my Turtlez-toed socks (what my cousin calls them). :'3

I also took a few photos of my face featuring my hand to show off my nails, and then some photos with ‘theater make-up’ on but those aren’t really worth publishing. ^^

I’ve been having this strange Finnish pop period. :''D I’ve realized that some Finnish songs actually have very good lyrics… I totally love how some lyrics go so well with my life. This of course applies to all songs, not just Finnish ones. Queen, Sting etc. *-* … I suddenly got the urge to listen Hinder’s Lips of an Angel… *______*

…Two weeks is too long a break from blogging. Too much has happened, small things that I’ve been meaning to share with you… Well, you’re probably too bored to read my all too long posts anyway. 8D

I’ve been told that I look like a ballerina… This has happened twice during the past week. I’m flattered, of course, though I have to disagree with those comments. Ballerinas, dancers and gymnasts are usually pretty easy to recognize due to their perfect posture, confident yet delicate appearance and the graceful way they move. Sure, I’d like to look like them but I guess people just associate the fact that I don’t seem to have basically anything around my ribs with the slender figure of a ballerina. o.O My posture is anything but confident or perfect. I started showdance again, though, so maybe I’ll someday actually look like a dancer. : D *is hopeful*

With that, I’m off to do my nails. ^^ See you again as soon as possible.