In a rollercoaster

I’ve been having some major mood swings these past three days. From hopeful to anxiety, loneliness and right down to depression. -___-'' I even started a new blog for my darker thoughts. (Tell me, if you’re interested, I’m keeping it pretty much private. I’ll publish some of my art and stories there, too. And it includes mature content. ^^)

I was only able to go to Animecon on Friday, because I didn’t want to go alone on Saturday and I kinda missed my chance on Sunday. But I had great time on Friday, we were there for about three hours. I managed to spend 95+ euros during that time. ^^'' Here’s what I got:

The Trinity Blood DVDs (I-III) I’ve been planning to buy for a while now. 20 Euros for three DVDs, not too bad, eh? (Sorry if I’m starting to sound British, btw, just finished watching the last Lewis episode. ^^ I think I’m going to start talking in Oxfordian accent soon. o__O) Except that I noticed I could actually get the whole series for 19,95 € in a single DVD box. Now there are two choices; I could try to sell these three DVDs and buy the box with the money I get, or I’ll have to spend another 20-30 Euros to buy the other DVDs. And the last DVD hasn’t even been published in Finland yet. –____-''

I bought Loveless 4 for a bargain price, only 5 euros! And I promised myself a million times I wouldn’t buy the Crimson Spell mangas but, unsurprisingly, I failed. When are they going to publish the 3rd book? I want chapter 20! ^__~

I tried to keep my eyes off the jewellery tables, though it has become much easier for me to resist those kinds of temptations. On the other hand, I found another weakness of mine and it was one I wasn’t prepared for. Yes, ladies and gentleman, the ultimate doom of my wallet; Belle Modeste’s table. Don’t tell mom that I bought a neck corset. ^^ I don’t know where and when I’m going to wear it, but I couldn’t help myself. Damn addictions. >.<'' I actually managed to buy quite a few things I don’t want to show my parents. ^^

And here’s a picture of my Animecon nails:

Yoga-ta Get This Blue with nail stickers. ^^

Right now, another mood swing has brought me close to euphoria. I’m in a mood when I find too many things to buy. And I’ve fallen in love. ♥ I’m having a music orgasm right now. I’m sure that’s about the only way to describe this feeling. Stalking blogs is really useful sometimes. I found this musical through Siru’s blog and fell in love right away. It’s called Elisabeth and I’m not quite sure whether I love it more in Japanese or in German. The Takarazuka version is maybe a bit more interesting, since all the roles are played by women and Der Tod (The Death) has long, silvery hair. *___* The German version is very appealing too, though. This music keeps sending thousands of chills down my spine and I don’t know if I should laugh or cry. This is the best feeling. ^^ And one the reasons I love music. I already went and put the soundtrack I found on our library’s website on hold for me. There was just one single CD, but it’ll have to do until I can order a copy of my own from the net. I’ll also simply have to buy the Japanese DVD as soon a it becomes available, no matter what the cost might be. I’m having one of my huge music moments right now. Here are the links to my favourite songs so far, highly recommended: Die Schatten Werden Länger/Yami ga Hirogaru, Der Letzte Tanz/ Saigo no Dansu

So hot *___* I’m completely awestruck, hope you can feel it too. ♥

I’ll bite into your sinful neck

Versailles fangirlism strikes again! Ascendead Master is love, just like all their songs. I’m hailing the PV just now. Please come to Finland soon~! I can’t wait ‘til September when they’ll release the new album.

Kamijo ♥__♥ Hizaki ♥__♥

Gackt ♥__♥ …he doesn’t have anything to do with this, though. x)

Okay, let’s see if I would stay on one subject for more than two seconds. ^^’’ I should have done a Hizaki cosplay for Animecon. It’s a bit late now, isn’t it? I wanted at least to do the Hizaki hair style but I realized my sister has our curling iron with her in Jersey. And I suck at creating pretty curls. ;;___;; I’ll have to do some internet research for hair curling tutorials. That’s my favourite pastime anyway.

I can’t wait for Animecon! ^___^ Oh my Gackt (here we go again!), what should I wear? *panic attack* :P And what should I do to my nails? I do have something like a plan already, nothing definite though.

My godparents’ child might be coming over to my house for Friday & Saturday so that she’ll be able to go to Animecon, too. She wasn’t too sure yet, though, because she’ll have to get here by train and then go back to Mäntyharju after just a couple of days. I’ll hold my fingers crossed for her, since she has never been to Animecon before (I’m the one to say. I’ve been to Animecon once. xD) and I think she doesn’t have anyone else to go with her. She sounded like she wanted to come, but we’ll see. I’ll have to call her tomorrow to confirm. I found out I’ve got yet another Gackt-admiring friend in her. ^____^ Makes a little fangirl happy to know people share her interests.

I had great time at my godparents’ cottage. It’s actually more like a villa than a cottage. It’s huge and very beautiful. I was able to draw for the first time since I don’t know when and finally watch the Golden Compass movie, which was better than I expected, and Kiki’s Delivery Service. I also got to play Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII on PSP. Sephiroth~ ♥! And Zack, obviously ♥! ^___^ If only we could have played the Japanese version… Gackt as Genesis’ voice. ♥___♥ On a side note: the Bunraku movie must come to theaters in Finland, too! If it doesn’t, I’ll die for sure. Well, I’ll die of hyperventilation anyway if it does. And that’s only if I’ll live that long.

Okay, in case you didn’t notice, I’m overexcited by everything right now. ^^’’ A little over two weeks to go and then I’m going to see D’espairsRay! Whee~! Now I only need money so I can buy something from Animecon and D’espairsray’s gig.

I wonder how many of my friends will come to Animecon… Me and Taitti are kind of planning to go on Friday (right? o__O). I might go on Saturday and/or Sunday too, depending on whether I do or do not have company. I’m excited~! Oh, you can tell? How come?

Endless rant… Sorry! I will have something clever to say next time, I promise! .___.’’

P.S. I forgot! I’m a godmother now! Yayy, my dream come true! ^___^

P.P.S. If you haven’t seen this Versailles comment before… It’s hilarious! xD Poor Teru, he forgot to pull in his stomach in the beginning. And please get some longer pants on already!