Ici le venin de la haine coule dans nos vies comme dans nos veines

Bonsoir my dear readers! You might wonder if I’ve turned French during this inexcusably long Blogger silence but I assure you this isn’t anything serious, just another obsession. You’ve been missing my crazy rants, haven’t you? Well, let’s not keep you waiting any longer. On to the crazy place called my mind!

THIS! Oh Gackt, this is the best thing since Elisabeth! That French guy’s voice! *-* This song! WHY oh why didn’t I find this musical last year when I needed the inspiration to study French for the matriculation examination? Well, if I’d have found this earlier it would have been even bigger a pain to wait for the Takarazuka version… I mean, Oh Gackt (yes, again) I NEED to see, no OWN this on DVD… And since there are two versions, the Hoshigumi one with Kaname as Tybalt and the Yukigumi one with Chigi as Mercutio I obviously need them both. I want to be poor and happy SO badly right now. *insert more excited rant here*

Other than that, I’ve started a tumblr blog just for the sake of spam. As you can see, it doesn’t necessarily lessen the spam in my other blogs. Sorry about that, but that’s just the way I am. ^^

THEN! (I am slightly stressed/fatigued/depressed so I write even more colourfully than usually. :'D) I had my hair cut AGAIN last Wednesday. ♥

Ahaha, a weird picture but whatever. I finally got the short-on-the-back-longer-on-the-front ‘bob’ I’ve been dreaming of since I don’t even know when. Have a look at these next bad quality webcam photos:

The hair is super short (on my scale, at least) at the nape of the neck. It’s a bit like one of Victoria Beckham’s bobs, except that Posh obviously wears her hair better than me and my hair is cut straighter than hers. Or something. My English totally fails me, sorry. x3 AND I’ve noticed (again) that I am terrible at doing my hair. ♥ Well, time to learn, right?

I’m 99,9% sure that I’m going to die of lack of sleep, stress and overall exhaustion next week… Or maybe of Zuka angst, we’ll see.

On a not as random a thought as that previous paragraph, I got a dataliittymä as a Christmas present. Sorry for the lack of interest to find out what it would be in English, but basically it means that I can surf in the net on my phone to my heart’s content anytime I want, almost anywhere I want. The best thing? My dad can’t stalk the times I use the net. ♥ So I can stay up ‘til four a.m. doing nothing useful and die of tiredness the next day. ♥ This is one of the reasons I am definitely going to die sooner than expected.

RANDOMNESS IS RANDOM. Over and out. ♥

Dieu, que les hommes, sont durs
Que les hommes, sont sûrs d'eux
Oh ! Dieu, que les hommes, sont durs
Que faut-il donc qu'on fasse
Pour que tu accordes ta grâce
Dieu toi qui nous a mis sur la terre
Pourquoi nous forcer à nous taire
Et regarder, mourir les hommes

Infection

(I seem to have fallen to the level where all my titles are song names. :'D)

It’s time for apologies and explanations again. Sorry for the lack of updates. School is eating up all my free time and I haven’t slept nearly enough in the past four weeks or so. Also, my fever at the beginning of the month extended and I also caught an eye infection, so I’ve been feeling a bit under the weather. I’m already healing up, so there’s no need to be too worried.

I’ve failed a lot, due to the illness (I hope). On the 13th I managed to lose my phone. The next Monday I lost my bus card. I was so frustrated I can’t put it into words! I’d probably lose my own body if it were possible. -____-'' Well, the good news is I got a new phone! Here she is:

My new Nokia 5230. The Siren ~Redemption~ (No, I still haven’t got rid of my habit of giving names to my electronical devices.)

~♥~

On the 22nd I attended the much anticipated gig of D’espairsRay, without any make-up due to the eye infection. I had lessons until four o’clock, so I headed to Helsinki straight from school. I got my new bus card first and then went to grab a little something to eat and drink before the gig with Zara and Sami. Taitti joined us when we were already queuing inside. I started to panic about getting a right-sized tour shirt, as I always do, but in the end both me and Taitti got our shirts and found a good place to enjoy the gig from, right next to the mixing table.

The set list was amazing. No, I’m not just saying, it really was that good. The only song I still missed was Reddish, but other than that I was completely blown away. The first two songs, BORN and Marry of the blood, had me thinking I must have died and gone to heaven. The rest of the songs didn’t let me down either. Garnet, fuyuu shita risou and DEATH POINT kept the mood up, but when they played dope, 13 -thirteen-, Love Is Dead and Damned in a row I was on Cloud nine. I enjoyed in vain and Devils' Parade, but Abyss got me a little distracted from the show, as I hadn’t paid it all that much attention when listening to MONSTERS. Lost in re:birth wasn’t my favourite song either, but Hollow got me back on track again. I was more than happy listening to Human-clad monster and REDEEMER, and then Abel to Cain made me go wild. The encore with forbidden, TRICKSTeR and MIRROR was great, but I felt a bit unsatisfied with the lack of Reddish. Both me and Taitti were all “So when will we see D’espairsRay again?” afterwards and were sad to read about the break they are taking after this tour. But as long as Hizumi will get his vocal cords in shape again it’s all good. Thank you for the amazing show again, D’espairsRay!

~♥~

I’ve actually been a bit depressed lately, probably due to the shortening days of autumn. I’ve been forced to wake up at 5:40 a.m. for way too many mornings in a row and it’ll only get worse after the (heavenly!) autumn break of 11 days starting next Thursday. Technically we aren’t allowed to eat anything in our classroom at school, so I’ll have to start having breakfast at home rather than just taking my morning tea and sandwiches with me when I leave the house. This means that I’ll have to wake up at 5:20 practically every weekday morning. I do not approve of this! Well, I can’t really complain since I was the one to decide I’d go to school so far away from home, but still. >.<''

Okay, enough of that rant for now. If I won’t update my blog too frequently from now on it’s just that I’m depressed and tired, that’s all. But! On to nicer subjects!

Dad bought me the cutest bottle of champagne ever!

(Sorry for the bad photo – as always. x3) Look, my Nicolas Feuillatte is wearing a pink winter coat! Just how cute is that? :D Now all I need is a pink coat with white fur for myself and a chihuahua with a matching outfit and I’m all set for a very chic New Year’s party or something. xD

Also, I got a gorgeous pocket watch from my dad! He already had one that used to belong to his uncle or grandfather, so he gave the other one to me. :D

*____* I don’t know where I’m going to wear it, but its cool. A great piece of accessory for a gothic photo shoot, don’t you think? I just need a chain for it…

~♥~

Last Friday was an exciting one. ;) Zara totally got me a heart-attack by texting me that she had got this:

My Miki in Budokan! *q* I left the house in the morning thinking that my life would be complete once I would get my hands on my new baby in the evening. But before that, I had to visit two museums with the other first-year artisan students from our school and then spend the afternoon in Helsinki with Taitti. We were going to buy some new Neopikos from Stockmann, since they had the big sales (Hullut päivät), but decided against it in the end. I bought some stuff for school, the seventh volume of Vampire Knight manga and, you got it right, nail polish. *sigh* I was only going to get myself a new base coat, but then I got my eyes on this:

OPI Kinky in Helsinki! (VERY inaccurate photo colour-wise. It’s much more… not-red IRL, more like magenta. Go Google it, it’s a pain to capture on camera but I’ll try again tomorrow with natural light.) My face was probably something like this: O________________O when I spotted the display next to all the other OPI polishes. My limited-edition-obsessed mind forced me to buy a bottle without stopping to think about it for one second. Luckily I’m absolutely loving it on my nails. ♥__♥

Now on to the curious case of Miki in Budokan. I went to see Zara straight from Helsinki and had to do a lot of self-restraining in order not to drool all over the package during the ten-minute train trip to Sello where my parents picked me up on their way to the grocery store. Once I was finally home, I went straight upstairs and plugged in the VCR. It was at this point that I realized what a huge failure of a nerd I am. The Japanese have their videos in NTSC format whereas our VCR can only play PAL videos. All I saw on the TV screen was a white mess and the sound was too slow and overall weird. I must have flipped because at first I couldn’t do anything but laugh so hard at myself for being an idiot and then I started to frantically search the net for any information on how to get my hands on a VCR that can play NTSC videos. So far it has proven to be quite difficult, but I’ll try searching through flea markets and recycling centres when I find the time. Gosh I wish I had more intelligence in my brain…

~♥~

Well, I could keep on ranting about my angst for the whole night, but I guess it would be unhealthy for me and very unpleasant to my readers, so maybe I’ll just keep all the gory details of how the Tarja/Nightwish-deal still gets me depressed to myself. Hopefully I’ll have a nicer post for you next time. (There’ll probably be some major Mizu!fangirling, since I’ve ordered myself a few new things from Japan~ :D

Until then, dears! ♥

P.S. DAMNIT, if only I had waited for 21 more minutes to publish this… I didn’t realize 10/10/10 at 10:10 would happen twice if you’re using a.m./p.m. time format. >.<''

P.P.S. I’ve got to do this now so that I won’t forget…

I got this Beautiful Blogger Award from Zara. I have to share seven facts about myself and then tag seven people to do the same. I’ll tag all my readers, because I don’t like to spam people’s comment boxes with things like this, even though this is a nice award and everything. :'3

1. I feel like a failure. Mostly because, even though I’m studying to become an artisan, I feel like I have no direction in my life and I get absolutely nothing done.

2. I’ve inherited a tendency to get depressed during the darker months of the year from my mom.

3. I’ve also inherited her genes that allow me to eat practically anything and still stay thin.

4. I always try very hard to please other people and I sometimes get all worked up because I can’t please everyone at the same time.

5. I tend to get some sort of an identity crisis every other month or so, due to an obsession or the previous fact.

6. I feel like I’ve failed in English again in this post and it bothers me very much, as always.

7. I’m a procrastinator and a perfectionist. NOT a good combination, I can tell you. I always get depressed over things I haven’t done but it doesn’t make me do them any faster. *ahem* driving lessons, taiji and student card *ahem*

Rising from the Dead

Hiya all! Ahem, after three months of silence, I’ve finally gotten around to bringing this blog (and my Internet person :'D) back to life. I wonder if it’s got less to do with feeling guilty for neglecting my dear readers or the fact that I’m actually supposed to be preparing for the last two baccalaureal exams at the moment… ^^'' This post probably won’t be a long one, since it’s going to take several long entries to get you guys back on track with my life. …Not that there’d been many changes in my life worth writing about, I’ve been a bit depressed and overall lifeless during the past two months, but I’ve got a good amount of goods to show you all, including about fifteen nail polishes, if I remember right. I’ll have a huge post (or two) of materialism on the way, starting with Christmas presents. Gosh it’s great to be three months behind schedule. >.>''

Okay, here’s a brief explanation of what’s been going on in my life lately. As I already mentioned, I’m currently in the middle of the last half of my baccalaureal exams. I’ve had a ‘studying holiday’, during which I’ve mostly done nothing and more nothing, tried my best to avoid anything related to school books and watched some twenty episodes of Battlestar Galactica. (The whole season one plus the first two DVDs of season two… The first half of the fourth season doesn’t really count since I’m watching it with my parents.) I’ve kinda just been waiting for this period of my life to be over. Very creative. :__D I’m looking forward to going to Lapland with my parents in two weeks and a week after that I’m off to Rome with my grandmother. <3

Concerning my appearance… No huge changes, but the fringe has been back for awhile now. (It’s been a year since I last had my fringe cut… And since I started this blog! I should do a celebration post!)

It’s been some six weeks since I got a haircut and I’d have to go and have the fringe trimmed again soon if I’m going to keep it short… The problem is that if I’m going to get a new haircut, I might end up with a hair like this:

(Lol, possibly the worst photomanipulation ever xD) …I’m pretty much convinced that something like that would be a perfect summer cut for me. Oh God, I can see myself having my hair cut that short and regretting it right after two days or so. So long hair it is, until graduation at least. :'3

And here are my current nails, OPI Sapphire in the Snow with OPI base & top coat. I’ve broken two nails and repaired another two with super glue and a piece of coffee bag.

It’s a much darker colour than I had anticipated. it actually looks a lot more violet in the bottle but comes out as a very dark blueish violet on the nail. Direct light brings out the violet better. I’m wearing two coats in the photo, if I remember right. ^^

Well, I guess that’s all for now, just wanted to let you now that I’m alive! I probably should do a celebration post for my 1-year-old blog… It could come out in the form of that huge post of materialism or as a post where I answer my readers’ questions. Any ideas? I’ll answer any questions anyway, so just ask!

See you soon~

Love, Hetha

*Insert an interesting title here*

My brain is pretty empty right now and I don’t know why. I’m going through a nice variety of emotions and I keep switching my thinking language between Finnish, English, Swedish and French, which is confusing to say the least. I’m a bit worried about next Wednesday because then I’ll have my English matriculation exam and my English isn’t really at it’s best right now. Well, I did get quite a good score from the listening comprehension (85/90) but I’m getting pretty worried about the grammar part. And judging by the first paragraph of this blog entry the essay part won’t be easy either. I fail. ;__;

I’ve been quite stressed over all the school work lately. The teachers just keep giving us too much homework and other projects and I’ve been feeling like I haven’t got any time of my own at all. And thus I’ve neglected almost all of my homework, which has made me feel guilty and unwilling to go to the classes. I’m quite proud of myself though; I haven’t skipped a single class since the beginning of the semester. Go me!

Last Tuesday I was so fed up with my teachers and all the things they make us do that I simply decided to do nothing at all. It didn’t make me feel better but at least it didn’t make me feel worse. Because that would have been too much. I spent the night staring at my computer screen, mostly Takarazuka videos on YouTube. The same angst and unwillingness to do anything went on on Wednesday, too, but I guess I was already feeling slightly better. Thursdays are always the worst and the most tiring days but on yesterday evening I felt very good and relaxed. Amazing, isn’t it, what little things like dancing can do. I got slightly too relaxed though; I couldn’t sleep. >.<’’

Today I’ve come across quite a few not so cheerful things from wrist cutting to suicide. Depression and stress seem to appear in about everyone’s life lately. It makes me feel sick. I find myself trying to keep away from the bad things, trying not to empathize with them. But that’s almost even more scary; ignorance isn’t really my thing and the numbness that follows makes me scared of losing all my feelings. To make matters worse, I watched a bit of a 9/11 memorial documentary. My mom, who actually isn’t in high spirits either, asked me why I was watching such a depressing thing. I couldn’t answer; I know that I sometimes watch such things to remind myself of the bad things in life (and when I do it feels masochistic) but right now I have no reason to do so.

I should go to sleep already; I’ll have to be at school from 9 to 12 tomorrow, studying Swedish. And then I’m going to Helsinki with Taitti to check out some kind of a manga event. ^^ To end this post on a positive note, I’ll tell you about a dream I saw last night. I wasn’t in the dream myself but I saw a dark gothic castle. There, in a hall, was count Dracula or some other older aristocratic vampire with his servant. The servant told the count something about a woman’s corpse floating in a river by the castle. The count looked out of a window, said something like ‘There’s no sun at this time of night’ and got outside laughing mischievously. Pretty random, but I’m not complaining as long as it’s about vampires.

And lastly, here’s a bit crappy photo of my current nails:

School stole my spare time

Yeah, school started. >__>'' It’s been only a week and a half and I’m pretty much dead already. So much work to do. Well, things will probably get a bit easier in about four weeks or so when the exams are over. I can cope until then, right?

I’ve been doing my Swedish homework so my brain doesn’t really compute in English right now. :''D Got to update my blog now anyway, when I have the time. I was going to update last weekend but then I didn’t have the time or the energy to do it. Now then, on with the show!

Last Friday I was in the Night of the Arts with my family. Mom just decided out of the blue that she wanted to see the performance of les Plasticiens Volants and so we headed to Senate Square. We were there at around 9 p.m. so we had plenty of time to decide where we wanted to stand. Later on there were so many people that they didn’t even fit to the square.

Not all that many people yet. :—D Only the stairs are crowded.

The performance itself was great. My pocket camera (or my photographing skills for that matter) wasn’t at its best when I desperately tried to take photos of the giant floating sea creatures… Luckily enough, I managed to find some settings with which I could take decent photos in the dark. Most of them were unfocused, but I thought I’d show you a few anyway. ^^

(Click for larger pic, as always.) This was the first thing we saw. Sorry for the bad quality, I just wanted to show how amazingly detailed these things were… All those paintings and everything… *-*

These things were so funny! Notice also the little boy sitting on his dad’s shoulders… He has a cool dragon-like hat. :D

Here’s a more overall-ish photo of the three first creatures… I was dumb and took way too many photos at hte begining of the show; my camera’s battery died in the middle of the show. >.<''

This was probably the coolest of them all in my opinion. The photo is smudgy and dark but in real life this was extremely detailed and beautifully painted. *-* And huge too!

I just love all kinds of interesting performances. I’ve probably inherited that from my parents; my dad especially loves things like modern circus and big shows (Cirque du Soleil etc.).

On Saturday I met some of the members of Versailles’ Street Team Finland. I was being shy most of the time but I got new friends anyways. ^^ I was pretty much brain-dead when I got back home but I managed to take a few photos of myself anyways. :''D

These are the clothes I was wearing… Not vampire-y (:''D) enough for the occasion, but… :''D (Honestly, sorry for failing in writing today. >.<'') Posing, anyone? x) And sorry for the lack of shoes. Notice my Turtlez-toed socks (what my cousin calls them). :'3

I also took a few photos of my face featuring my hand to show off my nails, and then some photos with ‘theater make-up’ on but those aren’t really worth publishing. ^^

I’ve been having this strange Finnish pop period. :''D I’ve realized that some Finnish songs actually have very good lyrics… I totally love how some lyrics go so well with my life. This of course applies to all songs, not just Finnish ones. Queen, Sting etc. *-* … I suddenly got the urge to listen Hinder’s Lips of an Angel… *______*

…Two weeks is too long a break from blogging. Too much has happened, small things that I’ve been meaning to share with you… Well, you’re probably too bored to read my all too long posts anyway. 8D

I’ve been told that I look like a ballerina… This has happened twice during the past week. I’m flattered, of course, though I have to disagree with those comments. Ballerinas, dancers and gymnasts are usually pretty easy to recognize due to their perfect posture, confident yet delicate appearance and the graceful way they move. Sure, I’d like to look like them but I guess people just associate the fact that I don’t seem to have basically anything around my ribs with the slender figure of a ballerina. o.O My posture is anything but confident or perfect. I started showdance again, though, so maybe I’ll someday actually look like a dancer. : D *is hopeful*

With that, I’m off to do my nails. ^^ See you again as soon as possible.

Music, please!

Because I need to listen to something. Other than that, that title doesn’t have anything to do with this post. ^^

I feel like I’m mentally unstable at the moment. I thought writing would help so I’m updating my blog. I’m feeling down and get upset over every little thing that goes wrong. It must have something to do with the fact that I haven’t seen any of my friends in a week or so. I really need to learn to just grab that phone and call someone. My family has been bugging me about it, too, when I mentioned that there hasn’t been much going on in my life. Well, after next Tuesday I will call someone. Definitely. Unless someone calls me first. ^__~

Why only after next Tuesday, then? Because I already have plans for the weekend. From tomorrow on I’ll officially be a godmother. Whee, I’m so excited! But at the same time I’m so nervous. I’m not so sure if I’m ready to be an adult yet, having so much responsibility… It’s a scary thought in a way. People trust me and I’ll show them that I am trustworthy.

I'm heading off to my own godparents’ summer cottage on Sunday. I’m so happy about that, too! I used to spend a lot of time there a few years back but last year we only went there once. It’s been almost eleven months since I was there and I was getting worried about it. I thought something had happened and that we wouldn’t be welcome anymore. Luckily, I was wrong. I’ll be there at least till the next Tuesday, so you probably won’t hear much of me before that. They do have Internet over there, though, so you’ll never know…

My little sister is heading off to Jersey for a language course and I’m guessing it’s going to get a lot more quiet and peaceful over here. I can already hear the pressing silence. Someone please save me! (LoL) And I bet that all of my friends have plans for days when I’m at home and the other way round. –__-

Hmm. This post won’t be as long as the two previous ones. I’ll have to wake at 4:30 am to see my little sister off. If someone happens to be at the airport at 5 o’clock in the morning, do come to say hi to me! :P

Let’s finish this post with a nail polish photo! OPI Yoga-ta Get This Blue as promised.

Not a very summery colour, this one. I guess this would be my perfect blue but somehow I’m not really feeling that. A bit too cold for summer, don’t you think? Rationally thinking this should be my favourite nail polish ever; I would have killed for this one a few years back but now… I guess I’ve moved back over to the red side. Maybe in the next winter, when the slight tan has disapeared from my hands, I’ll spend my time marvelling over this perfect blue against my pale skin. Or actually, maybe I’m just sad because I cut my nails a bit and can’t feel any love for them at the moment… Or then it’s only because of that monopolizing I’m Not Really A Waitress. I shouldn’t have tested this polish yet anyway. Blue nails probably won’t go too well with my pink dress. (Yes, still wearing it. I tried to make a new dress, a blue one at that, for Kat’s graduation but it turned out so hideous I can’t wear it. I guess that after tomorrow I’ll have about 10 months to make a dress for my own graduation… Or maybe I’ll just make something for my dad’s 50th birthday in September…)

I knew it, writing did help! I’ve all but forgotten my previous anxiety. My parents are very sceptical about the usefulness of having a blog but they are wrong. ^^ Even when there aren’t too many people reading this, it’s nice to write. And with a couple or readers insisting that I keep updating I can’t just dump the whole thing like I did with most of my diaries.

Good night now, I’ll be back in town on Tuesday at the earliest. (Unless I decide to update tomorrow…) Till then, dearies! ♥

P.S. Sorry, I just had to add this… I’ve somehow started to drool over a Vivienne Westwood necklace. (This one.) What’s wrong with me, wanting something so expensive? ;;__;; But it’s so pretty~! If someone wants to get me a birthday present… ;P

Summerrrr is here!

It has been such a lovely day~! It was really warm outside, the best weather ever to start the summer. WARNING: I fail in English in this post. –___-''

Today I went to school for one hour and now I have eleven weeks of freedom ahead! I enjoyed the beautiful weather by going to two graduation parties with my family. I got some colour on my face and hands but most people wouldn’t be able to see any difference. My skin is so pale that it usually gets burned if I stay in sun for more than ten minutes at a time. Am I a vampire or what? x) Here’s a photo of the dress I was wearing. I bought it in 2005 and it still fits semi-well. But I promised myself this would be the last time wearing it.

The pic is small but there’s not too much to see anyway.

Sorry for the lack of updates, btw. ^^' I’ve been really worn out because of all the school stuff at the end of the semester. Tests and portfolios and everything… And two weeks ago I noticed my weight had dropped by about two kg. I obviously got very worried since my body mass index has always been too low and now it was only 15,6. ;;___;; I kinda got over that the next day though because I know my weight varies quite much depending on the time of the day and the things I eat. Just as I thought I had nothing to worry about I got sick. Last Saturday I woke up at 6:30 to throw up. I won’t go into details here and I’ll just say that I threw up far too many times to count until 9 p.m. May 23rd 2009 went straight up to my list of worst days of my life this far. (Now I’ll skip all the angst I still had left and move on to brighter things.) The next day we went to Lahti to celebrate my Granny’s birthday. I was dead tired but not nauseated. It was a very nice party and to my very pleasant surprise my cousin asked me to be her son’s godmother! I’m so exited about that~!

I was going to write about Jean Michel Jarre’s concert two weeks ago but it kinda slipped from my mind when all the previously mentioned things happened. The concert was great, obviously, full of lazers and cool effects. I could feel my whole body resonate to the beat of the bass and we only sat on row 32! JMJ really knows how to throw a great show! You can read his own thoughts about the tour here and about the gig in Helsinki here. Of course I had to buy the tour t-shirt. Here’s a pic:

It’s so cool! And it fits better than any other band shirt I’ve bought. Well, the shape of my Queen musical shirt would probably beat this one if it was slightly longer. And this one is maybe a tiny bit too tight. But who cares, I love this!

I went to Lahti again last Thursday, this time to see Carmina Burana. It’s a great piece, if you ask me, though I got a feeling that I’ve been listening to it a bit too much. It was great anyway. ^^

And now some nail polish swatches! I’ve got two pics for you. The first is what I’m currently wearing, the promised O.P.I. I’m Not Really A Waitress. (INRAW=In raw :P I admit it – I’m tired.)

L.O.V.E. this colour, even though I had problems photographing it.

And here’s L’Oréal Star Magnet Magnetic Silver:

I’m far from pro with this one! It was a nice experience, but I’ve already used half a bottle of this and I still can’t nail it (lol), I had to do a few nails multiple times to get a decent result. And there are some air bubbles too. ;;__;;

I guess that would be all for now. I’m hungry and tired. ;;__;; I hope I’ll have something to write about so that I can update again asap. ^^

Good news at the end of a long day

Whee! First of all I’m sorry for my belated update (as usual). I was going to make a post about my room on Sunday, since I finally managed to clean up here. As it turns out, I never actually had the time/energy/inspiration to take any photos, so you’ll have to wait for that one a little bit longer. I managed, however, to take a few pics of my nails, so you’ll see some golden nail polish later on this post. ^^

But now to the ggrrrreat news! Well, let’s start with something minor and only then move on to the real subject, ok? So, Gackt will be releasing four, yes, FOUR new singles in the upcoming summer to celebrate his 10-year-long career as a solo artist. Whee! This obviously wouldn’t be such minor news for me if I wasn’t waiting for the actual album to come out already. And if there wasn’t something even bigger on the horizon. But as it happens, there is something so great coming on. Okay, okay, I’ll get to the point already. D’espairsRay is coming to Finland and I’m going to see them! Yayy! I’ll have my mom buy tickets for me and Taina tomorrow and then I’ll be jumping on the walls for the whole weekend. The best plan ever, right? Oh, my family’s going to love this, I tell you. But after we get the tickets there’ll be the waiting for three months… Gah, how am I going to make it? O.O J-rock is my anti-drug (but not the only one, of course).

Huh, after all that hype it is time to tell you a little of my life at the moment. Not that there has been much changes in my life in the past… week or so, but since I know you love to have me write something that’s what I shall do.

About life in general: School is killing me most of the time, though I’m keeping up better than last year. (Probably has something to do with not having French lessons or something. ^^) I have seen two theater shows in the past ten days, both of which were really good. I guess the last time I was in a theater was about two years ago, so it was about time to go see something.

Creativity: I have some good ideas and inspiration, even, but I’m just too lazy to get anything done. >.<’’

So-called style: I’ve fallen in love with hime-gyaru fashion. The big hair. *-* And all the pink and white. *-* I fail as a vampire-lover from the dark side (Lol, never actually been even close to that! I’m too kind for that. :P). But c’mon, I’m supposed to be the one who doesn’t wear anything but black, white and crimson! ;;___;; Luckily I’m a person who isn’t loyal to just one certain style. I wear what I like. Great, so now with that decided I can show you my attempt at putting up my hair:

Hehe, ignore my messy room. ^^ Someday I’ll understand that it sometimes helps if you close the closet door. But about that hair. It was just something I tried to do, a bit of tesing and about three hair pins, no hairspray or anything. My hair always looks best just before I go to bed. And the next morning – no chance of getting it to look even ok. –____-" I see I managed to hide my face pretty well in this photo. Yayy, mission completed!

And now to the golden nails as promised:

Just for the fun of it! Two coats, this Mavala 37 Gold is quite transparent and maybe a bit too yellowish for me. I bought this one for my school’s ball a few moths back. Lasted on my nails well for about four days. ^^

I guess I’ve already mentioned my love for the nail blogs? Nowadays I would just love to go and buy myself a few dozen nail polishes, but I’m a bit too rational to do that. (Weird, I’d never have believed the word rational applied to me in any way. o.o) I have decided to buy a few new ones, though. I’ll have my dad order me a few Konads, because I just have to try them out. ^^

And it will be May Day next week! We’ll have a dress-up 'party' at school the next Thursday and I’ll have to come up with something nice to wear… Maybe I’ll find inspiration in hime-kei and my Gothic&Lolita magazines. ^^

Bye for now and maybe I’ll have a post about my room for you next time. This post has to end with a ^^

Life after Easter holidays

Wow, it's been two weeks since I updated last time. o.o Sorry about that. My life's kinda boring, so there usually isn't too much to write about. :P

I was in Lapland for four days last week, mainly snowboarding. Whee! ^w^ I was dead tired almost every day though, and I just can't see why. Too much sleeping maybe...

This is going to be a boring entry due to the lack of photos. (Wow, seriously, that sure got you interested, didn't it?) Except if I miraculously happen to find some random photos from my camera...

Haha! Found one. This is a good chance to advertise my mom's cousin's t-shirts, found here.


Yeah, I know, I look dead. But hey, it's about 7:30 in the morning, can you blame me? The t-shirt is a part of the Young Lovers limited edition 'Midnight Twilight' collection and it's called 'Vampire Meets the Hound'. I love it. ^^ <3 Go see the website; there are better photos and lots of other cool designs! /End of the advertisement.

Now getting on... So I spent my holiday in Olos, which is one of the best places for your Easter holidays. I happened to be in the same hotel with our Foreign Minister Alexander Stubb and his family and Aino-Kaisa Saarinen, Finland's leading female skiier (I have no idea if that's the official way to put it. ^^)

By the way, I am now officially hooked to nail blogs. ^^'' I've been staring all those beautiful pictures of people's nails and reading about different nail polishes, and thus I just had to buy myself a new bottle of polish. I bought L'Oréal's Star Magnet magnetic silver, which turned out to be a success. No pics yet though, sorry! It's a bit tricky to use, so I must practice a little more before taking any photos. I think I'll have to buy another bottle, maybe another colour, because it is a limited edition nail polish and I don't want it to end! :P (And here I was trying to save money... ;;___;;)

I want to buy too many things. .___.'' There's that trinity Blood 7 manga that never showed up in stores before I bought vol. 8, then the Trinity Blood DVDs, a Konad nail art set and Jennifer Rardins's Jaz Parks books. And some clothes... That's so going to hurt my wallet.

I'm not sure if there has been enough pointless rant up until now, so I'll give you a little more random trivia. I've finished the Breaking Dawn audio book for the second time. Or was it the third...? Well, anyways, I've finished it. And now I would like to start again. It's actually very relaxing to listen to someone reading. Except, of course, when there happens something nasty in the book that is being read... (The middle part of Breaking Dawn, couple of seriously painful chapters there!)

Well, that's about it. I already decided that I will handle this spring better than the last one but that's easier to say than do. I'm already feeling the stress loading up... But tomorrow is Friday and then I'll be able to enjoy the weekend. Everything's going to be fine. *assuring herself*