A kiss while your lips are still red

Hiya all! I’m supposed to be sleeping but instead I’m just sitting here staring at my screen so thought I’d quickly update my blog. :3

My week has been… confusing, to say the least. I got my swine flu vaccination on Tuesday and thus was sick on Wednesday. My arm was terribly sore up until yesterday and I was in a bad mood. I even skipped my morning lessons on Friday just because I felt depressed. And today I’ve been hyper. :''D It’s the rollercoaster of emotions again.

But now to the point! I thought I’d post a random image of my face since I haven’t posted any of those in a while. x3 Here we go, a random lipstick experiment:

Sorry for the crappy quality! :'D The length of a day is less than six hours at this time of the year so I really haven’t had much of a chance to take photos with natural light. Crappy photo is crappy. Oh well, at least you got to see my face. :'D

Aaaaaand here’s my main reason for doing this post:

I did my nails today! ^^ I actually wanted to do something vampire-inspired but instead ended up with these Christmas-y nails. :'3 Used Lumene’s Dancing Waves and O.P.I I’m Not Really A Waitress plus Mavala’s base coat. And I’ve run out of top coat so none was used. :__D (Dunno why I just got Gackt- ahem, sorry, GACKT’s Arittake no ai de on my mind… I want to wrap you in my love or something like that… I wrapped my nails in love? o.O Maybe they represent love… Ok, wtf am I rambling about? xD)

On with the show! I finally got a proper mirror in my room! here’s another crappy photo:

Ta-dah! xD How did my face dissapear in the light so conveniently? xD And the photo is so straight that I could cry… :__D

I just had to draw this up quickly on the other day. :__D Describes perfectly how I look while watching Mizu videos. x3 Concentration: 100% (can’t say the same about the drawing process…)

Hmm was that all? :__D I really don’t know but it’s time for me to sleep. I’ll end this post with a quote of what someone wise once said:

The past is history, the future is a mystery, and this moment is a gift. That is why 'this moment' is called 'the present'.

Love in this club

Sorry for the lack of updates during November! There has been a lot going on in my life and it has caused me to neglect my dear blog. Well, I’m back now! Hopefully I’ll get to update more frequently from now on… I know I should concentrate solely on school during the next four months or so but that’s basically impossible. Luckily we’ll have our Christmas holiday in two weeks. I feel like I’m failing in writing here… Fortunately I have lots of photos for you so reading this won’t be such a huge pain. :3

As some of you already know, I turned eighteen last Sunday. Yay, I’m officially an adult now! (As far as law goes, that is. :''D) I haven’t had a chance yet to go out and party but I think I’ll have time for that a bit later. I invited some friends over to celebrate in advance on Friday and I really enjoyed it. Thanks girls! :3 Then my grandparents came over for the weekend and I got to eat the best chocolate cake in the world à la my grandmother. Bliss~! <3 On Sunday I sat in church for two hours and then we went to eat in a restaurant. The highlight of my 18th birthday was supposed to be reading for my French test but I totally failed at that. :__D Ehm, but now, without further ado, here are my presents!

I got this huge book from my Godparents…

This rose…

…and this Tiger’s eye bracelet I got from my mom’s mother. (We call her Nonna because she is a fan of Italy.)

I got this espresso cup from my father’s parents. My granny had filled it with chocolate hearts. :3

And then *tum-de-dum* I got my first genuine pearl necklace from my parents. *_________* Ah, I’m in heaven! I was a bit worried that I wouldn’t be able to wear these a lot because Agoya pearls are pretty expensive, but mom said that pearls stay in better shape if they are being worn often. You can believe that I haven’t really been wearing any other jewelry during this past week. :''D

 

 

 

 

 

From my other Godparents I got six roses, a champagne cooler and a woman’s law book. Thank you everyone for all the presents! I also got a drawing (which I can’t really keep anywhere in sight because it’s a bit yaoi-ish :''D) from Tia and a Gackt poster and a very special CD from Zara. :3 Thank you again!

Here’s my newest nail polish, Mavala 203 Night Club. The photo doesn’t do it justice. It’s actually a lot more fuchsia than that. It’s not completely opaque, though, and I even used three coats here. I like it quite much anyways; it really turns on the party mode. ;D

And here’s my Christmas calendar~ :D Mom always buys me a Unicef calendar. No chocolate, but there has never been any chocolate calendars in our family. I don’t mind.

Here’s what I bought today. A black/electric blue dress (sorry for the bad light, you can’t really make out the colours at all) from Seppälä. My sister said that it’s not short enough but I’m not used to wearing short dresses or skirts. :''D I would feel naked if this was any shorter than it already is. Sorry for the weird pose, by the way. x) I don’t know what’s going on…

Here’s something extra for you! It’s a bit random, but I just remembered a photo shoot I had a few years back… I seem to have a habit of wearing dresses with a high ponytail and pink nails. :'3

I’ve always been so skilled at taking photos and posing. If someone figures out the concept of this photo, I’d like to hear it too! xD

P.S. I noticed a mistake in my previous post. :''D Obviously, ‘Busted’ wasn't my shortest blog title. ‘Fail’ is even shorter. :'3

Busted

The shortest blog title yet, yay!

Ehehee, my parents found out about the DVD… :___D Luckily I didn’t get yelled at (as of yet, that is) but mom seemed to be disappointed… I hate disappointing my parents but sometimes it just can’t be avoided. But dad disappointed me first, so I’d say we’re even now. :3 Mom’s reaction kind of made me feel bad, otherwise yesterday would have been about perfect. Thanks for a great Mizu-filled afternoon/evening Zara! <3 *-*

I did a little depression shopping on Monday. ^^'' I went to Sello (yeah, I really think that I’m turning into a masochist) in search of a new winter coat. After going through about three shops I gave up and went to look for a new pair of boots. I finally managed to find ones that fit and pleased my eyes. Here they are:

I’m usually not too fond of wrinkled things but these boots are tight enough, so I don’t mind. (Plus AQUA5, k-pop etc. have messed my mind so bad that I won’t be surprised when I find myself liking all kinds of things I couldn’t stand before…) I bought these from DinSko so I’m not expecting them to stay in good shape for too long… I had to spend some 60€ on these only. T-T My bank account is getting emptier by the minute.

I remembered that I needed a new foundation and ended up buying a new nail polish, a white eyeliner and a very thin brush for doing nail art. These were 27,80€ in total. From a local market, nothing too special but good enough for me. ^^

And here’s what I bought today! I went to buy a CD for my dad (we’re celebrating Father’s Day tomorrow here in Finland) and ended up buying this new CD Strike by The Baseballs. I’ve been listening this for basically the whole evening and I am so in love! Rock on rockabilly~ I guess it isn’t a surprise that my love for the 50’s doesn’t limit to clothes, hair and cars but extends to music as well. *-*

And here are my über awesome Tooto-inspired nails. Made by Heta the five-year-old. >.<'' Used my black-ish Nivea nail polish (that I haven’t showed you here yet o.O'') as the base and then a weird grayish GOSH polish to make the silvery parts (oh my Gackt how my English is failing me… T-T) and when I got the new silver nail polish and the small brush I painted the thin silver lines to separate the black and grey. At first I didn’t like these nails at all and just wanted to paint my nails red but then I kind of started to like these after all. (I’m going to start crying soon if my sentences don’t get any better than this. Brain=empty.)

Um, well, since my brain seems to be pretty dead already I could show you a video that completely threw me out of balance the other day. I was at school having a free period and decided to check if there were any new Mizu videos on YouTube. Well, there was this one particular DVD commercial that almost made me cry right there.

OMG. *__________* Seriously, Mizu is too hot and she certainly makes me do evil things to my wallet. God I want that DVD. My soul cries blood. I’m so glad that I’ll be 18 when it’s released, makes buying it easier… It’s scary how Mizu has become such a necessity for me. “Not a want but a need” as they sing in High School Musical… XD Mizu Natsuki is the hottest drug ever. (The DVD on TCA website)

Ahem, how did I end up hyperventilating again? It seems like I can’t make one Mizu-less post anymore… Someone needs to pull me back from clouds. “Earth to Heta, Earth to Heta-” “I’m sorry Sir but I think we have lost the contact. She seems to be out of range already- Ah, wait! I just got a message that she passed Pluto a couple of minutes ago. I’m afraid there’s nothing more we can do for her, poor soul.” :___D Some NASA people are having conversations in my head. XD

Oh yeah, I almost forgot! I got a memory stick full of pics of all kinds of historical & vintage dresses and clothes and thus I’m full of ideas for new sewing projects! (As if I didn’t already have enough of those… >.<'') I hope that I’ll manage to get something done tomorrow…

Total brain lag again, better end this here before things get any more random and messy than they already are. See you later! I’m waiting for your comments, as always~

I’ve died and gone to Heaven

…or maybe this is Yomi no sekai (land of the dead in Takarazuka’s Elisabeth).

Warning! This post is full of completely brainless Takarazuka/Elisabeth/Tooto/Mizu Natsuki fandom. No need to read if this irritates you. Otherwise have fun reading about how my brain decided to melt and pour out through my ears.

I tried to write about this calmly, but it simply doesn't seem to be possible. Sorry~

ADFHJSAGHDFAS!!! I finally got ‘em! Both of ‘em! *_________________________* On Thursday morning around 9:35 o’clock I came from my mother tongue class to find Ida, Zara and a couple of other Mursus (=people I hang around with at school… mursu = walrus… Don’t ask! XD) hanging around in our school’s so-called net café. I noticed a small plastic bag in Ida’s handbag but ignored it thinking that I couldn’t be so lucky as to finally get my Elisabeth CD. I sat there chatting with people when I suddenly noticed Ida and Zara whispering something to each other and instantly thought that there was something going on. Then Ida pulled out the plastic bag and I almost screamed out loud. Not only did I get the Elisabeth CD I was waiting for but there was the DVD also! *_________________* I just couldn’t believe my luck, those evil people (xD) at the German musical store had told Ida that they would be getting more DVDs in 8-12 weeks and yet there it was with the CD. Needless to say I spent the rest of the day hyperventilating and guarding my bag as if my life depended on it. And now I know that these people who dare to call themselves my friends are actually sadists who are trying to kill me by doing everything they can to cause me a heart attack. XD Not really, I love these people! <3 I hope they all had fun watching me completely lose my mind.

Okay, on with the good stuff! Here be a couple of photos of my precious:

Shiny objects are shiny and hard to photograph. :__D Sorry for the small size but I think that a) our dear Takarazuka would prefer it that way and b) Mizu-Tooto’s hotness would completely melt your brains too if the photos were any bigger than they are now. :3 Here comes the basic description of what I got (from left to right ^^): Takarazuka Elisabeth (2007 Snow Troupe version) double DVD w/ a beautiful shiny booklet and a lovely ‘How to use this DVD’ card with Mizu on it (goin to my wall somewhere near the Russian Blue/Rio de Bravo flyer I got from Ryu <3) and Takarazuka Elisabeth (2007 Snow Troupe version) double CD w/ a lovely shiny booklet. *3* Both the CD and the DVD include the full musical with final numbers and everything plus the DVD includes a bonus track of the musical’s rehearsals and the possibility to watch some scenes from a different angle (concentrating on one of the actresses). Lots of Mizu angles. *3* No, I won’t admit anything! Especially nothing concerning Mizu practicing Yami ga hirogaru otokoyaku dance number in a blouse and tight pants… Those hips… *dies at the thought*

Ehm, where was I? Did I have something more to add? I just managed to empty my brain again (or what’s left of it anyway). :''D This isn’t good for my concentration at school… Just when I thought I was getting better at maths again… Obsessions are so dangerous. Oh, I can’t wait to get some people to come over to my house to watch Elisabeth and drool all over the living room’s floor~. (Next Friday, Zara! *3* <3) I’m doing my best to get everyone around me addicted to this. :''D Maybe this post’s title should have been ‘Back to square one’ or something, because I’m kind of doing the exact same thing I did last June. Back then I managed to get Zara hooked *mischievous laughter* *hugs Zara* and now I’ve pretty much won Ani over, too (wasn’t all that hard with Tooto being a bit vampire-like character with a powerful voice). :3 Taitti and Niina are goin down soon, too, I’m sure of that. People who already love these mysterious beautiful characters, long silver hair and cool costumes won’t be hard to convince. >:3 Boo-hoo, now I feel like a horrible, selfish person. T-T And I also feel that I’m writing something totally random and unnecessary… Okay, before moving on I’ll just thank Siru for posting Ryu’s and Ayu’s Tooto/Elisabeth/Rudolf cosplays and a few Elisabeth videos which got me addicted. :3 And thanks Ryu and Ayu for amazing costumes!

Gah, I just realized that I was supposed to get to the point when I started that previous paragraph. :____D FAIL. Okay, now, what’s rockin’ my world besides der Tod? I’d like to do Tooto nails right now. (Lol, failed at changing the subject. XD) I need some silver & glittery nail polish. And I’ve got *ahem* a couple of inspirations. :''D I know your just dying to get a list, so here goes:

1. Sewing: a victorian dress, a corset, a dress shirt… Was that all? Ah, one more; a black vest (pinstripe?)

2. Knitting: a white beanie or a beret

3. Jewelry: cameo jewelry, some silver rings made of silver wire and some beads etc.

4. Decorative stuff: nail decorations, cellphone charms (like cupcakes etc.)…

5. That gothic manor dollhouse!

It certainly seems like I’ve got a lot of projects… Mom hates me for never finishing anything… ;__; (Being addicted to Facebook games & Gaia Online’s halloween event doesn’t really help. x3)

Wow, now I’m exhausted! I guess it’d be best if I just finished here… Sorry for all the fandom, craziness and overall randomness. Thumbs up for those who actually got around to reading the whole thing. ^3^ Lots of love & kisses to you all!

Oh, and Happy Halloween by the way! :3

Always Obsessed

Creativetitles.com :''D

Ahem, I always suck at getting to the point…

It’s been two weeks again, sorry for that! ^^ Here’s a brief version of what’s been going on in my life in these past two weeks:

1. I was being shy at Tsukicon with Zara (stalking people we know from the net, bloggers and such…). I tried to wear fake nails for the first time in my life and that… Well, let’s just say it wasn’t a very successful experiment. :''D

2. I’ve been a bit sick, a typical post-stress reaction or something.

3. I learned that the German shop I was ordering my Elisabeth DVD from has run out of copies so I’ll have to wait for 8-12 weeks 'til I’ll get it. T-T But hopefully I’ll get the CD early next week.

4. Umm… And yeah, as the title indicates, I’ve got myself obsessed in various “new” things. Or rather my old obsessions have expanded. (… Brain lag, I’m watching V-ROCK FESTIVAL and they’re showing Aoi’s performance atm. *-* …) My Phantom of the Opera fandom has got a new Takarazuka dimension and thus my Takarazuka fandom has got a new Wao Yoka dimension. *3* Which has lead to WaoHana fandom and to a renewal of my love for Victorian dresses. I can’t sleep because I only want to sew. But I suck at drawing patterns… It’s a dilemma. And my mom won’t buy me new fabrics until I finish my previous projects. T-T I suck at finishing things. Here’s a clip where you can (well, somewhat) see the dress I’d love to make:

(It’s the white one, in case you were wondering.) *3* I have absolutely no idea of where I’d wear a dress like that… Not at school obviously… Fancy throwing a ball, anyone?

Boohoo, I’ve got a feeling that this post is going to be a huge one… Sorry! XD

Nail status:

They’re short and yellow. T-T I really need to do something about them today… >___>''

Hair status:

(Lol, I look like a ghost >:D) A couple of experiments I’ve had with my shorter hair. For some reason I can’t keep from curling my hair these days. Shorter hair –> more volume, please!

Next subject… Helsinki Book Fair! *-* It’s been one of my favourite happenings of the year ever since I went there for the first time about seven years ago. I was a true book worm at the time and though I don’t read as much these days my love for books hasn’t faded. This year I went there with Taitti and Niina on Friday and then again with my mom on Saturday. Too many people, too much to see, too many books but I love it. This year it was “pappa betalar” (dad pays) for both me and mom. :____D It’s a good thing that my dad always supports our hobbies because otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to buy anything due to my poor financial status. :''D Anyways, here’s what I bought:

The things I bought on Friday are on top and Saturday’s findings are bellow. ^^ As you can see, I focused mainly on manga on Friday. I bought Love Celeb 1&2 in Finnish (*-* I can’t help loving the way Shinjo Mayu draws male characters…), Vampire Knight 5 in English and then that huge Comic Beam in Japanese (because it was only 5 euros and there seemed to be a few interesting chapters there… Now I just need to start practicing my Japanese :''D). On Saturday I got mom to buy me (or us) a book full of misheard lyrics. It’s hilarious! Mom also found a book about dollhouses and I encouraged her to buy it. I haven’t got around to reading it yet but it seems really beautiful and lovely. I bought J.R.Ward’s Dark Lover in Finnish for myself because it just happened to catch my attention and as it is about vampires I couldn’t help buying it. (Now I’m in trouble because I’m supposed to be reading a book for my mother tongue class but I would much rather read this vampire book… xP) I haven’t got any photos from the fair itself because I never remember to take any photos… >.<''

I know this is a mile long post already but I’ve got to share with you just one more thing. I got my tai chi sword on Thursday! Here:

(Lol at the pose x3) It’s a bit too simple (not decorated) for my taste but I guess it goes well with the tai chi ideology… It looks a bit too orange too… Well, who cares as long as I can start practicing the sword form in January. :3

I had something more to write about but (to all my readers’ luck) I forgot what it was. ^^'' So, until next time my friends! (If school doesn’t kill me first, that is…)

Um, oh yeah! (I promise I’ll make it short. :'3) About my obsessions… I’ve got myself totally hooked on Facebook games like FarmVille, Vampire Wars and Café World. :''D It’s a bit pitiful, staying up ‘til midnight watching how my virtual plants grow. :______D

And plus, I feel like I’d like to change this blog’s appearance… But I haven’t got any ideas! If you have any suggestions, please let me know! ^^

Fail

I meant to update my dear blog earlier today but instead I ended up watching Mizu videos again… :''D That’s because I bought a pair of new jeans last Monday and I wanted to take some photos of them to show to you. And now I’m a bit depressed because I look so ridiculous compared to Mizu-san. ;__; (Not a huge surprise now, is it? :''D)

Okay, first of all I’ve got no idea of how I managed to get that strap of hair there in the first photo. :''D I’m sorry for the crappy quality again, I’m still working on my photographing skills. ^^ Wonder why I never take any photos when it’s not too dark… Anyways, I finally managed to buy a pair of new jeans! Now that’s something to celebrate, last time I bought new jeans was on… 8th grade or something? I can’t even remember. :''D (I’m totally overusing that smile btw… >.<'') I was in Helsinki with Zara last Monday and I told her I needed new jeans. I even said as a joke that insted of buying something for about 60-70€ I’d end up finding a perfect fit for 150€. Why is it that I never know when to shut up? I went to Sello afterwards and decided to go and check the JC store there. A kind shop assistant brought about seven pairs of jeans for me to try on and I must say I was getting a bit desperate when none of them fit well enough. Then I tried on what was to become the last pair and ta-dah, a perfect fit! The price? 139€ ;___; I ended up using double the amount of money I had reserved for the new jeans. Now I won’t be able to buy new shoes… Or a new winter jacket… T-T

My Gackt fandom has suffered slightly from my addiction to Takarazuka and Mizu (like almost all of my other fandoms) and I haven’t really been listening to Gackt’s music in a long time. Today I randomly started to listen to Crescent and oh my Gackt did I even remember why I love that CD so much. Mind forest & 君が待っているから. *_________* Please mister Gackt, release a new CD already! I’m getting slightly bored here, reading about all the new singles. A full album is what I need! (Oh, and I’ve spelled his name wrong here. In celebration of his 10 years as a solo artist he has decided to change his name slightly. From now on he is GACKT. Apparently he thinks that bigger artists need to spell their names with capital letters… :___D

Ehm, let’s get back to my Takarazuka/Mizu Natsuki/otokoyaku fandom. Why do I like this page of style-arena.jp/Tokyo New Tribe? *3* Waitresses dressed as men… … … My brain just died. Can’t think about anything clever to say about this… … Yep, all blank, sorry. ^^'' Let’s just say that I think that’s a great idea. I’ll definitely have to visit that place someday.

Apart from my identity crisis, my brain has been full of all kinds of ideas of what I could do. Everything from writing, drawing and sewing to decorating my phone and nails and making new jewelry. My latest inspiration is to make a gothic dollhouse. I’m not kidding, I’d really like to have a little vampire mansion in my room. A miniature version of my dream house. *3* I could make things by myself and buy some furniture… And it could have electricity too! Okay, I already have a dollhouse in my room, but that’s something my dad has made for me and my little sister when we were little and it kind of represents our house, so I can’t really turn it into a gothic manor… So I want to make a new one. This sounds like another one of those projects that I am very eager to start but never end up finishing. :''D But it would be cool~.

Hehe, I’ve been ranting quite much already but I’ve got to add just one more thing… My Elisabeth DVD + CD have been ordered! *__________* I just can’t wait to get them in my hands! I wish they’ll be in my friend’s mailbox before the autumn holiday… I already told my parents that I’ll have a movie night with Zara at some point so they won’t be too surprised when I tell them that I’ll reserve the living room for the night. And I learned that dad has ordered us a new stereo system. I can already feel the chills running down my spine when Mizu-Tooto starts to sing. *_________* … … … Now my brain died again at the thought. Well, I guess that was all anyways. See you later! ^^

Cutcutcut

First things first: Sorry for the lack of updates during these past… 3 weeks or something. :''D School has been killing me etc. so I hope you’ll understand.

I thought about making some kind of a hair history post but I decided against it after all when I went through some old photos… I guess I don’t go well with a camera.

Blah, I’ve written two random essays today and I wonder whether I’ve got anythig to say anymore. :'3 My brain has got some issues. Regarding school and Takarazuka. And I have an identity crisis. :__)

Well, on to the big news! My hair is short. D: And I don’t know how I can live with that. My family wouldn’t even have noticed the difference if I hadn’t pointed it out but to me it does matter when my hair is roughly 20 cm shorter than before. I thought I’d go for Tooto length but no. >.<'' It’s funny that I thought I hadn’t quite wrapped my head around the fact that my hair was so long but now when it’s shorter I’m totally on pins and needles. :''D

Okay, I know you want to see already. ;) (Sorry for the crappy webcam quality…)

Before…

After.

You see why I’m a bit freaked out right now? I wonder what my hair dresser will think when I come to her after a couple of months with a Tooto pic and tell her I want to have hair like that (without the blue parts though). :__D

And now that my hair is gone the next thing to cut will be the nails. Uh-oh, now I’m scared. :''D I just haven’t decided how short and what shape I want my nails to be. Too many options. I thought I would go with very short for once but after the hair cut that might be a bit too much…

I should be studying maths at the moment but, surprisingly, I’ve started a couple of new projects that I’d like to continue right now (such as der Tod fanvideo and a new visual style for my computer). :'3

Hmhmhm… If you have any suggestions for my nails or hair feel free to tell me! ^__^ I guess that’s all for now, see you again (soon, I hope)!

*Insert an interesting title here*

My brain is pretty empty right now and I don’t know why. I’m going through a nice variety of emotions and I keep switching my thinking language between Finnish, English, Swedish and French, which is confusing to say the least. I’m a bit worried about next Wednesday because then I’ll have my English matriculation exam and my English isn’t really at it’s best right now. Well, I did get quite a good score from the listening comprehension (85/90) but I’m getting pretty worried about the grammar part. And judging by the first paragraph of this blog entry the essay part won’t be easy either. I fail. ;__;

I’ve been quite stressed over all the school work lately. The teachers just keep giving us too much homework and other projects and I’ve been feeling like I haven’t got any time of my own at all. And thus I’ve neglected almost all of my homework, which has made me feel guilty and unwilling to go to the classes. I’m quite proud of myself though; I haven’t skipped a single class since the beginning of the semester. Go me!

Last Tuesday I was so fed up with my teachers and all the things they make us do that I simply decided to do nothing at all. It didn’t make me feel better but at least it didn’t make me feel worse. Because that would have been too much. I spent the night staring at my computer screen, mostly Takarazuka videos on YouTube. The same angst and unwillingness to do anything went on on Wednesday, too, but I guess I was already feeling slightly better. Thursdays are always the worst and the most tiring days but on yesterday evening I felt very good and relaxed. Amazing, isn’t it, what little things like dancing can do. I got slightly too relaxed though; I couldn’t sleep. >.<’’

Today I’ve come across quite a few not so cheerful things from wrist cutting to suicide. Depression and stress seem to appear in about everyone’s life lately. It makes me feel sick. I find myself trying to keep away from the bad things, trying not to empathize with them. But that’s almost even more scary; ignorance isn’t really my thing and the numbness that follows makes me scared of losing all my feelings. To make matters worse, I watched a bit of a 9/11 memorial documentary. My mom, who actually isn’t in high spirits either, asked me why I was watching such a depressing thing. I couldn’t answer; I know that I sometimes watch such things to remind myself of the bad things in life (and when I do it feels masochistic) but right now I have no reason to do so.

I should go to sleep already; I’ll have to be at school from 9 to 12 tomorrow, studying Swedish. And then I’m going to Helsinki with Taitti to check out some kind of a manga event. ^^ To end this post on a positive note, I’ll tell you about a dream I saw last night. I wasn’t in the dream myself but I saw a dark gothic castle. There, in a hall, was count Dracula or some other older aristocratic vampire with his servant. The servant told the count something about a woman’s corpse floating in a river by the castle. The count looked out of a window, said something like ‘There’s no sun at this time of night’ and got outside laughing mischievously. Pretty random, but I’m not complaining as long as it’s about vampires.

And lastly, here’s a bit crappy photo of my current nails:

School stole my spare time

Yeah, school started. >__>'' It’s been only a week and a half and I’m pretty much dead already. So much work to do. Well, things will probably get a bit easier in about four weeks or so when the exams are over. I can cope until then, right?

I’ve been doing my Swedish homework so my brain doesn’t really compute in English right now. :''D Got to update my blog now anyway, when I have the time. I was going to update last weekend but then I didn’t have the time or the energy to do it. Now then, on with the show!

Last Friday I was in the Night of the Arts with my family. Mom just decided out of the blue that she wanted to see the performance of les Plasticiens Volants and so we headed to Senate Square. We were there at around 9 p.m. so we had plenty of time to decide where we wanted to stand. Later on there were so many people that they didn’t even fit to the square.

Not all that many people yet. :—D Only the stairs are crowded.

The performance itself was great. My pocket camera (or my photographing skills for that matter) wasn’t at its best when I desperately tried to take photos of the giant floating sea creatures… Luckily enough, I managed to find some settings with which I could take decent photos in the dark. Most of them were unfocused, but I thought I’d show you a few anyway. ^^

(Click for larger pic, as always.) This was the first thing we saw. Sorry for the bad quality, I just wanted to show how amazingly detailed these things were… All those paintings and everything… *-*

These things were so funny! Notice also the little boy sitting on his dad’s shoulders… He has a cool dragon-like hat. :D

Here’s a more overall-ish photo of the three first creatures… I was dumb and took way too many photos at hte begining of the show; my camera’s battery died in the middle of the show. >.<''

This was probably the coolest of them all in my opinion. The photo is smudgy and dark but in real life this was extremely detailed and beautifully painted. *-* And huge too!

I just love all kinds of interesting performances. I’ve probably inherited that from my parents; my dad especially loves things like modern circus and big shows (Cirque du Soleil etc.).

On Saturday I met some of the members of Versailles’ Street Team Finland. I was being shy most of the time but I got new friends anyways. ^^ I was pretty much brain-dead when I got back home but I managed to take a few photos of myself anyways. :''D

These are the clothes I was wearing… Not vampire-y (:''D) enough for the occasion, but… :''D (Honestly, sorry for failing in writing today. >.<'') Posing, anyone? x) And sorry for the lack of shoes. Notice my Turtlez-toed socks (what my cousin calls them). :'3

I also took a few photos of my face featuring my hand to show off my nails, and then some photos with ‘theater make-up’ on but those aren’t really worth publishing. ^^

I’ve been having this strange Finnish pop period. :''D I’ve realized that some Finnish songs actually have very good lyrics… I totally love how some lyrics go so well with my life. This of course applies to all songs, not just Finnish ones. Queen, Sting etc. *-* … I suddenly got the urge to listen Hinder’s Lips of an Angel… *______*

…Two weeks is too long a break from blogging. Too much has happened, small things that I’ve been meaning to share with you… Well, you’re probably too bored to read my all too long posts anyway. 8D

I’ve been told that I look like a ballerina… This has happened twice during the past week. I’m flattered, of course, though I have to disagree with those comments. Ballerinas, dancers and gymnasts are usually pretty easy to recognize due to their perfect posture, confident yet delicate appearance and the graceful way they move. Sure, I’d like to look like them but I guess people just associate the fact that I don’t seem to have basically anything around my ribs with the slender figure of a ballerina. o.O My posture is anything but confident or perfect. I started showdance again, though, so maybe I’ll someday actually look like a dancer. : D *is hopeful*

With that, I’m off to do my nails. ^^ See you again as soon as possible.

Mizu stole my spare time

…Yeah, I’m still seriously obsessed and there’s no sign of change in that on the horizon. It just gets stronger and stronger every day. Yes, I had big plans of how I would read to the upcoming matriculation exams every day throughout the summer but then along came Mizu and all the plans flew out the window. ^^’’ It seriously worries me… Last semester my school work was practically ruined by yaoi and this semester seems to fall into pieces before it has even started, all because of the perfect Mizu Natsuki. And my wallet/bank account is feeling the pain, too. 200,90€ for a DVD and a CD and I couldn’t be more eager to get rid of the money right now! But I’m trying to do my best to not upset my parents, so I’ve got to do it the hard way. I’ll have dad buy me AQUA5’s CD from CDJapan with Versailles’ single ASCENDEAD MASTER as soon as he’s willing to do it though. One CD per month is the best Christmas present of mine these days, I just wish it would apply to DVDs that cost over 100€ and CDs that cost 64,95€… Well, life isn’t life without a few hardships, right? My guess is that someone’s trying to make me study instead of watching Elisabeth and thus making it basically impossible for me to get the DVD before the exams. It isn’t working very well though; that someone hasn’t taken YouTube into account.

Hmm, considering the length of the first paragraph I’m writing another novel here. ^^’’

I actually had something to tell and show you other than just my Mizu fandom. I’ve been an unusually active shopper last week; I went to Sello on Wednesday to buy that scarf and belt (and a new bra, but I’m not posting photos of that :''D (I’m easily influenced, so now I’ve got myself addicted to using that :'''D smile all the time. Got that habit from Zara. ^^ I’m sorry for always copying my friends instead of coming up with something of my own. ;__;)), on Thursday I went to Helsinki with Zara and on Friday I went there again with Taitti and Niina. I didn’t buy anything yesterday, thank God for that.

So now let's go back a few days, to Thursday. In Helsinki with Zara. I had decided not to buy anything because I’m saving money for something. Well, surprise surprise, I totally failed on that. We were supposed to meet in Kamppi at 12 o’clock but I arrived about twenty minutes early and decided to go walk around a bit and maybe do some window shopping. As it happens, before Zara had even arrived at Kamppi I had already spent 90€ on a HerStyler. >_____>''

It’s pink! It’s really easy to use and I can both straighten my hair and create pretty curls. *Advertisement* Money well spent but why do I always have to buy something that costs a lot when I’m saving money for something even more expensive? >.<'' It’s a mystery.

I also bought Matenrou Opera’s new CD ANOMIE from Keltainen jäänsärkijä. I felt pretty good about that, since dad’s going to pay me back for it. ^^

Here’s my j-rock collection at the moment. ^^ I’m planning on buying more in the near future, as I’ve already mentioned.

I had a private photo shoot (why won’t I ever learn how to spell that? >.<) on Friday because I felt pretty. I straightened my hair in the morning obviously and got a bit of clothing inspiration from Mizu. ^^’’ Yesterday I didn’t feel pretty at all though, because I felt (and still feel) slightly sick and didn’t bother with a shower because I was going to sauna in the evening anyway. (I really hope that I haven’t got the swine flu… Don’t think so, anyway. Everyone just has to half-heartedly remind me of the possibility.)

Ermm… Where did all the good photos go? o.O Now I’m depressed 'cause I can’t be as beautiful as Mizu. –.-'' I tried to do Mizu’s pointed finger thing but I failed so bad I can’t show those photos to anyone. ^^’’ If you don’t know what I’m talking about:

Ittemiyo! *__________* Notice the most awesome Tooto-nails too. (Watch in YouTube for HQ)

Uwaah, this is the handiest thing! I’m posting with Windows Live Writer and all I need to do is paste the URL among the text and this thing automatically adds it as a video. *w*

Erm, back to subject… What was the subject again? My brain just poured out from my ear so it’s a bit hard to concentrate.

Well, maybe I’ve already said everything I meant to say… Maybe I could add that the combination of Mizu, Zara and Messenger has completely ruined my sleeping pattern. Today I will shut the computer at eleven p.m. at the very latest. It’s a promise. I’ve got to keep it.

P.S. I forgot to mention... I got a new conditioner with the HerStyler. It's like a mask so I can use it only once a week and it smells wonderful! *u* It's also quite effective compared to my other conditioners... Now I keep sniffing my hair every once in a while. x)

In my darkest hours I could not foresee

...That the tide could turn so fast to this degree (Within Temptation – Our Solemn hour)

Rest in peace Jasmine You, you’ll be missed and loved forever.

I’ll try my hardest to make this a happy post. Even when in mourning, we need to seek happiness in small things in life.

Jag skulle skriva på svenska men jag vill inte. >.<’’ It would be good to practice Swedish by writing but I’m too lazy. And I guess that some people wouldn’t really appreciate it if I suddenly wrote a whole post in Swedish.

I have so many photos and things to write about! We were at my grandparents’ summer house again for the weekend, with my little sister this time. We swam a lot because the weather was great. Mum says that I’ve tanned noticeably, even though I still look pale by most standards. And here comes the photo spam:

The awesome summer house (the house itself and the sauna). The border of the lake is to the right, about ten meters from the sauna. I know, I suck at taking photos…

Sunset on Friday evening. The girl in the photo is my godparents’ daughter; I hope she doesn’t mind that I only censored her face… I just didn’t want to ruin the photo. :3

Lol, me. x) My hand looks amputated… And I tried Yulia Tymoshenko-styled braids… can’t see it that well in the photo though. :’3

We saw this awesome swallowtail caterpillar. It was about 10 cm long. ^^

Me and Stella walking down towards the sauna.

We were fishing. :''D Looks like I’m about to fall to the lake…

(Random comment: LOST SCENE *___* dum-dum-dum)

I went to Sello today… Oh no, I don’t want to start the Mizu-fandom at this hour… >___>'' But yeah, I suddenly got obsessed with belts and long scarves. :3

Sorry for the bad quality… Awesome pose, don’t you think? x) I had to practice otoko no winku a few times. :'''D I bought that white scarf and the belt that you can’t see well in the photo. I need more money~! Now I’m a bit afraid… What will happen to my aristocratic vampirism if this goes on? >___>'' How long will it take until I’m listening to AQUA5 24/7?

…I romanized Maladie/Saigo no Chansu yesterday. It’s freaking love, that whole scene of the musical. ♥______♥

Gah, I’ve been writing to my Galleriapäiväkirja way too much, I’ve ran out of inspiration in regards to my blogs. D: Hmm… I have a few photos of my hair in the past… Maybe I’ll do some kind of a hair post some day?

Oh, almost forgot!

Nails of the day. ^^ My mom’s old nail polish, best before 08/2006. :'''''D

We got this new chair on our balcony. ^^ And…

I bought a new backpack. Just in case I have to carry a crapload of books to school some day…

Now, maybe I’ll finally draw the patterns to my shirt… If I don’t end up watching Mizu videos for the whole night again, that is. >.<''