Wake up my dear…

AWWWW~

Yeah, you guessed it right; here comes the review of D’espairsRay’s gig, as requested by Zara. ^^

Yesterday was… Awesome, to say the least. Strangely enough, I didn’t feel like I was going to a gig. It hadn’t really sank in, though I was having a hard time waiting at home until it was time to go. Had my make-up and outfit ready at around four o’clock, which was about two hours too early. Well, at least I wasn’t late, for once.

I met Taitti at a bus stop at 18:35 and then we traveled to Helsinki. We arrived at Nosturi at around 8 p.m. and joined the queue after a few minutes of waiting. We got in faster than we did in Moi Dix Moi’s gig a few years back. ^^ Once inside, we waited for a peaceful moment and then went to buy our T-shirts. Taitti payed and I did the talking. x) My English totally failed me, as it always does. Since we were the only people around the table at the time, I asked how big the S-sized girlie was. The seller started to joke about a huge line of people waiting behind us and my brain decided to freeze, leaving me without a clever reply. So I just shrugged and smiled politely. The other seller gave me the shirt, telling me to take my time. I took the shirt he had give me, said I’d like to take that and an M-sized one and then Taitti gave him the money. We put the shirts in my shoulder bag and left our belongings to the cloakroom. Next we headed for the (gaah, I’m lagging big time here, sorry if my writing sucks) crowd. There seemed to be surprisingly much space quite near the stage, but we wanted to be somewhere a bit more close to the middle where we would be able to see every member of the band. In the end we were probably around the lines 10-15, roughly speaking. (At that point you can’t really tell how many people are in front of you or where the lines are.) I think we were pretty close to the stage, actually. In MDM’s gig we were stnding in the back near the bar counter. We could see the whole stage alright, but this time… Everyone seemed to be so close. And really, the first thing I thought when, after one and a half hours of waiting, D’espairsRay entered the stage was Wow, they are huge! That might seem like a stupid thing, describing four slim Japanese men as huge, but it really felt like that, seeing them live instead of in small photos. I couldn’t help staring Zero’s and Karyu’s hair. So big. *__* and everyone’s biceps… :3 We were standing on Zero’s side, but I could see all four members quite well. When the people in front of me first raised their hands I thought I wouldn’t be able to see about anything, but I was proven wrong after about thirty seconds. I didn’t pay too much attention to any single member of the band, but my eyes were mostly glued on Hizumi, the singer. When it comes to D’espairsRay, I’m mostly a fan of their music rather than the members themselves.

They started off with Lizard, which seemed like an appropriate choise. I felt a bit awkward at first, so I wasn’t throwing my fist up to the air and was just kind of glancing around to see what everyone else was doing. (I should go to gigs more often, don’t you think?) The second song was REDEEMER, though, and my brains were probably flying out of the window at that point. I thought this gig would be awesome, starting with two the songs I really like. Then I remembered that I kind of love almost every single one of D’espairsRay’s songs. :P The third song was TRICKSTəR, one of the not-my-absolute-favourite songs, but it too sounded very good played live. I wish I’d have remembered my earplugs, maybe then my ears would have ringed a bit less and Hizumi’s voice might have sounded better… Or then again, maybe those cheap foam earplugs would only have made it harder to hear…

Anyway, after TRICKSTəR the lights turned red and Hizumi pulled on his black hood. Marry of the blood started and I was in Heaven, for sure. After that they played Grudge (♥______♥) and 琥珀 (kohaku, should learn to remember that >___>). I had a really hard time to keep from singing aloud to the songs, since I know them almost by heart. Then… The ultimate my-head-is-going-to-explode-any-second-now …SIXty∞NINe started. Gaaaaaah, was that even ecstasy or what? ♥______♥ Then Infection. At this point almost all of the songs had been ones that I really love. Next one was MASQUERADE, during which I had time to breath and give my right hand a rest. Then PARADOX 5 started. ♥______♥ Euphoria, that’s what it was like. Hizumis voice broke at some points but it didn’t matter. Next song was Garnet, during which everyone had to scream. Hizumi was on fire (figuratively spaeking) during HORIZON, but I started to get tired already. >.<’’ My back hurt and my legs felt numb. Then they played Lost in re:birth, Screen and …Scissors or Bullet? (don’t know which, I hadn’t heard that one before), so I had time to “rest”. Basically I was just staring and enjoying the music. HOLLOW woke me up from my trance, for sure, and I sang with everyone else when Hizumi handed the microphone towards the audience. Laa-laa-la-laa-la-la etc.~ Then Hizumi spoke something about some kind of spirit (I didn’t quite hear/understand, lol) and said that this would be the last song… KAMIKAZE. ♥______♥ If I wouldn’t have been so hot and sweaty, I surely would have had the shivers running down my spine when Hizumi sang Wake up my dear… because that’s got to be my favourite part of any D’espairsray song at the moment. *__* Don’t know why, it just sounds cool. The band left the stage and the crowd started to shout for encore.

The encore started with Tsukasa playing the flute. *__________* So cute! I read somewhere that the song he played was from Spirited away, but I didn’t recognize it. It did sound familiar, though. He played for a very short while at first, then apologized in Japanese and tried again, this time playing a little bit longer. *__* After that, they only played one song, MIЯROR, which was a dissapointing in a way. First off, I would have loved to hear more. I read that they had had an about four-songs-long encore in Paris, they had even played BORN. But MIЯROR was great, of course, I sang along and enjoyed it with all my heart. Sadly, I wasn’t able to get any plectras or drumsticks. But the gig was awesome.

At some point (my head seems to be full of sawdust so I can’t remember too well… Someone was kind enough to publish the setlist, otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to write a review this “accurate”) Hizumi introduced the members of the band. People didn’t understand what he was doing, at first, when he said to the mic; “On the drums…” Everyone was just screaming, so he had to repeat it three times and then announce Tsukasa by himself. When he moved on to Zero and Karyu people seemed to be more aware of the situation. x)

Everyone sang happy birthday for Zero at one point, in Finnish and in English, and a few people screamed omedetou. I wasn’t paying that much attention, but someone said Zero had to turn his back to the audience to wipe tears away. ;__; :’3

Probably the cutest part was when Hizumi came to the front of the stage with a folded A4-sized paper in his hands. Once the crowd had quieted down, he started speaking in Finnish. “Onko teillä hauskaa?” (Are you having fun?) *the crowd yelling “yeeeeeah!!” or something* “Minä myös.” (Me too.) *more yelling* “Helsinki on paras.” (Helsinki is the best.) *even more yelling* Then, a slight pause. “Karyu, sano jotain.” (Karyu, say something.) *screaming continues* Karyu thinks for a moment, then says “Minä rakastan teitä.” (I love you.) At this point, te crowd went wild. ♥______♥ So cute, they had gone through the trouble of learning a few phrases in Finnish.

Hey, wait a minute! I’m sure they played in vain at some point? Yes, they did, because I remember the “Sex might be the only thing I can dominate with” part. x) Well, this description really isn’t the most accurate…

I wish they had played Reddish and DAMNED… And LOST SCENE… And アベルとカイン. But they played so much already, so I shouldn’t complain. It was great~!

My outfit for the evening (sorry for the silly pose xD):

Black, black and more black. How typical. And I didn’t wear those shoes, after all.

Not so fresh me after the gig in my room, wearing the brand new T-shirt. I lolled at the spelling mistake on the back; it should say Nosturi but instead it says Nasturi. xDD

That’s all for now. Sorry for the bad quality… ^^’’

Inochi wa omoshiroi desu ne

…That’s my first Japanese title in this blog, right? I hope so. I’m sorry for those who get annoyed when people like me use Japanese just for fun. I just had to use that phrase. I should be studying English, Swedish and French for the final exams (did I mention this already?) but instead I’m doing my best to learn more Japanese and German. ^^’

Life’s interesting. If it isn’t, do something to make it so. That’s what I’m about to do.

Sorry for having another break in blogging. I’ve been madly obsessed, though I think I’m getting over it, little by little. I’m still trying to find a way to buy the DVD but I haven’t been waking in the middle of the night thinking about Mizu Natsuki. I’m so glad, this obsession scared the life out of me at one point.

I spent two days (Tuesday & Wednesday) at my grandparents’ summer cottage with my dad. We went to pick blueberries and my dad almost managed to turn it into a competition, like always. In the end, we came back home with over 7 kg of blueberries. I don’t mind, eating blueberries straight form freezer in the winter is the best!

Here’s a photo of my hand and basket. If you look closely (click for bigger version, as always) you’ll notice my stained fingers.

My basket on the left, the other one is dad’s. After a little over two hours of crouching in the forest. That was about enough for me, but dad had to go back twice afterwards. Picking blueberries was very relaxing, almost meditative. Forest is the best place for us Finns, imo.

The cottage. It’s very small but lovely. It’s one of the places I could call home. (That’s my grandmother on the porch, by the way.)

My grandmother’s (or grandfather’s, I’m not 100% sure…) fuschia. Felt like taking a photo. ^^ Gotta love that plant’s Finnish name, verenpisara, which means blood drop. It is my duty as a vampire lover to love the plant with such a tempting name. ^___~

And here’s a very freshly awesome photo of me in the forest. (Note the sarcasm here.) When I got home the first thing to do was to take a shower. The cottage doesn’t have water pipes, so washing my long hair would have been a major pain in the butt. x)

So now I’m back home. My little sister will be at home in about two hours, too, coming back from Jersey. She called me the other day to tell that she has bought me a super cute souvenir. I can’t wait! (I miss her, of course, but she isn’t the kind of person who would admit she has missed her big sister. So I’ll keep quiet about that. ^^)

I’m going about an identity crisis here. Should I change my style to something like this this or this(with longer hair and probably adding some romantic/aristocratic/gothic/vampiric/princess-y things)? Should I cut my hair? (Heck no!) Should I start buying more colourful clothes? (Maybe next summer…) Or should I perhaps try to look like Mizu Natsuki as death? (That would probably make me depressed… A no-go with my face…) My addiction has serously messed up my mind. My new theme songs are Antti Tuisku: Aivan niinkuin oisin mennyt biitistä sekaisin~ and TikTak: Sekoitat mun maailman~. (Lol, you should consider yourself lucky if you don’t know what I’m talking about.)

Then to yet another problem of mine. xD What on Earth should I wear to D’espairsRay’s gig tomorrow? :O Panicpanicpanic, I have no idea! And which shoes? I’ll have to wear shoes I can walk on… Nails? Hair? Gaah, I don’t know! I should go shopping, but I think it’ll have to wait till August when I’ll have more money… I would like to buy a men’s jacket looking blazer or something but, as my mom (my dear saving angel) put it, it’ll be nearly impossible to find one that suits me and even if I do, it’ll cost way too much. Mom is scarily practical at times.

Wow, I didn’t use the word indeed at all in this post! I was watching yet another Austen movie yestarday and I thought it would have affected my English. Sadly, it didn’t. I would love to use phrases like Are you quite certain? or I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it eight years ago on a daily basis.

I think that’s all for now. Expect a gig review on Sunday or so. ^^

Draw back those tears, you’re not dying inside

Warning: Obsessed rant for the first 3 paragraphs. Skip these if you aren’t interested/don’t have time etc. ^^

I’m trying really hard to convince myself that I don’t need or even want that DVD. I’m thinking rationally here (just what my parents want me to do); almost 130€ for a DVD is way too much. When my obsession has faded away, I might be pretty pissed at myself for throwing away that much money. Maybe. Just a few weeks ago I thought about buying that Vivienne Westwood necklace at almost the same price. At some point I was seriously considering buying a BJD.

“Let’s not buy these yet, consider it a bit more”, said my dad with a not so pleased look on his face. ;;__;; But… I’m still obsessed! I want to have a DVD with Mizu Natsuki as Death in it. >:( “It’s overpriced. No-one should buy a DVD that expensive.” Yeah, yeah, I know, right. But that’s the cheapest it’ll get. And there’s this one single website from where I’d be able to get it. It’s the 2007 version, who knows how few of them they have in stock!

I’ll just have to bear with this for a while. Obsessions will be replaced with something else, eventually. Some day I’ll thank myself for not buying it. *Has reasoned enough with herself*

Okay, moving on to other subjects. ^^

Today we went to Lahti to see my grandparents and two cousins. It was fun, because the two cousins of mine live in Puolanka and I’m lucky if I get to see them once a year. And they are so cute. *__* They are 14 and 11. :3 Too bad my sister couldn’t meet them…

Me today. ^^ Why so serious? x)

Tigerlily from our garden. ^^ Macro photography, for once.

My new necklace. ^^ It’s a heart-shaped cage which can be opened and you can fill it with whatever you like. I’ll probably try to find a dark pearl or something, because the rose quartz I currently have doesn’t really show well against skin.

Then, here are some of my goals for the future. (Hopefully I can achieve some of these before school starts.)

-Have straighter back/posture.
-Be more flexible.
-Have more flesh between skin and bones.
-Weight at least 45 kg.
-Read for the final exams.
-Become more elegant.
-Learn to dance.

I feel empty, somehow. But I’ll play strong and happy, hiding behind the smiling mask. ^^ It can’t be that hard. I’ve swallowed back my tears for today. ^^

^^ ^^ ^^ Whee-hee. ^^ Convincing, no?

P.S. I became a member of Versailles' Street team (Finland) today. Yayy! ^^ I'm honestly so happy and excited about that!

Where There Is A Will There Is A Way

Okay, I seriously think I shouldn’t be updating right now because a) I might never get to sleep and b) I’m probably starting to sound like a broken record (at least to those who read my other blogs). I don’t know if this post is going to be on the huge side but in case it will, I’ll apologize in advance. Because I really don’t have too many topics to write about. I hope I won’t bore you to death. D:

So, I’m still obsessed with the musical Elisabeth. >_<'' (♥__♥) My parents are probably not so pleased with me, thinking and talking only about one single thing. I’ve tried to keep it down, though, since I’ll still have to convinve my dad to order the freaking expensive DVD from a German website. My plan is to buy my CD of the month from there (the German soundtrack of the musical with Máté Kamarás as der Tod *___*) and sneakily order the Takarazuka DVD while I’m at it. ^^ Dad will probably agree to that since I’m paying for the DVD but it would still be best to keep him as unannoyed as possible until the order has been placed.

I got my online bank account on Monday, by the way. It hasn’t helped me all that much yet, since the German online shop only accepts credit cards. >.<'' I guess I’ll still have to bother dad with my CDs of the month…

And then some big news! I have finally got the inspiration to draw! And I’ve drawn on computer, too! The biggest thing of the year! I can’t believe I was able to draw for hours before getting irritated at my lousy colouring skills. Here’s a very rough sketch of the pic I’m drawing:

It’s rough, as I said. The eyes and mouth look a bit disturbing… I’m going for realism so don’t be surprised if you’ll never see me again… My head might explode or maybe I’ll hang myself. Colours and me don’t go well together. I started off with the skin and couldn’t get even the forehead to go right. ;;__;; Plus my reference pic is way small. It doesn’t help that I’m a perfectionist trying to draw the perfect face of a perfect person playing a perfect character. (Yes, you guessed right; Mizu Natsuki as der Tod.) Obsessions <3 I think I’m losing it… DD:

And for the randomness’ sake, here’s something to remember when feeling down or über high or anything in-between. Especially for people like me who get random mood swings at completely random times. (Well, not totally random; when you are supposed to be having fun you’ll suddenly feel depressed etc.) We all love Xena.

Hope that made you lol. xD

In a rollercoaster

I’ve been having some major mood swings these past three days. From hopeful to anxiety, loneliness and right down to depression. -___-'' I even started a new blog for my darker thoughts. (Tell me, if you’re interested, I’m keeping it pretty much private. I’ll publish some of my art and stories there, too. And it includes mature content. ^^)

I was only able to go to Animecon on Friday, because I didn’t want to go alone on Saturday and I kinda missed my chance on Sunday. But I had great time on Friday, we were there for about three hours. I managed to spend 95+ euros during that time. ^^'' Here’s what I got:

The Trinity Blood DVDs (I-III) I’ve been planning to buy for a while now. 20 Euros for three DVDs, not too bad, eh? (Sorry if I’m starting to sound British, btw, just finished watching the last Lewis episode. ^^ I think I’m going to start talking in Oxfordian accent soon. o__O) Except that I noticed I could actually get the whole series for 19,95 € in a single DVD box. Now there are two choices; I could try to sell these three DVDs and buy the box with the money I get, or I’ll have to spend another 20-30 Euros to buy the other DVDs. And the last DVD hasn’t even been published in Finland yet. –____-''

I bought Loveless 4 for a bargain price, only 5 euros! And I promised myself a million times I wouldn’t buy the Crimson Spell mangas but, unsurprisingly, I failed. When are they going to publish the 3rd book? I want chapter 20! ^__~

I tried to keep my eyes off the jewellery tables, though it has become much easier for me to resist those kinds of temptations. On the other hand, I found another weakness of mine and it was one I wasn’t prepared for. Yes, ladies and gentleman, the ultimate doom of my wallet; Belle Modeste’s table. Don’t tell mom that I bought a neck corset. ^^ I don’t know where and when I’m going to wear it, but I couldn’t help myself. Damn addictions. >.<'' I actually managed to buy quite a few things I don’t want to show my parents. ^^

And here’s a picture of my Animecon nails:

Yoga-ta Get This Blue with nail stickers. ^^

Right now, another mood swing has brought me close to euphoria. I’m in a mood when I find too many things to buy. And I’ve fallen in love. ♥ I’m having a music orgasm right now. I’m sure that’s about the only way to describe this feeling. Stalking blogs is really useful sometimes. I found this musical through Siru’s blog and fell in love right away. It’s called Elisabeth and I’m not quite sure whether I love it more in Japanese or in German. The Takarazuka version is maybe a bit more interesting, since all the roles are played by women and Der Tod (The Death) has long, silvery hair. *___* The German version is very appealing too, though. This music keeps sending thousands of chills down my spine and I don’t know if I should laugh or cry. This is the best feeling. ^^ And one the reasons I love music. I already went and put the soundtrack I found on our library’s website on hold for me. There was just one single CD, but it’ll have to do until I can order a copy of my own from the net. I’ll also simply have to buy the Japanese DVD as soon a it becomes available, no matter what the cost might be. I’m having one of my huge music moments right now. Here are the links to my favourite songs so far, highly recommended: Die Schatten Werden Länger/Yami ga Hirogaru, Der Letzte Tanz/ Saigo no Dansu

So hot *___* I’m completely awestruck, hope you can feel it too. ♥

I’ll bite into your sinful neck

Versailles fangirlism strikes again! Ascendead Master is love, just like all their songs. I’m hailing the PV just now. Please come to Finland soon~! I can’t wait ‘til September when they’ll release the new album.

Kamijo ♥__♥ Hizaki ♥__♥

Gackt ♥__♥ …he doesn’t have anything to do with this, though. x)

Okay, let’s see if I would stay on one subject for more than two seconds. ^^’’ I should have done a Hizaki cosplay for Animecon. It’s a bit late now, isn’t it? I wanted at least to do the Hizaki hair style but I realized my sister has our curling iron with her in Jersey. And I suck at creating pretty curls. ;;___;; I’ll have to do some internet research for hair curling tutorials. That’s my favourite pastime anyway.

I can’t wait for Animecon! ^___^ Oh my Gackt (here we go again!), what should I wear? *panic attack* :P And what should I do to my nails? I do have something like a plan already, nothing definite though.

My godparents’ child might be coming over to my house for Friday & Saturday so that she’ll be able to go to Animecon, too. She wasn’t too sure yet, though, because she’ll have to get here by train and then go back to Mäntyharju after just a couple of days. I’ll hold my fingers crossed for her, since she has never been to Animecon before (I’m the one to say. I’ve been to Animecon once. xD) and I think she doesn’t have anyone else to go with her. She sounded like she wanted to come, but we’ll see. I’ll have to call her tomorrow to confirm. I found out I’ve got yet another Gackt-admiring friend in her. ^____^ Makes a little fangirl happy to know people share her interests.

I had great time at my godparents’ cottage. It’s actually more like a villa than a cottage. It’s huge and very beautiful. I was able to draw for the first time since I don’t know when and finally watch the Golden Compass movie, which was better than I expected, and Kiki’s Delivery Service. I also got to play Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII on PSP. Sephiroth~ ♥! And Zack, obviously ♥! ^___^ If only we could have played the Japanese version… Gackt as Genesis’ voice. ♥___♥ On a side note: the Bunraku movie must come to theaters in Finland, too! If it doesn’t, I’ll die for sure. Well, I’ll die of hyperventilation anyway if it does. And that’s only if I’ll live that long.

Okay, in case you didn’t notice, I’m overexcited by everything right now. ^^’’ A little over two weeks to go and then I’m going to see D’espairsRay! Whee~! Now I only need money so I can buy something from Animecon and D’espairsray’s gig.

I wonder how many of my friends will come to Animecon… Me and Taitti are kind of planning to go on Friday (right? o__O). I might go on Saturday and/or Sunday too, depending on whether I do or do not have company. I’m excited~! Oh, you can tell? How come?

Endless rant… Sorry! I will have something clever to say next time, I promise! .___.’’

P.S. I forgot! I’m a godmother now! Yayy, my dream come true! ^___^

P.P.S. If you haven’t seen this Versailles comment before… It’s hilarious! xD Poor Teru, he forgot to pull in his stomach in the beginning. And please get some longer pants on already!

Music, please!

Because I need to listen to something. Other than that, that title doesn’t have anything to do with this post. ^^

I feel like I’m mentally unstable at the moment. I thought writing would help so I’m updating my blog. I’m feeling down and get upset over every little thing that goes wrong. It must have something to do with the fact that I haven’t seen any of my friends in a week or so. I really need to learn to just grab that phone and call someone. My family has been bugging me about it, too, when I mentioned that there hasn’t been much going on in my life. Well, after next Tuesday I will call someone. Definitely. Unless someone calls me first. ^__~

Why only after next Tuesday, then? Because I already have plans for the weekend. From tomorrow on I’ll officially be a godmother. Whee, I’m so excited! But at the same time I’m so nervous. I’m not so sure if I’m ready to be an adult yet, having so much responsibility… It’s a scary thought in a way. People trust me and I’ll show them that I am trustworthy.

I'm heading off to my own godparents’ summer cottage on Sunday. I’m so happy about that, too! I used to spend a lot of time there a few years back but last year we only went there once. It’s been almost eleven months since I was there and I was getting worried about it. I thought something had happened and that we wouldn’t be welcome anymore. Luckily, I was wrong. I’ll be there at least till the next Tuesday, so you probably won’t hear much of me before that. They do have Internet over there, though, so you’ll never know…

My little sister is heading off to Jersey for a language course and I’m guessing it’s going to get a lot more quiet and peaceful over here. I can already hear the pressing silence. Someone please save me! (LoL) And I bet that all of my friends have plans for days when I’m at home and the other way round. –__-

Hmm. This post won’t be as long as the two previous ones. I’ll have to wake at 4:30 am to see my little sister off. If someone happens to be at the airport at 5 o’clock in the morning, do come to say hi to me! :P

Let’s finish this post with a nail polish photo! OPI Yoga-ta Get This Blue as promised.

Not a very summery colour, this one. I guess this would be my perfect blue but somehow I’m not really feeling that. A bit too cold for summer, don’t you think? Rationally thinking this should be my favourite nail polish ever; I would have killed for this one a few years back but now… I guess I’ve moved back over to the red side. Maybe in the next winter, when the slight tan has disapeared from my hands, I’ll spend my time marvelling over this perfect blue against my pale skin. Or actually, maybe I’m just sad because I cut my nails a bit and can’t feel any love for them at the moment… Or then it’s only because of that monopolizing I’m Not Really A Waitress. I shouldn’t have tested this polish yet anyway. Blue nails probably won’t go too well with my pink dress. (Yes, still wearing it. I tried to make a new dress, a blue one at that, for Kat’s graduation but it turned out so hideous I can’t wear it. I guess that after tomorrow I’ll have about 10 months to make a dress for my own graduation… Or maybe I’ll just make something for my dad’s 50th birthday in September…)

I knew it, writing did help! I’ve all but forgotten my previous anxiety. My parents are very sceptical about the usefulness of having a blog but they are wrong. ^^ Even when there aren’t too many people reading this, it’s nice to write. And with a couple or readers insisting that I keep updating I can’t just dump the whole thing like I did with most of my diaries.

Good night now, I’ll be back in town on Tuesday at the earliest. (Unless I decide to update tomorrow…) Till then, dearies! ♥

P.S. Sorry, I just had to add this… I’ve somehow started to drool over a Vivienne Westwood necklace. (This one.) What’s wrong with me, wanting something so expensive? ;;__;; But it’s so pretty~! If someone wants to get me a birthday present… ;P

Lots of stupidity and some bad luck

Two posts on the same day? (Well, technically no, since it’s already past midnight.) Wow, that’s a first! For Taitti, since you asked for more frequent updates. ^^

First of all, I’m sorry. Am I starting to sound like a broken record already? x) I’m sorry for not updating as often as you would like, and I’m sorry for being a loser when it comes to cellphones. I keep missing calls when I’m at home because I a) am on the other side of the house or b) have accidentaly left my phone on silent mode and thus can’t hear the call/text message. I usually remember to check my phone when I’m going to bed and it’s usually too late then to answer missed calls/text messages. So if I’m not answering my phone, it probably doesn’t mean that I’m avoiding you, just that I have once again failed to hear my phone. >-<''

So, about my life. ^^ Last Thursday I decided to prove myself that I really do burn in sun in twenty minutes. Here’s the proof:

And that’s four days after I burned my feet. Here’s what happened. I was sitting in our garden with my mom. I swear I sat there for twenty minutes max. and didn’t think anything of it at first. I only noticed how badly my feet had burned when I had been inside for about ten minutes. Suddenly I just felt tingling pain on my feet, as if little ants were biting me or something. So I looked at my feet and this is what I saw! My poor feet have been suffering a lot lately. All of my shoes abrade my feet on different places and it has been a pain to walk for longer distances. I’ve been sunbathing in my swimsuit with socks on my feet. x) Me and shoes really don’t go together all that well. I always go for good looks before comfort. Will I ever learn?

Okay, enough with my hideous feet. We’ll soon get to the bad luck part but before that, there are some happier things to write about. I was in Denmark for the weekend, for my very dear friend Kat’s graduation. The actual party was on Saturday, but we flew to Copenhagen on Friday and had some quality time as a family in Tivoli. Our plan was to go to eat something and possibly try out a few rides while we were there. My sister had never been to Tivoli, even though we have been to Denmark countless times. Well, she didn’t take any rides in the end but in Copenhagen’s Tivoli the rides are not the main point. I would have liked to go to The Demon, the coolest rollercoaster I’ve ever tried (not that I’ve tried so many, but anyway) but I didn’t want to go alone and nobody else seemed interested. My dad would have been interested to ride this year’s new ride, The Flight, but it seemed way too crazy for us and we convinced dad to stay away from it. Dad actually said that he should ride it to prove that he is a tough guy. To me it sounds ridiculous. We told him that he was already a tough duy, no need to risk his guts.

Then, somehow, me and dad ended up doing something I thought I absolutely could’t survive. We rode the world’s tallest carousel. The Star Flyer. My first thought when I saw that thing was something along the lines of: “That’s the one I’ll never try. The scariest thing ever”. I really almost got sick by just looking at it. Seriously, swing carousel has been one of my favourite rides but when it comes to swinging at 80 meters above the ground – you can count me out. I am somewhat afraid of heights and certainly not a daredevil. I can’t understand how I ended up here:

You couldn’t tell how scared we were by looking at this. Well, dad played it cool, so it might be that I was the only one about to faint here. The thought of going up to 80 meters and then start spinning at the pace of 70 km/h in those tiny benches wasn’t the most pleasant one, either.

Me and my dad would be the ones inside that red circle. Heading up, scared to death in my case. Dad was giving me a kind advice of not looking down, which I was all too willing to take to my heart. “Look at the horizon and try to focus your eyes on some spot occasionally, so you won’t feel sick.” It wouldn’t have been all that bad if the swings didn’t start to swing so that at times I was facing the ground and at other times all I could see was blue sky. I was so afraid that I would slip out of the swing and fall head first to the ground. Here’s the best pic I could find with the carousel at the highest point.

We made it safely back to the ground, obviously, but I was still shaking for a good ten minutes after we had got off. It turned out that dad had been holding on to the bars for his dear life; the imprints on his palms lasted as long as my shaking. It was scary. Was it worth it? Definitely. How I feel about it now? I’m so proud I could do that. I could conquer my worst fears and didn’t even puke or faint. Would I do it again? Possibly, now that I know I actually can live through something like that. But not too soon. I’m starting to feel dizzy for thinking about it too much.

On Saturday, we went to eat breakfast to Nyhavn and then did some window shopping. The party started at two o’clock and we stayed at Kat’s house afterwards. We slept at hotel and came back on Sunday morning all packed up for our trip back home. Overall we had a great time in Denmark, only the last hour we spent in the country was not so pleasant.

We had arrived to the airport, ready to just drop our bags and head over to do some airport shopping but things didn’t go all that smoothly. The airport was crowded and the line to Finnair’s check-in and baggage drop moved on slowly as a snail. No, the snail would have been faster. In the end, we had to go straight to the gate, no time for shopping or eating. But the real misfortune awaited us in Finland.

When we got to the Helsinki-Vantaa Airport, we didn’t get our luggage. As it turned out, our luggage was lost somewhere at the Copenhagen airport, along with about twenty other people’s. My biggest concern (lol, not really) was that dad had bought me a new OPI nail polish before we left to Denmark, and chances were I might never see it again. Overall I didn’t have anything extremely important in our luggage but some little things I use every day. We had to go shopping for essentials on Monday, since Finnair said they didn’t have any idea of where our bags were. We were all getting very irritated, it’s been long two days. Luckily, my dad got a phone call this evening, saying our luggage was coming with the next flight from CPH, which would land at 0:30 am. We actually got our bags back just now, my parents were already sleeping so I had to wake mom to sign the papers. I’m so relieved!

On a side note, if anyone wants to come to swim, our pool is open! I really enjoyed swimming today, the water nicely warm, around +27°C. When I finally got into the water, after a couple of minutes of consideration, I didn’t want get out. Ah, joy. If the promised heat will be too much for you on Thursday, come to swim! A good advertisement, right? I really wouldn’t mind throwing a pool party for my friends at some point.

Well, since I’ve finally got my hands on OPI Yoga-ta Get This Blue you’ll probably see a swatch of it sometime soon. I’m wearing I’m Not Really A Waitress right now though and I wouldn’t want to take it off! Just my colour…